Last day of March.

Okay, I've been soooooooo lazy these past few days that I'm so inconsistent about my blogging.

Did 2 things that made me feel so accomplished today. But it didn't made me productive :(

So let's get the ball rolling. Finally completed Where I Belong!! The story was... So so. Not as awesome/touching/dramatic as I expected but it was still readable. Was able to finally finish the book as the sec 4s were FINALLY allowed to slack during choir. Tried to do math but kinda failed. So I decided to read the book. Then I've been reading during bus rides and while waiting for Brandon just now. HAHAHAHA Brandon was being funny just now. He taught me a short cut that his teacher taught him and he told me "Use this effective method. If your teacher don't allow then... Screw the teacher la, I mean this was taught by my previous chem teacher" And I was like HAHAHAHAHA (Y). Next book I'm starting on: Life of a glass. I remember how I was excited about reading that book but I don't seem so excited starting it :/ The summary of the book doesn't really excite me anymore...

Then next thing. Finally finished another drama again. The last one was Dream High 2. Now it's OPERATION PROPOSAL. The part where I really cried was the last episode. Well the drama started off quite well. Made me want to continue watching at the begining. Psst. Started it cause of Yoo Seungho alright :) But it started to get super draggy and tiring for me around ep 12-14 cause HE JUST CAN'T GET YISEUL NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES HE TIME TRAVELS AND HOW HARD HE TRIES. Baekho was like... Stretched. And in the end when he returns back to time, he always doesn't end up with yiseul and the result was always the same: yiseul marrying the coach. Urgh. Even I was getting tired for Baekho. When I was at those episodes, I wanted to stop watching the whole drama. But I carried on anyway cause I since I watched it for seungho, I must all finish watching the whole thing. Psst. He's not so hot in this drama ._. Okay but still rather handsome. The lead actress was soooooooooo pretty :D Anyway. Then I finally arrived the last episode and there was a surprising but pleasant twist. It turns out the Conductor was Baekho's late dad! My gosh. So touching. Then Baekho wanted to go back in time for the last time so that he could save Yiseul from the accident and die in her place. He realized that no matter how hard he tried to change the past, he still could not change himself. Or his love for yiseul, rather. SO TOUCHING. The scenes with Baekho's last goodbye with his dad and when they played his video for yiseul's wedding. URGHHHHHHHH :( My gosh, I feel sad now. But the ending was SO SUPER GOOD. I DON'T CARE HOW HE SUDDENLY RECOVERED HIS MEMORY. I DON'T CARE HOW THE DRAMA DIDN'T BOTHER TO EXPLAIN HOW HE SUDDENLY REMEMBERED YISEUL.

THE. POINT. WAS. THEY FINALLY ENDED UP TOGETHER AFTER EVERYTHING THAT BAEKHO HAS DONE. I'm contented.

LOL. How shallow of me. Whatever.

Planned to do maths today. But look at me. Look at the time now. I'm still on the comp. Genius.
Shall do some sit ups before I bathe to get my muscles accustomed to pushing. LOLOL. Apparently, according to my brother, he said that you must train your abs for sit and reach cause you need the muscles to push you down. Hope what he's saying is true. Meh. Then shall clear all my doubts on ROC and MaxMin. Sigh. I'm in a really pathetic state.

"You will regret eveuntually if you think that tomorrow will always come. Don't forget, only fools procrastinate." -Operation Proposal

So hot.

Lazing on the bed now and feeling so hot. So close to turning on the air con but I'm so comfortable in my bed I don't wanna move out of bed. If I on the air con I need to 1. Get off the bed. 2. Close the window. 3. Go back to bed. :(

Went to buy socks today.

Listening to 93.3

Okay bye

Breakdown.

I don't think I can take this any longer. I may break down soon. Everything is all coming to me at once. EVERYTHING. Everything's messed up. Utterly.

Don't be surprised to see a zombie tomorrow.

Pointless.

I don't like how things are going on between us. It's cold. Don't you realized that we've gradually stopped talking to each other? We've stopped telling each other our thoughts, our life, everything. We've stopped totally. Was it cause you found someone else better? That somehow, maybe I was replaced. Was it because we changed? That we've found different interest. How wide is the gap between us exactly? How far apart are we?

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Today was a tiring day. Tuesday timetable on a Wednesday? Everyone was halfdead. But I remembered that English was the best lesson today. Mainly because we were all laughing. It's been so long since I've last laughed so genuinely. Since I've laughed my hearts out. Since I've laughed till my stomach hurt.

Had chem remedial.

Bused with Jason home.

Bye.

Major update.

So. Let's start from limelight.

I. Was. Depressed. Utterly. Felt like an unwanted person. Sticking out. Being the only oddie. I honestly thought that we would be able to go out with friends. Take limelight as an opportunity to go out and have some fun. It's probably the only last official thing. But I was wrong. I was only the very very last minute. Like 4h before the show..? I've got no one to go with. No one wanted to go out with me.

I broke down in class.

Walked to the bus stop with the strong intention of not going to limelight at all. I was this close to NOT going. I wanted you to know I was so disappointed in you. I'm not angry that we didn't go out. I was out right disappointed. At your disdained face and reply. You seemed like you didn't want me anymore.

Was at the bus stop. I reckoned Diana told Ruilin. And ruilin sent me a text inviting me out to go with the guiders. I rejected her cause I didn't wasnt to spoil the outing. It's an all-guiders. I know my limits. But Diana persuaded me. And Ruilin said she'll extra with me. Touched. People that I don't talk to often, people like her, cared so much. I teared a little at the bus stop. Malu maxed. But tried very hard to pull off that "I have a flu." They convinced me to go out with them.

Head home. Was feeling so weary. Causally picked out a dress. Bathed. Mum convinced me to wear heels. Off I went. To city hall. To Thai express. My mood lifted.

Met the 3 at esplanade. Sorry I forgot to reply you Cheryl! :/ Jq probably realized I wasn't as cheery as I should. She apologized. Silly! You did nothing wrong!

The pieces played at limlight were awesome. Really. You guys did great!

Photospamsession after concert. (Y) Sec 4s were the last left. Cause we were all busy taking photos with one another.

Tsk. These were the nicer shots of me. Cause I wasn't in the mood to dress up, so was rather cui in a lot of the photos x.x

And not forgetting these people who made my day. One, two, three four. These four photos above with all these people. Who actually cared to make me feel cared for.