Happy 29th.

You gain some, you lose some.

Think mdm soh have up on me on bio. Meh. But I really need to buck up on bio. Actually I'm struggling with all my subjects. Not confident for any. Oh my gosh. This just made me feel like breaking down now. Think this year has been rather emotional for me..? Probably cause of the stress cause by Os and I get triggered very easily. Happy or sad.

I wonder have I done my best for Jesus
Who died upon the cruel tree
To think of His great sacrifice at Calvary
I know my Lord expects the best from me

How many are the lost that I have lifted?
How many are the chained I’ve helped to free?
I wonder have I done my best for Jesus
When He has done so much for me

The hours that I have wasted are so many
The hours I’ve spent for Christ so few
Because of all my lack of love for Jesus,
I wonder if His heart is breaking too.

I wonder have I cared enough for others
Or have I let them die alone
I might have helped a wand’rer to the Saviour
The seed of precious Life I might have sown

Went to Clementi mall with mingsiew after bio sup.

Little confession...

Was seeing the chanel 8 show while I was eating late dinner after my tuition. They were airing some program in remembrance of Feng Fei Fei. Well I literally grew up with her songs. And maybe other artists like Theresa Teng, Fei Yu Qing and other whatnots parents'/grandparents' era. But they were good singers. Because my parents loveeeeeeee them so much, they play their CDs in car so when they fetched me to school when I was still young and cute but dumb, I used to listen to all those kind of songs. As much as I hate to admit it, I probably know more old songs (grand/parents' era songs) than all of my friends and I probably know almost all of these singers' songs. And I do find some of their songs nice.

So happened to see this part where feng fei fei came to singapore yearrrrrrrrrrrrrs ago and she was sing a song with local artist huang wen yong. And suddenly, it made me realised that she was such a good singer I was kinda actually sad that she passed away :/

The first song is good.




I shall just type so much. My thumb still hurts.

Someday.

Monday blues? Maybe not.
Had this really weird but awesome dream. So anyway, dreamt that I was at c'est la vie itself and I FORGOT TO BRING COSTUME + COURT SHOES like the most important things ever needed for every choir performance. But I wasn't panicking. Searched for my phone but it wasn't anywhere. Then asked Jason for his phone to call papa to bring me my costume. And suddenly, after the phone call, his phone became my phone. HAHAHA. NO SENSE. BUT WHO CARES. Then, again, SUDDENLY, I was at this fashion show thingy but I was like a friend of this super super renown photographer with his assistant who happened to be a super professional newspaper writer(..?) And it seemed as though I was literally living in a drama. The love life of me and that guy. LOLOL. I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER HOW HE LOOK LIKE CAN. Maybe just handsome in my impression. So I don't know why but I had to follow him everywhere he went. Finally, after the fashion show, he said he wanted to walk around and take notes to improve memory(..?) so I did follow but somehow managed to wander away from him. Saw this escalator queue. Super cool. It was frolick's queue I think. It was because the queue for frolick was so long that people queued until the escalator. And for every two steps of the escalator, one person moved up. Amused by this coolness, I decided to try queue. When I got to the next floor, somehow instead of feeling cheated, I was relieved to see that there wasn't a long queue. The long queue at the ordering lane I mean. The collection queue was longgggg. Super long. About 100+ people..? Yep.

And suddenly I saw ziyan behind me. Then BESIDE ME WAS SHINee's jonghyun and taemin. Hahaha when I was telling this part of my dream to yuanshan she was like "WHY YOU NEVER CALL ME?!?!!" Then ziyan was like calling them appa instead of oppa (probably cause I watched mblaq's hello baby before I slept, therefore appa) and she was talking to them in simple English while they were replying in simple Korean and super big gestures. Seems as though they've seen her a lot of times before. Heh. Then asked to take photos with them and my dad woke me up. There goes my dream.

Rained super heavily today. Thank God dad fetched me :)

Told yuanshan my dream and she was like being super high with me. HAHAHA due the heavy rain, like half the school population was late and dripping wet. And yuanshan said it feels like a crime to be dry and happy now. HAHAHA :P But I guess we were high cause of my dream that I told her in the morning :P

Had pe. Sprained my thumb quite badly. Heard the crack and it totally just prrrrriack. So I couldn't catch the ball after that and caused quite a lot of outs. Meh. Sorry guys. But pe was fun today. Accomplishment of running 15 rounds non stop and games, and game break. LOL.

Couldn't write properly through out the whole day. And my finger up till now is still swollen. Starting to form blood clot already I think. Cause its getting blue black.

Super high durinhg assembly with yuanshan. Justin bieber's baby sounded nice for the first time. HAHAHA they thought some students how to dance jazz in jb's baby. Yuanshan was like saying "Why no kpop one. If they play kpop I confirm immdiately jump up" HAHAHA cute. The moves were really cool to baby. That's why it probably made baby sounded nice. Heh :P There was this dancer called sheena who was super enthu. Too enthu I thought. Then this dancer from Paris who was super graceful and elegant. He was too graceful and elegant for a male. Then this dancer named Claire. The best amongst all I guess. The one with the best balance of everything. Seemed like she can dance almost all the jazz genre. The whole while I was just focusing on her :P So pretty when she dance :) yuanshan agreed too ;)

Had amath short test. Differentiation was easy, it was just the simplification part that was challenging for me. Log made me blur but thank God I was able to recover fast and finish up. A lot were complaining that log was super difficult but I found it rather doable. Didn't go for chinese mock cause my finger was over exerted from amath test. Anyway think mrs yeo knows.

Had a crazy time in class after amath test. Probably cause we were too drained from amath and we neeed to unwind a little ;) Ashiq was the only one doing his work while the rest of us went... crazy..? Heh heh. Actually honestly I feel that Ashiq isn't that bad of a person. He just needs some self-control la. Other than that he's actually quite fine. We were talking about how we solved an amath log question from the test and we used the same method so being excited, I high fived him. And he actually returned the high five! There guys, he's not thatttt bad right? .....MAYbe only sometimes... :P

Went home and WATCHED SKIP BEAT. WHEEEEEEEEEEE! <3 How can I love this drama anymore?? I said before right? I did initially watch it because of Donghae only, but gradually after ep 2, I thought that the drama itself was very impressive. It really projected how a manga would project it. (Y) Really applause the production crew and the ACTORS <3. Love all 4 main actors :) This week's ep 10: thought that donghae was gaining some feelings for ivy ;) hehehehe. I've got a feeling I'll rewatch the whole drama after it's finished airing. AND I THINK IT'LL END IN ANOTHER 2-3 EPISODES D: AWW SO SAD :(((( Cause it's a 3 months' work. They can't film much. The most, 15 episodes? But STILL, 5 episodes more. AWWW :( I'm sad. But I felt good after watching this week's episode.

I shall bathe now and try attempt my hw with my weak thumb.

Amirah actually remembered about my thumb and texted me when she got home and wished me a gws :)

Bye :)

I have learnt to cherish Sundays more.

My fringe is screwed. It's uneven and ... Urgh. :( regretted cutting it into the length I want so fast. Should have slowly cut my way up. Now it's uneven and short and idk what. Hope I can still pin it up in school and hope IT GROWS FAST.

Cut my finger while cutting my fringe ._.

I can't believe I'm saying this here but, I'm very sad my tweaser is spoiling. :(

Top of the world.

Met brother on the way home while he was going out yesterday. Then he asked me if I wanted to run tomorrow. I recklessly said 6. But I pre-warned him that my stamina suck so much I failed my recent 2.4 test and my jogging pace was probably his walking pace. But he said never mind, if can't run anymmore just brisk walk. And he said on. But I changed it to 630 in the end cause I didn't want to wake up at 5. Woke up at 6, got ready at 630. BUT HE HAVE NOT WOKE UP. LAO KUI. Went up to his room and he woke up immdiately anyway. Ate a small piece of banana and had a sip of water. Target: 30min non-stop running. I FREAKING DID IT OKAY. Ran the whole neighbourbood and then up to kent ridge. Ohmygosh, you have no idea how I almost died while running up the slope and steps up kent rigde. But hey! When we've ran one whole round along the whole neighbourhood, brother said we've completed 12:13 of 30. According to him according to google maps, the distance we covered was 2.4km. But because the measurements were taken with satellites, so the distance may be rather off, so it's better to take the distance in 2km. BUT HELLO! My most recent trial test for 2.4km was 18min 41sec. And I managed to run 2km in 12min 13sec?? Incredible!! :D So proud of me. But I guess it was because I was on bata shoes when I ran 2.4 and in proper sport shoes for the 30min run :) And the banana helped man xD

Brother says he wanna run with me every Saturday morning xD Okay on. I can improve on my 2.4 timing! :D Need to create a running playlist on my phone. If not I'll just use his iShuffle. It's tiring carring a phone around. But brother said phones can be used as weights in hands to increase your legs momentum. Oh and I ran the whole course with my phone on my right hand and now it's super suan. Brother said "That's why you never see me keep changing hands meh?". Can't blame me right Imma beginner runner/in exercising. :( How would I know I had to shift the weight here and there between both hands? The whole while I was concentrating on your bobbing head in front of me, afraid that if I ran too slow, you couldn't cover a greater distant D:

But it was nice and caring of brother to jog on the spot while waiting for me after entering the 35th minute of run or something. HAHAHAHA TOTAL BURN OUT. But the run was super worth it. Cause the view from kent ridge was superb. Nice air there too. Brother says we should bring our ezlinks card when we run next time so that we can walk to hort part then jog to mout faber then take an mrt back to home.

Went to the SPC next door and got carrot juice and went home for a refreshing bathe and had breakfast! :D

It became so bright in just a few minutes :)

Ever since there were choir practices on Saturdays, I've been feeling so burnt out every Saturdays. Saturdays have never been relaxing for me. It have became tense, rush and demanding. After my last tuition for the day today, had a somewhat long chat with mummy. Told her how recently 2-3 christian friends have been discouraged by how despite they believe in Christ but they have not felt God working in their lives for the past 2-3 years. It's just so hard to explain for me even though if I understand it within me. What is it to feel God working in my own life. So I asked her. And the whole conversation make me feel so blessed that I've got the priviledge that I grew up in CPBPC and it has laid the foundation of my faith. Blessed that CPBPC is clear with every thing that it preaches and it really ministers to everyone because the message have all been faithfully preached, in the bible context. Never felt more blessed.

Thank God.

Shall sleep early tonight.