I'm feeling so... Sniff... HORRIBLE. Sniffs. Nose officially blocked when I came home. Poor me ate only panadol during recess. Didn't go to the cantten at all. Stay in the class and stone. First time in my life bring tissue to school because sick. Two packets some more. Feel quite accomplished. HAHAHAHA.
Just finished watching Hachi-One Diver. Quite an old drama. Think it's 2010. Another motivational drama on how you work hard and never give up even though you've been crushed over and over and it really seems impossible to reach your destination. Somewhat like god of study. Just that I think Junpei's hotter than the teens actors in god of study. Both dramas are equally good anyway.
Ah. While this short motivation to work hard fuels in my, I think I better get started on my work so I don't let this surge of energy go to waste xD
I need to recover asap.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Reminiscent
Have I even mentioned how I dislike weekends? I'll just totally nua at home, not do anything and that includes I just can't get myself to touch my work. Even if I do, I'll be like super unproductive. Yesterday 3-6 completed 3 essays. Today? 2-9. Only 2 parts of any essay. This is super bad. I dislike myself for being like that. It's true that maybe I've been working too hard at school that once I reach home all the tiredness just overwhelm me and BOOM. Stop being productive. But this has to stop. I mean. One day. And not even a piece of completed essay? This is really bad. And I mean it. I'm disappointed in myself.
So what have I been doing while attempting my econ essay? Quite a lot on the computer. But this one thing that I can remember is that I was looking through my photos on facebook. And I realise that I used to be very ugly. Hahahaha. But that's not my point. Looking through these photos make me remember those times. It's really true how people say the people in them changes, but the photo never change. And more importantly, the memories stay intact. Like how it used to be. And it will stay the same. Forever.
I miss those times during teens December camp 2010.
I miss those times in Taiwan.
I miss those times in comm recce to sentosa.
I miss those times during teens December camp 2011.
I miss those times on the 31 Decmeber 2011.
I miss those times where we were preparing for C'est La Vie.
I miss those times we actually performed on C'est La Vie.
I miss those times during teens June camp 2012.
I miss those times spent together as teens comm 2011-2012.
And I believe the list of "I miss"s will go on as time passes.
Not so much of being sad, but the yearning to go back in time and relive those precious moments again. I really miss those people in comm. Indeed they were the closest and dearest friends I had in church and life.
And what am I doing now? I'm stuck with a bunch of work that I can't even finish. Can't wait for the Os to be over.
回忆永远是惆怅的：愉快的使人觉得，可惜已经完了；不愉快的，想起来还是伤心。
So what have I been doing while attempting my econ essay? Quite a lot on the computer. But this one thing that I can remember is that I was looking through my photos on facebook. And I realise that I used to be very ugly. Hahahaha. But that's not my point. Looking through these photos make me remember those times. It's really true how people say the people in them changes, but the photo never change. And more importantly, the memories stay intact. Like how it used to be. And it will stay the same. Forever.
I miss those times during teens December camp 2010.
I miss those times in Taiwan.
I miss those times in comm recce to sentosa.
I miss those times during teens December camp 2011.
I miss those times on the 31 Decmeber 2011.
I miss those times where we were preparing for C'est La Vie.
I miss those times we actually performed on C'est La Vie.
I miss those times during teens June camp 2012.
I miss those times spent together as teens comm 2011-2012.
And I believe the list of "I miss"s will go on as time passes.
Not so much of being sad, but the yearning to go back in time and relive those precious moments again. I really miss those people in comm. Indeed they were the closest and dearest friends I had in church and life.
And what am I doing now? I'm stuck with a bunch of work that I can't even finish. Can't wait for the Os to be over.
回忆永远是惆怅的：愉快的使人觉得，可惜已经完了；不愉快的，想起来还是伤心。
Friday, July 27, 2012
Smile a little more.
Monday. Had a really rough morning. But it was cured when we had total free periods after recess. Mrs Philip didn't come. Ms yang didn't come. Last period was Chinese = another free period. :D :D people suddenly became very funny and I was probably producing laughing gas within myself. Laughed x1000000.
There was amath mock on Tuesday. Went to imm with diana to get a book and eat AJISEN.
Wednesday was... Well. Horrible..? At least unbearable in school. Started to have sharp pains at my stomach ending English going PE period. Like a knife slashed my stomach and a wound tearing apart. It wasn't menstrual cramps. It wasn't want-to-shit pain either. Crouched on desk when English ended. All the girls has left the classroom without me. I repeat, all. Well maybe only left with Regine and HuiRu. It was tzeyuan who "woke me up" because he thought I was sleeping when he realized my face in pain. Asked if I was okay. That was sweet.And the. Two times in a row. Got... Outcasted by classclique friends. Twice. In a day. I'll just put it plainly here. During PE and maths remedial. Maybe an overdose of sadness..? I started indulging in self-pity. To make it worse, while I was at home revising for bio, I felt super useless. Couldn't stuff any facts in my brain. Tweeted I was useless in fustration. Then Gracia Sean and Diana immediately replied no I'm not. And Gracia said she'd pray for me. What comfort. I really need to stop complaining and start to be grateful for caring friends.
Maybe the reason why I'm actually more happy/contented than the rest of the people you'd ever know, it's because I pray. Prayer really helps to make me realize my sins, ask for forgiveness, restore the fellowship between God and I, and then be filled with the peace that passerby all understanding because I know that I am right with God now. I know too well, a Christian without God is most miserable. I've went through that. And I broke down twice in that week. Oh well. I'm now rid of my sin for self-pity. And maybe not as hurt when rely outcasted by friends.
Today. Although only 40% of what I studied for the biology test, thank God for sustanence. Then we had the handball prelims. Managed to catch a ball that apparently was a "cruicial" one cause it was too near out goalpost. And after the game everyone was like "You were so cool just now!" or "You were awesome!" or "Good game! You played really well!" or "Nice catch!"
Well, while I'm thankful for the encouragements, maybe these are too much a just a ball that I managed to save? Ultimately, I decide to give all glory to God. The fact that he preserved me and gave me strength for the game. I'm already so worn out from the whole week with a whole bunch of tests and homework. And I was already injured, with abrasions. I couldn't even have played for the second game without God's sustanence. And those know me very well they allllll know that I really can't bear pain well. Even a little would make me yell. How much more my four limbs that sort of slid on the parade square? Almost teared when the game was over because the sweat worsened the pain the wound is causing.
Had a really hard time bathing. Sigh.
Oh well. It's really... Late now.
Goodnight. :)
There was amath mock on Tuesday. Went to imm with diana to get a book and eat AJISEN.
Wednesday was... Well. Horrible..? At least unbearable in school. Started to have sharp pains at my stomach ending English going PE period. Like a knife slashed my stomach and a wound tearing apart. It wasn't menstrual cramps. It wasn't want-to-shit pain either. Crouched on desk when English ended. All the girls has left the classroom without me. I repeat, all. Well maybe only left with Regine and HuiRu. It was tzeyuan who "woke me up" because he thought I was sleeping when he realized my face in pain. Asked if I was okay. That was sweet.And the. Two times in a row. Got... Outcasted by class
Maybe the reason why I'm actually more happy/contented than the rest of the people you'd ever know, it's because I pray. Prayer really helps to make me realize my sins, ask for forgiveness, restore the fellowship between God and I, and then be filled with the peace that passerby all understanding because I know that I am right with God now. I know too well, a Christian without God is most miserable. I've went through that. And I broke down twice in that week. Oh well. I'm now rid of my sin for self-pity. And maybe not as hurt when rely outcasted by friends.
Today. Although only 40% of what I studied for the biology test, thank God for sustanence. Then we had the handball prelims. Managed to catch a ball that apparently was a "cruicial" one cause it was too near out goalpost. And after the game everyone was like "You were so cool just now!" or "You were awesome!" or "Good game! You played really well!" or "Nice catch!"
Well, while I'm thankful for the encouragements, maybe these are too much a just a ball that I managed to save? Ultimately, I decide to give all glory to God. The fact that he preserved me and gave me strength for the game. I'm already so worn out from the whole week with a whole bunch of tests and homework. And I was already injured, with abrasions. I couldn't even have played for the second game without God's sustanence. And those know me very well they allllll know that I really can't bear pain well. Even a little would make me yell. How much more my four limbs that sort of slid on the parade square? Almost teared when the game was over because the sweat worsened the pain the wound is causing.
Had a really hard time bathing. Sigh.
Oh well. It's really... Late now.
Goodnight. :)
Monday, July 23, 2012
WOOSH.
Had a super bad start in the morningg cause I couldn't find Chun's book near the library and I didn't bring my tie. Was thissssssssss close to aggitation and dao-everyone-mode. But thank God my classmates were super funny today that they kept making me laugh non-stop.
Super slack Monday. Must savour. All the periods after recess was free. Two teachers didn't come and the last period was Chinese = no lessons.
Went to take I/C photo today. They'll print out in 4 days. Hope I don't look like a maid x.x
Bought new shoes. HAHAHA. Bye beggar shoes... I'll miss you :(
Figured out the full intro of Because I'm Stupid. Chords and melody. Hehehe xD Was lazy to arrange the chords for the verses after the intro. Nua at the comp watched new episode of Alice in Wonder City xD Urgh. Can hetingyu and landiefei get together already :(
*GAPS* tomorrow is amath mock again. Sigh. Don't wanna get lower than a lot of people this time round. BUT I'M DOING NOTHING ABOUT IT. HAHAHAHA. *FAIL OF MY LIFE*
Shall... Head down to my room now and... Sleep. HAHAHA. I don't care if I slept at 930 last night and it was a super slack day. I'M STILL TIRED.
Kaybye. :)
Super slack Monday. Must savour. All the periods after recess was free. Two teachers didn't come and the last period was Chinese = no lessons.
Went to take I/C photo today. They'll print out in 4 days. Hope I don't look like a maid x.x
Bought new shoes. HAHAHA. Bye beggar shoes... I'll miss you :(
Figured out the full intro of Because I'm Stupid. Chords and melody. Hehehe xD Was lazy to arrange the chords for the verses after the intro. Nua at the comp watched new episode of Alice in Wonder City xD Urgh. Can hetingyu and landiefei get together already :(
*GAPS* tomorrow is amath mock again. Sigh. Don't wanna get lower than a lot of people this time round. BUT I'M DOING NOTHING ABOUT IT. HAHAHAHA. *FAIL OF MY LIFE*
Shall... Head down to my room now and... Sleep. HAHAHA. I don't care if I slept at 930 last night and it was a super slack day. I'M STILL TIRED.
Kaybye. :)
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Look back.
I've got so much stress my pimples are popping up endlessly :(
On the bus en-route to Diana's house. Listening to a certain song and... Makes me think I the time when I used to like Wang Zi. He's changed so much ever since he's got a new management and lollipop broke up. But still, the time spent liking him feels sweet even when I look back.
Reminiscence. Oh so sweet. Because those were the days.
Ain't it?
On the bus en-route to Diana's house. Listening to a certain song and... Makes me think I the time when I used to like Wang Zi. He's changed so much ever since he's got a new management and lollipop broke up. But still, the time spent liking him feels sweet even when I look back.
Reminiscence. Oh so sweet. Because those were the days.
Ain't it?
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Expectations, expectations.
The past week has been hard. 6 tests in a day. But thank God for sustaining me. I can finally say I've survived 6 tests.
Failed econ for the first time in my entire life. HAHAHAH. Bet Mr Chua was like super disappointed in me. Okay whatever I know I didn't study but people should stop having such high expectations from me. Only 7 people passed in the whole class. And when I got back my results everyone near me was like "Ey, 70 what?" When in fact it was a 40 odd. Okay okay I'll start working on my econ but I think I really can't work with expectations. There's something to live up to. And you end up not doing things for other reasons rather than what you actually worked for -- passion, I feel.
Decided last minute to not stay for night study because I was drained from the day and Listening Compre. HAHAHAH. Joel smsed straight after the LC to check answers with me. I've got cute friends :)
You can feel that I've became colder to you. You should've guessed, I've given up. On narrowing the gap between us. Maybe it was the distance that you forgot how sensitive I was actually. Or maybe we weren't even close enough for you to realize that I'm sensitive? Well it doesn't matter that much to me anymore. I figured I'm not much of a priority to you and I think I shouldn't be wasting anymore effort. These can be given to other friends who really love me much more. Making sure more of my current close friends feel loved in small little things that I do with utmost effort.
Made a new friend recently. Anyway. :)
Bio spa 3 tomorrow. SIGH.
Okaybye :D
Failed econ for the first time in my entire life. HAHAHAH. Bet Mr Chua was like super disappointed in me. Okay whatever I know I didn't study but people should stop having such high expectations from me. Only 7 people passed in the whole class. And when I got back my results everyone near me was like "Ey, 70 what?" When in fact it was a 40 odd. Okay okay I'll start working on my econ but I think I really can't work with expectations. There's something to live up to. And you end up not doing things for other reasons rather than what you actually worked for -- passion, I feel.
Decided last minute to not stay for night study because I was drained from the day and Listening Compre. HAHAHAH. Joel smsed straight after the LC to check answers with me. I've got cute friends :)
You can feel that I've became colder to you. You should've guessed, I've given up. On narrowing the gap between us. Maybe it was the distance that you forgot how sensitive I was actually. Or maybe we weren't even close enough for you to realize that I'm sensitive? Well it doesn't matter that much to me anymore. I figured I'm not much of a priority to you and I think I shouldn't be wasting anymore effort. These can be given to other friends who really love me much more. Making sure more of my current close friends feel loved in small little things that I do with utmost effort.
Made a new friend recently. Anyway. :)
Bio spa 3 tomorrow. SIGH.
Okaybye :D
Friday, July 6, 2012
Spirit is willing, but flesh is weak.
Not very active in updating my blog huh? I'm so busy.
I can like finally say ITS FRIDAY AGAIN. Though it's gonna end in about 3 hours..? But the night still seem rather early. *Confession* I have not bathe ._. Meh. Have been stuck on the comp. Have not touched the comp this week yet! HEHEHE. WHO'S PROUD OF ME?? :D
The cycle seem to repeat very oftenly. On a Friday at school: GONNA COMPLETE AS MUCH HOMEWORK AS POSSIBLE SO I'LL BE FREE! But when I reach home. "Oh it's finally Friday! gonna chill xD" And then everything vanishes. And end of the day I accomplished nothing. HAHAHA OKAY WHATEVER. It's the same for today. Bahahah. But feeling really tired today. Even in the morning.
Slept at 12:40yesterday today..? So technically I'll have two posts today. Everyone was dead in school today. We have used up every bit of energy left for the previous days of the weeks. Mdm Soh was so nice today during Bio lesson. Shen ended lessons 10min earlier to let us rest. Diana and I immediately *heads down*. Sleeeeeeeeep. Too drained. HAHAHA. But while napping, heard Kokyi singing the Dibo song. There's just something in his voice that makes the whole very funny. And then Mdm Soh was like "Wa, ey lesson over already. We have two sleeping beauties in our class." HAHAHAHA. THANKS.
Ms Yang wasn't around so we couldn't take our make-up mock.
As much as I'm anticipating this Monday already. Cause a new episode is coming up. Alice in Wonder City! :D But then I'm gonna have 6 tests next week. 3 of which is rather major. Chem, Econ, Bio. ALL.TESTING.WHOLE.SYLLABUS. You freaking kidding me? Gonna sacrifice 2 subjects for one. IDONTCARE. This is crazy. Can already foresee many many pimples popping up cause of the stress.
Think at least 60% of the stress I'm experiencing now is just me. I mean. I stress myself out. Probably cause I just realized how dumb I am and I'm rather low-achieving. Sigh. And I don't know why I've got this burning desire to do really well for Os. Just that maybe the desire doesn't burn hot enough to fuel my motivation.
I can like finally say ITS FRIDAY AGAIN. Though it's gonna end in about 3 hours..? But the night still seem rather early. *Confession* I have not bathe ._. Meh. Have been stuck on the comp. Have not touched the comp this week yet! HEHEHE. WHO'S PROUD OF ME?? :D
The cycle seem to repeat very oftenly. On a Friday at school: GONNA COMPLETE AS MUCH HOMEWORK AS POSSIBLE SO I'LL BE FREE! But when I reach home. "Oh it's finally Friday! gonna chill xD" And then everything vanishes. And end of the day I accomplished nothing. HAHAHA OKAY WHATEVER. It's the same for today. Bahahah. But feeling really tired today. Even in the morning.
Slept at 12:40
Ms Yang wasn't around so we couldn't take our make-up mock.
As much as I'm anticipating this Monday already. Cause a new episode is coming up. Alice in Wonder City! :D But then I'm gonna have 6 tests next week. 3 of which is rather major. Chem, Econ, Bio. ALL.TESTING.WHOLE.SYLLABUS. You freaking kidding me? Gonna sacrifice 2 subjects for one. IDONTCARE. This is crazy. Can already foresee many many pimples popping up cause of the stress.
Think at least 60% of the stress I'm experiencing now is just me. I mean. I stress myself out. Probably cause I just realized how dumb I am and I'm rather low-achieving. Sigh. And I don't know why I've got this burning desire to do really well for Os. Just that maybe the desire doesn't burn hot enough to fuel my motivation.
New found.
Sigh. Can't send Liz off. Neither did I get to meet up with her before tomorrow.
Ouch. My retainers are so painful. But I faithfully wear them almost everyday. :( maybe cause I wore it late today. Oh look it's 12+ am now. Means... HELLO FRIDAY!
I don't care. I'm gonna refer the rightfully yesterday as today in this post :)
So well. I had Chinese O orals. Scary max. But thank God it was rather... Alright..? Not sure if it was good enough for a distinction though... :/ tripped quite a number of times while reading the passage. Totally base zero for fluency in speaking during picture discussion and conversation. The kao guan still had to promp me some Chinese words. At least 3 times. Though they only asked only one additional question for both picture an conversation, I was rather fast. Hmmmm... Mixed feelings :/ On the other hand, I had really kind examiners. (at least that's what I think xD) And the male teacher was like super stylish/cool/kinda handsome for a teacher. The female teacher was kind too. At least I made eye contacts with them and they both looked interested while I speaked. Heard that male teacher, for other days/candidates, just looks around while others talk. And considering I'm the nineth out fourteenth(..?) candidate, the attention I got from them was really quite a lot.
Went to library to find Diana Lucas and jiashen. HAHAHAH the hobo, despo and ah soh. Originally jiashen was auntie. But to make the three names sound more matching, it has been changed to ah soh. HAHAHAHAHA xD So funny! And yes, jiashen is suchan auntie. Watches shows like 爱,夜市人生,西游记, deokman, jumong, iron daughter-in-laws. Like the most auntie person I've ever seen can! Then zhiqiang somehow was around. And then we realized he watches those shows too. So he became the auntie. And jiashen the ah soh. HAHAHAH :P
Went to jcube for pre-dinner. Laughed x100000000. These people made my day. Thy were too funny. Zhiqiang especially. LOLOL. He became funnier after not seeing him for about one month. And yes, being aunties, zhiqiang and jiashen wanted to leave jcube latest by 630 so they can chiong home and watch their 7pm shows. Hahahahahahahah -laugh until want cry-
I didn't mention right. I was feeling super sad since Monday. And it became especially worse on Wednesday. So bad that I hid myself in the toilet and cried. Thinking of it, I sound like an emonemo. But that was only done twice. Trust me, I hardly hide myself in a corner and cry. Tsk. But after today, these guys made me laugh so hard again.
I'm feeling better. :)
Ouch. My retainers are so painful. But I faithfully wear them almost everyday. :( maybe cause I wore it late today. Oh look it's 12+ am now. Means... HELLO FRIDAY!
I don't care. I'm gonna refer the rightfully yesterday as today in this post :)
So well. I had Chinese O orals. Scary max. But thank God it was rather... Alright..? Not sure if it was good enough for a distinction though... :/ tripped quite a number of times while reading the passage. Totally base zero for fluency in speaking during picture discussion and conversation. The kao guan still had to promp me some Chinese words. At least 3 times. Though they only asked only one additional question for both picture an conversation, I was rather fast. Hmmmm... Mixed feelings :/ On the other hand, I had really kind examiners. (at least that's what I think xD) And the male teacher was like super stylish/cool/kinda handsome for a teacher. The female teacher was kind too. At least I made eye contacts with them and they both looked interested while I speaked. Heard that male teacher, for other days/candidates, just looks around while others talk. And considering I'm the nineth out fourteenth(..?) candidate, the attention I got from them was really quite a lot.
Went to library to find Diana Lucas and jiashen. HAHAHAH the hobo, despo and ah soh. Originally jiashen was auntie. But to make the three names sound more matching, it has been changed to ah soh. HAHAHAHAHA xD So funny! And yes, jiashen is suchan auntie. Watches shows like 爱,夜市人生,西游记, deokman, jumong, iron daughter-in-laws. Like the most auntie person I've ever seen can! Then zhiqiang somehow was around. And then we realized he watches those shows too. So he became the auntie. And jiashen the ah soh. HAHAHAH :P
Went to jcube for pre-dinner. Laughed x100000000. These people made my day. Thy were too funny. Zhiqiang especially. LOLOL. He became funnier after not seeing him for about one month. And yes, being aunties, zhiqiang and jiashen wanted to leave jcube latest by 630 so they can chiong home and watch their 7pm shows. Hahahahahahahah -laugh until want cry-
I didn't mention right. I was feeling super sad since Monday. And it became especially worse on Wednesday. So bad that I hid myself in the toilet and cried. Thinking of it, I sound like an emonemo. But that was only done twice. Trust me, I hardly hide myself in a corner and cry. Tsk. But after today, these guys made me laugh so hard again.
I'm feeling better. :)
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
You all make me feel I couldn't ask for more.
I'd you have been stalking me, I've been feeling really down these few days. Woke up I a crappy morning feeling all messed up although there were friends who tries to cheer me up. Hahah feel that I sort of let them down by feeling sad first thing in the morning. Still... Hai...
Whatever. Had a super crap English mock test with new teachers who try to be fierce but apparently it didn't work. LOLOL. New teachers are always like that. And once they realize that reality is far from what they expect, thy give up. That's always the case. Hahaha.
Intended to stay in school to finished up whatever I could do. But then gimbin said he was going to Lucas house. And so me and Diana tagged along. But then jiashen and tzeyuan overheard our conversation and say we bohjio. So they came along also. LOLOL. This. Is. So. Funny.
Went to west mall subway da bao. Went to Lucas house. Did corrections, a little of oral and piano. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
CAN YOU ACTUALLY IMAGINE JIASHEN AND TZEYUAN PLAYING THE PIANO?? In fact one is grade 8, the other is grade 6. Respectively. HAHAHAH. That explains their pretty slim fingers. Mehhhh. People who start piano at a young age. All confirm fingers super nice. Yuanxing. Jingqiau. Shuying. Jiashen. Tzeyuan. ALL SO NICE. If I had continued from my age, I'd have not only perfect pitch but also super nice long slender slim fingerrrrrrs :( okay. Total regret. And now my parents want sign me up for piano. Are you kidding me? What's the point now? ._.
Okay whatever. I'm tired. Bye.
Whatever. Had a super crap English mock test with new teachers who try to be fierce but apparently it didn't work. LOLOL. New teachers are always like that. And once they realize that reality is far from what they expect, thy give up. That's always the case. Hahaha.
Intended to stay in school to finished up whatever I could do. But then gimbin said he was going to Lucas house. And so me and Diana tagged along. But then jiashen and tzeyuan overheard our conversation and say we bohjio. So they came along also. LOLOL. This. Is. So. Funny.
Went to west mall subway da bao. Went to Lucas house. Did corrections, a little of oral and piano. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
CAN YOU ACTUALLY IMAGINE JIASHEN AND TZEYUAN PLAYING THE PIANO?? In fact one is grade 8, the other is grade 6. Respectively. HAHAHAH. That explains their pretty slim fingers. Mehhhh. People who start piano at a young age. All confirm fingers super nice. Yuanxing. Jingqiau. Shuying. Jiashen. Tzeyuan. ALL SO NICE. If I had continued from my age, I'd have not only perfect pitch but also super nice long slender slim fingerrrrrrs :( okay. Total regret. And now my parents want sign me up for piano. Are you kidding me? What's the point now? ._.
Okay whatever. I'm tired. Bye.
Monday, July 2, 2012
No one bothered.
I'm just thankful that... You did.
Hmmm. I still can't get over the farewell thing. It was super difficult waking up today. Probably cause I was really worned out. Mentally. Sad in the day and even more sad in the night. Then wilde my time away in the late morning till mid-afternoon. Touched the guitar at home. Like finally after... 6 months..? Yes, I have a guitar at home. But I just don't seem to touch it. Figured out the score for 'At Least I Still Have You' but... Still need to work on the chords. Hahaha. Shall not bother about the chord. Meh. Now I see the skin on my left finger tips peeling. Hmmm... Guess cause I don't play the guitar as often already. Where has my first love for it gone? :/
Watched Alice in wonder city. And then went down to my room with the intention to do work. But I couldn't get myself to do work. I was till tired. So I slept with the alarm on at 430. But went it was 430 I snoozed x100000 all the way till dinner. But I skipped dinner cause I didn't want to see my parents for that moment. If not I'll get myself angry again. Did my work. Not much though. Left with bio and chem paper. Doing English tomorrow.
Just saying. We have two English mock this whole week when this is our MT O orals week. I dk t care. It sounds stupid to me.
Thanks for trying.
Hmmm. I still can't get over the farewell thing. It was super difficult waking up today. Probably cause I was really worned out. Mentally. Sad in the day and even more sad in the night. Then wilde my time away in the late morning till mid-afternoon. Touched the guitar at home. Like finally after... 6 months..? Yes, I have a guitar at home. But I just don't seem to touch it. Figured out the score for 'At Least I Still Have You' but... Still need to work on the chords. Hahaha. Shall not bother about the chord. Meh. Now I see the skin on my left finger tips peeling. Hmmm... Guess cause I don't play the guitar as often already. Where has my first love for it gone? :/
Watched Alice in wonder city. And then went down to my room with the intention to do work. But I couldn't get myself to do work. I was till tired. So I slept with the alarm on at 430. But went it was 430 I snoozed x100000 all the way till dinner. But I skipped dinner cause I didn't want to see my parents for that moment. If not I'll get myself angry again. Did my work. Not much though. Left with bio and chem paper. Doing English tomorrow.
Just saying. We have two English mock this whole week when this is our MT O orals week. I dk t care. It sounds stupid to me.
Thanks for trying.
Sunday, July 1, 2012
'Twas a blessed day
Churdh anniversary today! Bleh. Ate a super lot today. 12-1 lunch. Super good. 4-6 swensen's. Even better. 7-8 pasta mania. I'm so full now I feel like puking. Wanted to sleep an hour ago but I was too full. Afraid I'll get nightmares.
Oh well. The last ever comm meeting that I'll have. And that concludes my end of service for the Lord in teens comm. Then end of a journey with WHOLE in the comm. Ah, feeling nostalgic even when I type this. Memories with WHOLE just keep flowing back! Truly they are really my bunch of closest and dearest friends ;'). The many many comm outings that we had. Awwwwww. Thought it would be good to have serve at Lear two years instead of one. But it's alright. I know God has a plan. And His way is best.
Think I literally killed myself by the things I ate today, considering my throat is on the verge of recovering but lunch was butter rice. Swensen's was fries and frosted chocolate malt. Dinner had some super cold drinks. Sigh. Now I'm like coughing x10000.
Walked all the way back to church for SGH fr IMM. With WHOLE and Isaac. Yay for us! We made it in time for SGH :)
Sigh. All the farewells. Elizabeth is going back indo soon. :( to make things worse, MUMMY DOESN'T ALLOW ME TO GO FOR HER FAREWELL. I honestly think all their allows and disallows have made me have so many regrets. Do they not understand it's my last year in teens and it really means a lot to me? No. No amount of word I put it in their faces will I ever change their minds. BECAUSE THEY'RE THE PARENTS AND THEIR WORDS ARE FINAL. So annoying. I mean, really, I'm going out with church people. What's there to worry about? Class BBQ you allow. Church people don't allow. Does this even make sense?! Urgh.
Just because I'm a girl.
Oh well. The last ever comm meeting that I'll have. And that concludes my end of service for the Lord in teens comm. Then end of a journey with WHOLE in the comm. Ah, feeling nostalgic even when I type this. Memories with WHOLE just keep flowing back! Truly they are really my bunch of closest and dearest friends ;'). The many many comm outings that we had. Awwwwww. Thought it would be good to have serve at Lear two years instead of one. But it's alright. I know God has a plan. And His way is best.
Think I literally killed myself by the things I ate today, considering my throat is on the verge of recovering but lunch was butter rice. Swensen's was fries and frosted chocolate malt. Dinner had some super cold drinks. Sigh. Now I'm like coughing x10000.
Walked all the way back to church for SGH fr IMM. With WHOLE and Isaac. Yay for us! We made it in time for SGH :)
Sigh. All the farewells. Elizabeth is going back indo soon. :( to make things worse, MUMMY DOESN'T ALLOW ME TO GO FOR HER FAREWELL. I honestly think all their allows and disallows have made me have so many regrets. Do they not understand it's my last year in teens and it really means a lot to me? No. No amount of word I put it in their faces will I ever change their minds. BECAUSE THEY'RE THE PARENTS AND THEIR WORDS ARE FINAL. So annoying. I mean, really, I'm going out with church people. What's there to worry about? Class BBQ you allow. Church people don't allow. Does this even make sense?! Urgh.
Just because I'm a girl.
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