WHADDUP YO.

Went to watch Ah Boys to Men today at vivo! Cause dad wanna watch it with my soon-enlisting brother and since I saw some good comments of it, I initiated to watch it on Friday, which is, today. :) Yes yes I'm sick of that place too, but it's undeniably the most convenient place for me. And I like it how others are sick of that place too so they don't go there and then it's such an uncrowded place as compared to other places :) Wore super sui bian. Like literally picked out a shirt without looking what it was and just popped into it and then wore slippers, with the mindset that I'll go home straight after the movie. However I was... wrong. Had a last minute decision to watch ANOTHER movie after that movie with Nazira. HEHEHEH. Superrrrrr last minute. Since my first movie would end early and Naz was considering between vivo and tiong.

Met chenghao and nicholas! With my dad and brother. But since they were sooooo in front, so both parties didn't meet and went over to say hi! Then was sitting at the same row with Nicole Loh during the second movie. ^^

So anyway, the second movie I watched was the Rise of the Guardians. Quiteeee... Not a bad movie..? But somehow I perferred the first movie to the second cause it was more funny. And somehow Ah Boys to Men was able to bring out my emotions...? Yeah. But I thought the ending of Ah Boys to Men was rather cliché though. Yes there'll be a part two but they should probably have done a proper ending of the first part. Loved the theme song though :P



Happened to stumble across this.
1) Didn't know Haha and big bang were close even then.

2) I like the dance cheoro :

3) HAHA CAN DANCE MANNNNNZXC! (Y)

Above and beyond.

Beep beep. Just finished episodes 109&110. Oh my goodness. Love how running man invites athletes that are soooooo cute. ^^ Park jisung, park taehwan and son yeonjae. Hahaha. They're all so funny yet cute. xD Oh and there was the idol Olympic special. Hehehehe.

Oh look at the time. Going out in 12h and I'm not asleep yet. Did I mentioned I slept at 4 am yesterday? Errrr... literally yesterday considering today's the 30th. Then I set my alarm at 830 but I totally didn't hear anything at all. If my parents found out I slept at such unearthly hours, they'll probably confiscate all my electronic devices or something x.x Yes yes, under really strict and traditional upbringing whereby my grandma believes in sleeping early and waking up early; enforcing this belief on me, hence waking any later than 9 am for a girl is ugly and undesirable. Life in my home is not what (grand) parents perceives as proper upbringing; commonly known as 家教, but as modern day reality percieves, military. Or worse.

And I have the weirdest taste buds on earth. I ate the left over sour cream that wast used in baking two days ago on it's own. And then I gulped down the whipping cream that was left over too. After which two mouthful were left, I realised that the whipping cream was 24.6g worth of SATURATED FATS. I turned to mummy and said, "If in the next week or so, you ever see my face puff up or something, you know why..." And she laughed at me. :(

But back to the first paragraph, I think park jisung should be invited to be a fixed cast of running man should he decide to retire from soccer one day. Those three athletes have really cute voices too btw. LOLOL. Cute is becoming an overused word that it's becoming cheap in its meaning. Blame my vocab bank. :P

그럼... 굿나잇 여러분! :)

All alone.

First time literally baking by myself. Mummy only helped with telling me where the utensils were. She left me to die by myself caused I had to waash every single thing by myself too. HAHAHAHA.

The first batch came out tasting good! ^^ The crust was crisp while the inside was sort of moist and soft anf fluffy. ^^ Indeed it taste best when it's fresh from the oven :D But it was sort of overflowing because I didn't have the right trays at home x.x So as a result of it's overflow, plus the runny icing (added too much liquid...), I couldn't do the icing propoperly... :/

Next stop, Yoghurt cake; No-butter-cake for grandma! :)

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OHMYGOSH. I LOST MY POST THAT TOOK ME AN HOUR. Shall try to recall what I typed. So here it goes...

Having a little of a mixed feeling now.

WHATEVER.

Went for grocery shopping with my parents today! Absolutely loooooooove grocery shopping with my parents case I always end up with good food! :D Swang by laoban to get some TAOHUEY! Bought all my baking ingredients today and probably shall bake tomorrow! Oh I still have yet to buy vanilla extract though. Shall go cold strorage in the morning then bake in the afternoon. And I'm gonna bake something simple and easy. -coughs- Afterall I'm a very new baker -smiles innocently- and this is a really busy period for mummy so I don't wanna bake complicated ones and then she'll go crazy after cleaning up my mess. HAHAHAHA. No matter how much I try to clean up, my mum will still somehow help me in it. So yeahhhh. And the current maid's gonna go home soon while the new maid comes in so it's quite a hectic period for the maid my mum and my dad. I guess..?

So I decided on what to bake only in the morning and then I was told to come up with a list of ingredients that I'll have to buy cause parents will be going out in the afternoon, as mentioned above. And no joke, it took me an hour to come up with it. Yeahhhh was being super precise like when some recipes gave me for example "8 tablespoons of butter". Like seriously?! Who measures butter in tablespoons?? At least I've not heard of such a thing before. So had to convert from tbsp to grams. And then there some some like cups to grams since I didn't wish to over buy and usually the ingredients that you buy only mention how much does the product weigh. And then as a new baker, I was rather confused with the many kind of different flour sugar whatnots. So I had them all googled like "Can plain flour be used in place of all-purpose flour". Yes and I've learnt that Confectioners = Powdered = Icing sugar. And Castor sugar is more coarse than the former but finer than Granulated sugar, which is also more commonly known as table sugar. And then unsalted butter is used in preference to salted butter because unsalted butter has less salt contents which makes it a butter that is more fresh. And fresh ingredients = fresh baked product = higher quality food. HAHAHAHA. BET YOU BAKERS OUT THERE MAY NOT EVEN KNOW SOME OF THESE FACTS! :P Just bake for fun rightttt! Yes and vanilla extract is more attas than vanilla essence cause the former is really extracted from vanilla pods while the latter is produced by chemicals. Vanilla extract therefore gives a richer and fuller taste while vanilla essence is more watery. :) BOOYA! Did my homework ;) LOLOL. What talking me. WHAT HOMEWORK. OS OVER DI. :P

Oh yeah. Talking about project pack table and start making Christmas cards, progress up till date: PROUDLY ZERO. HAHAHAHA. :P

N: A game of Running Man anyone? (:
L: OMG. i didn't know Nazira's into running man.
N: !!! ms lee, really?! i'm hurt... )':
J: OMG MS LEE. Come join us and play too!!!
L: Haha. Nazira, I'm just trying to imagine you amongst your classmates. You'll probably be calmer than them, like Peaceful Gary. haha.
N: .... Hohoho. I'll be like Blank Jihyo, but not Ace Jihyo. And Gary is not peaceful!! xD
J: ms lee ignore sia. sighs.. STRESS.
N: Ms Lee said she's not playing. Met her ytd at Jurong Point. Instead, Mr Koh is playing. oh i forgot to add. Mr Koh said, "I'll be playing/sitting with a bazooka".

This is really cracks me up espeically when I've just finished watching a funny episode of running man. xD Peacful Gary, Mong Jiyo, Ace Jiyo, STRESS AND MR KOH. HAHAHAHAH MYGOSH.

Heading

My... whole body... aching so much. Back aching, arms aching, knees aching, neck aching, legs aching, ankles aching. Susah lah.

Celebrated grandma's birthday today. Limped so awkwardly around everywhere. Prashat asked me if I wanted to work for 7.50/h but mum disallowed me cause she doesn't want me to work at mbs... Okayzzzzzz. But so broke now. Need to earn some money. Yeah, I'm going for the attachment at Singapore Mint, but that's only gonna happen next year. I have to fund all the outings that I'm gonna go during post Os and all the baking ingredients (which ain't cheap at all). Not as if they will sponsor me. And even if they do, I don't feel too good about spending their money. Parents' money. Oh yes I did mentioned I will bake after Os right. :) Seriously can't wait! Hmmmmm... what should I bake?? Red velvet? Choc/nutella lava? Actually not so much of what I'm baking but I like doing the decos on the cake itself :) Much joy to it for me. Collected a lot of designs before Os and have been wanting to try them after Os! xD

Oh yeah, and lesson learnt from last year: Start making Christmas cards one month before. Especially when I usually give out 20+ cards annually. On other years I usually mass buy cards and just write on them. But since I'm a sec 4 this year and it means super free after O levels, I decided last year that I would hand make Christmas cards this year! Get stuffs from paper market and snip away! ^^ And I found out that paper market has opened an outlet at vivo which is like superrrrrr convenient for muaz. :D Shall start making them tomorrow!

They say that the sky is at its darkest right before the sun rises. That's why no matter how dark it is, you cannot feel afraid. As long as you wait patiently, the sun will rise eventually. Because the closer you are to darkness, the closer you are to seeing the sun.

OUCHHHH. :(

이거 봐... 너무 무섭다 :(

P.S.: If you were wondering, that's my right knee.

Post Os!!

Gonna sleep after this post! So prom's finally over and went to ice skate with teens today! Mission to learn how to skate was successful but I fell like so much more times than my first time skating x.x Yeah that's cause my first time skating was spent holding the wall. But this time I totally didn't hold the wall and left myself to die. Both elbows and knees all bruised and a blister from today's skating was worse than my first time skating. pic.twitter.com/BAmc1zoG How bad myright knee is. -Edit: All those red last night turned black... x.x- Oh yes, and because of the blister, I couldn't bathe carefully. Ended up slipping in the bath x.x Ouch... Hit my head against the shower door. Aiyo... I sound like an old woman right :( But okay lah, not that bad. But maybe because of the slip thats why the whole knee is red now. :/ Yep, it's swollen.

Thought I was really underdressed for prom the moment I set foot on Amara hotel. Like, all the girls were with so much makeup and... I don't know, they just looked super ready for prom. And I'm all like... HAHAHA. Nothing much on me. I even forgot to wear earrings cause I was in a rush to meet up with the girls! :P So then went up to Christine's room to have some eyeliner drawn and some mascara done. That's all for my makeup! :/ Yep, doesn't it sound underdressed? :( And my mum brainwashed me (again) that my hairstyle was really messy and it wasn't nice. So I went to Amara with a :/ heart. But then some friends said my hair was very nice so I went :D HEHEHEH. So dangerous, I'm so easily influenced by my mum -.-

Anyway, undoubtedly, the photo-session during the prom was the best part. These are the few that I picked out from my collection in my phone. Waiting for the others to upload. :)

Miss this girl. Think she's in China or something now. :P

Ten years of friends! Nicholas: 2 years of same chinese class, 2 years of classmates. Shaowen: 4 years of classmates! :D

 

이 오빠 최고! Though I haven't known him for a very long period of time and we don't really talk much but he alwasy treats me like his precious little sister. :D Such a hard friend to come by. :)

This non-existent friend :P HAHAHAHA. Didn't realized we were from the same church since birth till like this year only or something. P.S.: Daniel's another non-existent friend that I realized we were childhood friends from the same church who recognised each other only at the end of sec 3 but photos of us are not being uploaded yet.

 

Nazira shot this while I was waiting for Diana to be done with her make up.

 



 

At the end of the day when I removed all those pins in my head! Some curls there :)

 

Intended to post this entry at 1 am before I go to sleep but dad suddenly cut off my wifi supply and I couldn't upload the photos via my phone's hotspot so I specially painstakingly woke up at 8 to post this before (I forget later and) I go back to sleep again! :)

 

Goodnight! 

 

 

 

Look at the sky!

Hello hello. I bet everyone's like already busy preparing for prom. But what am I doing? I'm still watching dramas. Actually no. I've just finished watching this drama Heading to the Ground. Apparently it's a drama with low ratings. Probably because the plot wasn't so intense and rather mild. Not dramatic enough..? But honestly I liked it. Even the ending. Though the lead names were... LOLOL. Rather old fashioned. :P

Hahahaha sounds like I've got a lot of time yeah? Like it's almost 3 and I've done absolutely nothing in preparation for prom plus I'm here blogging. Hehehe. Oh well I guess mummy has brainwashed influenced me that prom is not such of a big deal. After prom so what? There's still prom in jc. (Yeah for those who don't know, I've decided to go jc if the Lord wills) And after jc prom there'll be errr... company dinners if I start working (..?) So life still goes on and sec school prom is just one small segment in life. I don't see a major need to put all my effort in preparing for it. :P But then again, it's a once in a life time thing. Like some people don't even get a chance to attend sec school prom (psst, my poor brother who's an IP kid). Oopsie. Meanie sister. :P So that's why I'm tapping on my whole year's savings for prom. :) A portion lah. Heheheh. Good enough for me. A decent dress and a pair of decent heels.

Can't want for tomorrow's outing!! ^^ Though I hope I won't bump into any css-ian. -mission impossible- sigh.

Alright bye!

So excited for tomorrow's tomorrow! :D

Woopie! Went to my hairstylist after a looooooooong time!! Yes, because it's really far away! Like at potong pasir there. Plus I was like super busy this whole year before Os. SO IT'S POST Os AND IT'S TIME TO GO VISIT THEM!! I've not really mentioned this but I really looooove my hairstylist! Hmmm... okay strictly speaking I don't have one specific hairstylist cause when I go that shop, usually there would be either the 2 out of 5 of them to attend to me. Cause the two specialises in teens/young adult hairstyles. Today was mei lan jie jie! :) Since it's a family-runn business, everyone there are like super nice and friendly. And oh! I can literally say they've seen me grown up! Mummy have been putting my hair in their hands ever since as old as I can remmeber. And I'll never go other places to cut my hair except there, unless I really don't have the time to go that far. But even so, I'll only ask the other places to trim only.

Pity, pity. The shop doesn't open on a Thursday. So I can't go there to style my hair tomorrow! :( How sad. Gah. I'll just probably not do up my hair or anything for prom thenz.

Anyway on a side note, from past seniors' + mother's experience, they all said that a lot of girls who go to prom wear super high heels, more than they can ever handle and then walk like a duck/ahlian. Partially cause they don't wear such high heels usually/their whole life. Hope I don't end up like that! x.x HEHEHEHE. It's been awhile since I last wore heels so I decided to wear them out while going out with mummy today. Thank God my legs ain't aching even up till now! :) Dear 3.5 inches, I'm ready to conquer you tomorrow!! ^^

예뻐? :)

걸어 본다

I JUST REALIZED STH AND I GOTTA BLOG THIS. Just finish watching B1A4's Tried to Walk and I got cursiou so I started counting. Sandeul has 5 parts, CNU 3 parts, Gongchan 2, Baro 2... JINYOUNG 5 parts! Erm, the way I count is like when it's their turn to sing their chunk before another singer takes over is considered 1 part. WOWIE. DAEBAKKK!! (Y)

Okayzzzz. This is really really crazy. Thought my hectic going out week will end when prom ends but apparently not... I've got another 2 more additional outings with church people. So let's see...

Monday: PKY, Huiru
Tuesday: Diana
Wednesday: Mummy
Thursday: Prom
Friday: Combined teens outing
Saturday: Youth Fellowship
Sunday: Churchhhhh

Literally going out every single day man... Ohmygosh but I'm already out of money :( Yeah in that sense that I don't wanna tap on my savings... Sighhhhh. D: Legs HP: 50/100. MP: 0/100. LOLOL. Someone save meeeeeeee. Don't wanna go out cause I'll be so tired but wanna go out cause it has been so long! :(

Yawnnnnnnnnnz.

Can't wait for prom to be over! Like seriouslyyyy. Everyday go out. I'm so tired. Legs breaking, hands also breaking. I wanna stay at home lahhhhh.

And can't luozhixiang film a new drama already? He has stopped ever since 2009 and I'm so sad :( All the other taiwanese dramas are not as nice already. And I'm almost running out of korean dramas. Sigh.

Anyway went to Orchard + Bugis today. Met Charmaine Lixian Dion. Then met Junho Tinhang that clique. Then saw Shuying. And then some bunch of commonwealthians I don't know their names. And then Nicholas. And then Diana. LOLOL. Kaiyingw as complaining that she didn't want to see anymore cause she say she wear until so cui. :P

Heading to the ground!

완전 때박!!

WHOOOOOOO. BAHAHAHAHA. I CAN FLY ALREADY.

HAI I'M BACK.

First thing when we went in the examination hall the invigilator from another school went "So hi welcome to your last paper. Please sit when you're ready." TOTALLY LOVE HOW HE SAID THAT. Towards the last 5 minutes of the paper everyone around me started fidgeting. Like quite badly. But I told myself "Keep calm, HuiEn. You can scream all you want later." And then when the papers were collected, accounted for, seems like that invigilator tried to play with us or something. He obviously knew we were waiting impatiently for him to utter those final words "Okay you may leave now." But he talked and talked and talked. Like it seemed abnormally longer than usual. HAHAHAHA. Like "Please remember to leave the room asap and collect your handphones cause you may not be able to blah blah blah..." and the speech went on. Then finally when the magic words were spoken, everyone went WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Anyway, I've finished watching The Innocent Man. ITTZA GUD DRAMA. I mean yeah. Hehehe. The writer of this drama was Lee Kyung Hee and if you knew her name, all her more famous scripts were like all with tragic endings. A Love To Kill, Sorry I Love You etc. All in the end male and female lead died. And always end with "They are finally reunited in death." So before the last episode of The Innocent Man, many watchers were speculating if it would be another tragic ending. Since the female lead sort of wanted revenge and the male lead had some internal bleeding in the head. And obviously we all want a happy ending. And it was a happy ending! :) Honestly ever since episode 1, I was hoping that Maru could become a doctor eventually since he had an IQ of 158. Though I thought the ending was kind of weak but at least it was rather satisfactory. And the setting was beauuuutiful! :)

Ah ah, and B1A4's comeback! Was spazzing about them with HuiRu like 30mins before bio instead of revising bio. LOLOL. Cause our brains were too saturated with bio facts already I guess. Smiles unknowingly pulled our cheeks. HEHEHEHE. When I first heard the audio I was honestly a little disappointed. Then the mv came out and I just watched it for the sake of watching it. The mv was very well shot and Baro's acting was (Y). But then the more  listened the more it caught on me and even during the chem mcq yesterday, the chorus kept replaying in my head. Then I saw their first comeback stage and I totally just went WOANJEON DAEBAK. Their singing and dancing undoubtly improved a lot!! And I totally loved the choreo!! And did I mentioned Jinyoung had a solo track in this mini album? His singing improved a lot!!

Last one before I go off!!

Ahhh. Completed 3 chem paper ones on the way for lunch out Wuthering family today. Dropped by the mall by buona vista for gugu to buy a laptop. The shop was cool cause all the laptop on display was playing kpop mvs. BUT IT WAS LOUSY. All snsd sistar secret dalshabet beast seungri only. WHAT IS KPOP WITHOUT SUJU??? NOTHING!! But the shop was playing this super nice Korean song that sounded like an ost. Was trying to figure out the name of the song cause it was reeeeeeeally nice. But gave up in the end and then brother and I started translating the korean lyrics into English to show off to each other who's Korean is better :P

Brother begged me to go buy soghurt with him and I was like all "No. No! I have no money!~ 난 돈이 없어다!~" Then he offered to lend me money and I was like "You think I very rich eat soghurt uh??" Hahaha can tell that he wanted me to go with him quite badly cause this stingy person offered to let me kope some of his soghurt. Then I went "you treat me one cup then I go" And he sighed and said fine. Then I said "OKAY QUICK QUICK GO GO!!" In a 180 degree change of attitude :P But I you scammed by him cause he didn't take two cups at soghurt. Ended up he was like "ey really too expensive la. Take big cup share okay" LOLOL.

Went home and prepared for tuition with Brandon. It was a loooooong time since I last saw him :) Then towards the end of the tuition he was like "you still don't know what you want to do ah?" And I replied "Uhhhhhhh... ya." And then he told me that I should hurry and decide and not wait till the results are out cause I won't have much time to decide when the results come out. After the tuition ended and after seeing Brandon off, I sped to the kitchen to search for mummy who was with yati and went "THE LAST CHEM TUITION OF DA YEAR. MY LAST TUITION OF DA WHOLE YEAR. YAHOOOOOOOO!!" And they laughed at me like I was some mad woman. Okay whatever. Hehehe. IT'S ALL OVER MAN!! :D

Considering if I should yay watching 当爱走进来 but have a feeling it's gonna be a super sad show like autumn's concerto. And I'm rather hesitant cause the drama is dubbed by China Chinese voices ._.

Hiatus!

Feeling somewhat... confident for chem already. But econs and bio... LOLOL. Zero. Die.

Shall take a short break from blog :)

난 할수있어 (^_^)

Seungri was so cute in running man episode 30 I'm starting to like him :>

Episode 31 haha's have dance. Likeacutepenguin xD

Sigh at how much my brother influences my life. HEHEHEHE. At least I can read and write in basic Korean thanks to him. Hahaha and then when you people are trying to figure out what I'm typing by Google translate... MAJOR FAIL. HEHEHEHE. Google translate doesn't capture 60% of the expression. GO LEARN SOME KOREAN BEFORE YOU TRUE STALK ME. Yeah? ;) Variety shows. Where I learn the most though.

Though a lot of time was wasted on travelling but it was totally worth it. Super productive morning and afternoon. Suuuuuuper peaceful at the viewing gallery. HAHAHAHAH. Diana and I made two "friends" today. B-boyers some more! Hehehe :P

Currently blogging while watching running man. Mygosh. Think tomorrow wake up will get 内伤 man. Can't laugh cause I'll disturb my sleeping family but it's like soooooo funny I can die laughing.

It was a good day watching planes fly studying. ^^

Life of a glass.

Tweeted goodnight on Twitter, laid on bed, but somehow my heart and mind wasn't settled and I just couldn't fall asleep. Friendship problems rang in my mind. And so I decided I'll stop keeping everything to myself and just pour everything out.

Didn't touched the comp at all today! Was k-ing my 1000 chem mcq book. Finished 300 questions! Finally back on track with my schedule! But bio... LOLOL. 200-300 questions behind time. Hahaha yeah. I don't say behind time in my previous posts for no reason. I'm reallyyyyy so behind my schedule. Must complete these two 1000 mcq books by Tuesday!! Oh and my TYS'es. Wanna redo them from 211 backwards. Much complete bio chem tys by this week! And then my dearest econs, shall touch it from Monday onwards. :)

Okay buy I admit half of my afternoon was spent on quality time with my phone. Hehehe. Finished innocent man episodes 17 &18. Such a tragedy. :( Kang Maru. The nicest guy that you can't find on earth. That's the actual translation from the Korean title. INFLUENCED MUMMY TO WATCH IT!! SHE SAID THE PLOT WAS GOOD WHILE I WAS WATCHING EPISODE 12. HAHAHAHAH. LIKE FINALLY MUMMY, achievement unlock for me and you. I finally got you to watch a drama that doesn't have your all time favourite stars like kim hyunjong, lee minho, jerry yan and ella chen. And mummy, you are finally not pressing the reply buttons for down with love, bof, playful kiss and personal taste. And out of all four, I only completed watching bof because I was young with lots of time during sec 1 while for the rest, I just can't bare to finish watching them cause it became too boring at the end(..?) Yeah. Goodie!

When glass breaks, the cracks move at a speed greater than three thousand miles per hour. All you had to do was to drop it on a hard floor, and it sets off this reaction that came so quickly that you couldn't take it back, even if you wanted to. Newton said that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction — there are consequences for everything.

가장 친한 친구, 우리는 이젠 그만하자. 네?

You know what's our problem? You are not the problem. Neither am I. It's our perspectives. What I deem as wrong, you don't actually see what's wrong with it. Notice how seldom I start an argument, if you even call it one. You always start talking about how unhappy you are about me. And you expect a reply. So a reply I gave you. But you needs to know that I'm a person too. There's a limit to what I can tolerate from you. This is the first time I took the initiative to pour everything out alright. All the other while I always went "Ah, it's alright. Forget about it. It ain't much. It won't happen again." But it always happened again in one way or another somehow, in the end. Really, you said you changed so much for me. But have I ever asked you to do so? Not that I don't bother at all that you did so much. But all I wanted from you was to accept me for who I am as your friend. My beliefs and stands. And then now you say oh look what I've done for you, I've never changed so much for a person before. Seriously, you would stop looking at what you've done for others and pause to look what others have done for you? And but trying to understand someone isn't changing yourself. Just because you weren't willing to understand anyone in the past but willing to try understand me doesn't make it a big deal that you actually change although I do appreciate that you tried to understand my stands. Like it or not, but if you don't put yourself in other people's shoes then you'll probably live a proud life. Go ahead if you think it's fine with you. 不是有付出,就一定会有实际的收获。

No, I'm not gonna compare and compete with you in who's more tired in this friendship. It's childish and pointless. But yes, I am tired, in fact very tired. Every time I see you upset and ask you what's wrong and then you give me a letter-long message about how upset you are about what I did and you feel that you're not important to me. I know you know that I get tired of all these nonsense. I get tired because I try find ways and means to explain to you in the least hurting way possible. But somehow it ends up as junk because you think they're all excuses. So means to say I've wasted all my efforts in trying to make you feel that you're still important to me, and that I still care for you as a friend. I get even more tired when this cycle repeats itself like ten over times throughout this short period of ten months. Look here, and let me tell you this. If you weren't important to me at all, would I even spend all that energy to make you feel slightly better, to feel upset at this matter, to even care whether you're alright or not? And I really don't understand why. WHY. Why you always go whose right and whose wrong when if you realized pinpointing whose right and wrong doesn't actually solve the problems that we have with each other cause it really all boils down to our perspective.

Excuses. They are all excuses to you. But if they do justify my stand, they're still excuses to you too? Then what reply do you want from me? An apology? Sure, I'll give it to you. But it'll be meaningless. If you fail to make me realize why I was so wrong. You said before to not care so much anymore. So you'll be more carefree and be happier. I was honestly happy when you started to think that way. Cause I frankly thought that before, you were too uptight. And insecure(..?) But then somehow or rather, you were still affected. No? Everyone could sense it.

Being friends with you make me feel suffocated sometimes. Constantly worry if I do this, will you get affected by it, even in the slightest manner. Yes, yes I am sensitive. But I don't get upset at people about it. Cause I know I am sensitive. So even if I'm upset about something really small, I don't show it because it's really nothing much and it's my own problem/fault that I'm actually upset about something that's almost nothing. And then I'll get over it. And yes, you've mentioned it, you don't have any special feelings for me. But many a times I feel that you're being over-possessive. Call that care for friend or what. But really, somehow, with this care that you give me, I can't... breathe. I feel that I've lost the freedom to be with my other friends who are as important.

All these ten months you've been telling me about how you don't like me to this and that. Well then it's only fair that I have a say too right? To pour out everything. I am not putting a blame on you neither am I saying that you are in the wrong. But rather, since we can't see eye to eye. Maybe let's stop being such good friends. Afterall, maybe because of our perspectives, we can't see eye to eye. Thank you for those sweet memories and let's start from day 1 of 2012; when we were classmates who got along well.

우리 두 피곤 때문에.

Shall we stop here?

Did absolute zero work today. Ohmygosh. What have I been doing -.- Watching dramas of courzzzze. LOL. Wasted my day away even though mummy didn't let me go out today. So I should totally have went out right. Better to go out with friends when get cooped at home. But what can I do. I have the strictest parents in the whole century. -facepalm-

Actually my afternoon was spent on running man. Hehehehehe. Song joong ki da brain! :P Watching for people to finish subbing the recent episodes of The Innocent Man. Then at around 4 tilll now I've been watching Sprout. A simple Japanese high school love story I would say..? Though I hardly ever find Japanese people handsome/pretty (yeah, really subjective :P), but what I like about Japanese dramas are the way that they are able to portary the warm between friends and siblings. Though their plot development for romance is a bit... meh. Not... elaborative(..?) enough. Not detailed enough. They're always rather vague. Or maybe cause the Japanese dramas that I watch are not really romance-focused. But then almost every single Taiwan/Korean dramas do have a main romance story/plot in the scripts. So yeah.

But then again. Taiwan/Korean dramas somehow don't portray the warmth of friendship and kinship as well as Japanese dramas in my point of view. Kinship between siblings I mean.

Shall carry this feeling of guilt to sleep and shall wake up with it and then chiong my work! Really behind time x.x Haven't even touch econs yet. I've sooooo dead. Need to prove mummy wrong that when I buy an assement book, I'll finish it! Oh yeah. Still need to touch my TYS'es. SIGH. Wish me all the best for tomorrow because I must force myself to survive without using the computer! :(

Alright then. Goodnight.

Around the world.

It's crazy how when you've figured out how everyone's related to everyone and then somehow I'll be mind blown. Like WOAHHHH. You him him?? And she knows you?? Those kind of things happen a lot to me. I mean, I just find it very fascinated at the fact that someone from one aspect of my life knows another one from another aspect of my life. School, church, tuition and... miscellaneous. LOL.

Somehow I've came to a realization that I actually really really look up to my brother. He was handsome as a baby but then think cause he became lazy(..?) He lacks a lot of grooming. So he's like ugly now. HAHAHA. That's what I often say to my family and him. "Gorgor, you very ugly ley." or "Mummy, why gorgor so ugly?" Sounds mean here but I talk with the teasing tone. But then on a closer look he's really handsome. (Have been looking through his facebook photos :P) It's just he doesn't take good care of his face lah. He has superrrrrrrr nice eyes. Apparently a lot of his female friends all jealous of his eye. "Ey can't you don't look at my straight in the eyes without your specs, my heart might melt." LOLOL. To that extent that female friends say to him. Sounds a little scary, come to think of it.

Why recently te admiration? Cause he doesn't lack anything in my point of view. Maybe except height. :P HAHAHA. I don't even think he's 170. Sigh. But whatever. His life is complete lah. Hai. So apparently he's a science student. But yet he excels in his language/art subjects too. He loves lit so much he gets A for it. He's a natural when it comes to maths and chem. Straight As for him for those 2 subjects ever since I remember him taking those subjects. Well, he's a science-y person. But he gets inconsistent A's and B's for bio and phy. Though somehow they always end up as A's by the end of year exams. And lastly. GP RIGHT. EVERYONE SAYS IT'S SO HARD TO EVEN GET A B RIGHT? Ever since he came year 6 he gets consistent A's for GP essay writing. And I don't even see him doing homework at home only till recently June..? And I started finally seeing him STUDY at home only during his study leave period. And then he shows off to me "My juniors all think I year 5 cause they don't think I look stressed" or things like "Do I look stressed to you? -.-" in a super duh-tone.

He trains chin-up at home. Thin for a male but muscluar enough.

But then he's not like a normal typical boy. He doesn't fancy playing basketball nor soccer/football. He thinks chasing after a ball is stupid. -facepalm- Sigh. Too smart already that's probably why. All he've been into ever since primary school was robots and robots and... ROBOTS. Sigh... -shakes head- Honestly I quite amazed such a combination like him exists.

Ahem. Can't say that I stalk him based on the above right? Afterall I've been living with him my whole life. :P

Maybe that's why I have high expectations of myself. Ever since young I know there's no way I can compete with him. I just don't have that natural flare. But at least I hope to be in the same league as him. Somehow I just don't think a major difference in acadamic aspect between us looks nice. Afterall we come from the same family and we share similar genes. Somehow the path that he takes, it becomes a dreamy goal for me. IP, triple science, blah blah blah. But then looking at the present, I've done nothing similar to what he did. LOLOL.

Sigh. I'm sooooo distracted doing my MCQs! :(

Twist and turn

Ever since the first of November, I've been the last one to sleep in my family and ever since the second of November, I've been the last to wake up in my family. Heh heh. Turning nocturnal soon ey x.x

Cannot lose momentum of studying! Dx Need to do some catching up soon! But... LOLOL. What happened to all the going outs after the First. Sigh. Everyone's preparing for their geog/hcl. I'm the only one who has the 2 weeks break. Actually not. Huiru has too. Just that she says to go out after the geog paper. HEHEHE. Actually on second thoughts, I don't feel like going out these 2 weeks. Just wanns stay at home and do my 1000 mcq book and chilllll with running man xD #lazymax. But I gotta hunt for my prom dress soon. Tsk. Mygosh. Bet I'm like the only one that hasn't found her dress yet ._.

Whatever. Shall turn off the comp and sleep early tonight. Hope my body alarm wakes me up at 7ish tomorrow :) Sleeping my braids tonight again! xD Have a recent love for overnight curls :P

Goodnight!

기억 안 나?

GOOD MORNING. Really detest the latest YouTube layout. Sigh... How many times have I said I hate changes. Looks like it'll take me another 2-3 weeks getting used to the new layout.

Bought the 1000 MCQ questions book. LOL. Crazygirl97. But I'll try finish all of them by O Levels.

Lastly, I have started watching Running Man after my last major paper on the 1st of November. That awkward moment when you have friends whose name has initials of RM and when you talk about Running Man on twitter with the abrivated form, that friend wasted 10 sec of his/her life reading the tweet. LOL. Okay so random. Tsk shall sleep soon.

Mummy's friend came over this/last... on SUNDAY afternoon and I was called over just to let the friend take a look at me and have me stand there for 10 mins for her to look up down whole body. LOL. Quite... Pointless ._. Whatever, at least I had a wonderful lunch with my family today/yesterday... on SUNDAY.

Hope my parents allow me to go to the airport and watch planes fly study.

Goodnight.

I don't know too.

Made myself resist all urge to watch running man after Os. AND YAYYYYYYYYYYY. LOLOL. Okay Os are not over. But all major papers are over. So I'm watching them now!! ^^ LOLOL. So slow lah. I've got so many friends who watch running man though they are not interested in any korean stars/varitey shows/dramas and everyone around me keep talking about it. And I'm like the only clueless one tsk x.x HEHEHE. IT'S OKAY. CAUSE I'M GONNA CATCH UP REALLLL SOON!! :D

如果你愿意一层一层 一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全 心全意

Whoop Whoop!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOO. ENJOYIN' THE UNOFFICAL POST O-LEVELS PERIOD!!

Okay although I kind of messed up my emath, bio, HISTORY and maybe a little of english. BUT IT'S OVAR. I did my best in studying, forcing myself to wake up early just to do work or STUDY. Leaving the rest to the Lord. HEHEHEHE. I FEEL SO LIGHT NAO. LOLOL. It's not 3.45 yet. Friends are still taking Physics :P

It's okay if I don't get a single digit, it's okay if I don't get 5A1s. Afterall, the Lord won't give me 1 mark more or less than what's best for me. Taking the path of faith. :)

Episode 69 :')
比起柯偉翔，其实趙東陽值得更欣賞。不是每個人都能接受事實，最後瀟灑­的放手，不增加她/他的負擔。有些愛默默放在心底更偉大！至少已­表白過了，雖然被拒絕但心中不會有遺憾。