I'm feeling so... Sniff... HORRIBLE. Sniffs. Nose officially blocked when I came home. Poor me ate only panadol during recess. Didn't go to the cantten at all. Stay in the class and stone. First time in my life bring tissue to school because sick. Two packets some more. Feel quite accomplished. HAHAHAHA.
Just finished watching Hachi-One Diver. Quite an old drama. Think it's 2010. Another motivational drama on how you work hard and never give up even though you've been crushed over and over and it really seems impossible to reach your destination. Somewhat like god of study. Just that I think Junpei's hotter than the teens actors in god of study. Both dramas are equally good anyway.
Ah. While this short motivation to work hard fuels in my, I think I better get started on my work so I don't let this surge of energy go to waste xD
I need to recover asap.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Reminiscent
Have I even mentioned how I dislike weekends? I'll just totally nua at home, not do anything and that includes I just can't get myself to touch my work. Even if I do, I'll be like super unproductive. Yesterday 3-6 completed 3 essays. Today? 2-9. Only 2 parts of any essay. This is super bad. I dislike myself for being like that. It's true that maybe I've been working too hard at school that once I reach home all the tiredness just overwhelm me and BOOM. Stop being productive. But this has to stop. I mean. One day. And not even a piece of completed essay? This is really bad. And I mean it. I'm disappointed in myself.
So what have I been doing while attempting my econ essay? Quite a lot on the computer. But this one thing that I can remember is that I was looking through my photos on facebook. And I realise that I used to be very ugly. Hahahaha. But that's not my point. Looking through these photos make me remember those times. It's really true how people say the people in them changes, but the photo never change. And more importantly, the memories stay intact. Like how it used to be. And it will stay the same. Forever.
I miss those times during teens December camp 2010.
I miss those times in Taiwan.
I miss those times in comm recce to sentosa.
I miss those times during teens December camp 2011.
I miss those times on the 31 Decmeber 2011.
I miss those times where we were preparing for C'est La Vie.
I miss those times we actually performed on C'est La Vie.
I miss those times during teens June camp 2012.
I miss those times spent together as teens comm 2011-2012.
And I believe the list of "I miss"s will go on as time passes.
Not so much of being sad, but the yearning to go back in time and relive those precious moments again. I really miss those people in comm. Indeed they were the closest and dearest friends I had in church and life.
And what am I doing now? I'm stuck with a bunch of work that I can't even finish. Can't wait for the Os to be over.
回忆永远是惆怅的：愉快的使人觉得，可惜已经完了；不愉快的，想起来还是伤心。
So what have I been doing while attempting my econ essay? Quite a lot on the computer. But this one thing that I can remember is that I was looking through my photos on facebook. And I realise that I used to be very ugly. Hahahaha. But that's not my point. Looking through these photos make me remember those times. It's really true how people say the people in them changes, but the photo never change. And more importantly, the memories stay intact. Like how it used to be. And it will stay the same. Forever.
I miss those times during teens December camp 2010.
I miss those times in Taiwan.
I miss those times in comm recce to sentosa.
I miss those times during teens December camp 2011.
I miss those times on the 31 Decmeber 2011.
I miss those times where we were preparing for C'est La Vie.
I miss those times we actually performed on C'est La Vie.
I miss those times during teens June camp 2012.
I miss those times spent together as teens comm 2011-2012.
And I believe the list of "I miss"s will go on as time passes.
Not so much of being sad, but the yearning to go back in time and relive those precious moments again. I really miss those people in comm. Indeed they were the closest and dearest friends I had in church and life.
And what am I doing now? I'm stuck with a bunch of work that I can't even finish. Can't wait for the Os to be over.
回忆永远是惆怅的：愉快的使人觉得，可惜已经完了；不愉快的，想起来还是伤心。
Friday, July 27, 2012
Smile a little more.
Monday. Had a really rough morning. But it was cured when we had total free periods after recess. Mrs Philip didn't come. Ms yang didn't come. Last period was Chinese = another free period. :D :D people suddenly became very funny and I was probably producing laughing gas within myself. Laughed x1000000.
There was amath mock on Tuesday. Went to imm with diana to get a book and eat AJISEN.
Wednesday was... Well. Horrible..? At least unbearable in school. Started to have sharp pains at my stomach ending English going PE period. Like a knife slashed my stomach and a wound tearing apart. It wasn't menstrual cramps. It wasn't want-to-shit pain either. Crouched on desk when English ended. All the girls has left the classroom without me. I repeat, all. Well maybe only left with Regine and HuiRu. It was tzeyuan who "woke me up" because he thought I was sleeping when he realized my face in pain. Asked if I was okay. That was sweet.And the. Two times in a row. Got... Outcasted by classclique friends. Twice. In a day. I'll just put it plainly here. During PE and maths remedial. Maybe an overdose of sadness..? I started indulging in self-pity. To make it worse, while I was at home revising for bio, I felt super useless. Couldn't stuff any facts in my brain. Tweeted I was useless in fustration. Then Gracia Sean and Diana immediately replied no I'm not. And Gracia said she'd pray for me. What comfort. I really need to stop complaining and start to be grateful for caring friends.
Maybe the reason why I'm actually more happy/contented than the rest of the people you'd ever know, it's because I pray. Prayer really helps to make me realize my sins, ask for forgiveness, restore the fellowship between God and I, and then be filled with the peace that passerby all understanding because I know that I am right with God now. I know too well, a Christian without God is most miserable. I've went through that. And I broke down twice in that week. Oh well. I'm now rid of my sin for self-pity. And maybe not as hurt when rely outcasted by friends.
Today. Although only 40% of what I studied for the biology test, thank God for sustanence. Then we had the handball prelims. Managed to catch a ball that apparently was a "cruicial" one cause it was too near out goalpost. And after the game everyone was like "You were so cool just now!" or "You were awesome!" or "Good game! You played really well!" or "Nice catch!"
Well, while I'm thankful for the encouragements, maybe these are too much a just a ball that I managed to save? Ultimately, I decide to give all glory to God. The fact that he preserved me and gave me strength for the game. I'm already so worn out from the whole week with a whole bunch of tests and homework. And I was already injured, with abrasions. I couldn't even have played for the second game without God's sustanence. And those know me very well they allllll know that I really can't bear pain well. Even a little would make me yell. How much more my four limbs that sort of slid on the parade square? Almost teared when the game was over because the sweat worsened the pain the wound is causing.
Had a really hard time bathing. Sigh.
Oh well. It's really... Late now.
Goodnight. :)
There was amath mock on Tuesday. Went to imm with diana to get a book and eat AJISEN.
Wednesday was... Well. Horrible..? At least unbearable in school. Started to have sharp pains at my stomach ending English going PE period. Like a knife slashed my stomach and a wound tearing apart. It wasn't menstrual cramps. It wasn't want-to-shit pain either. Crouched on desk when English ended. All the girls has left the classroom without me. I repeat, all. Well maybe only left with Regine and HuiRu. It was tzeyuan who "woke me up" because he thought I was sleeping when he realized my face in pain. Asked if I was okay. That was sweet.And the. Two times in a row. Got... Outcasted by class
Maybe the reason why I'm actually more happy/contented than the rest of the people you'd ever know, it's because I pray. Prayer really helps to make me realize my sins, ask for forgiveness, restore the fellowship between God and I, and then be filled with the peace that passerby all understanding because I know that I am right with God now. I know too well, a Christian without God is most miserable. I've went through that. And I broke down twice in that week. Oh well. I'm now rid of my sin for self-pity. And maybe not as hurt when rely outcasted by friends.
Today. Although only 40% of what I studied for the biology test, thank God for sustanence. Then we had the handball prelims. Managed to catch a ball that apparently was a "cruicial" one cause it was too near out goalpost. And after the game everyone was like "You were so cool just now!" or "You were awesome!" or "Good game! You played really well!" or "Nice catch!"
Well, while I'm thankful for the encouragements, maybe these are too much a just a ball that I managed to save? Ultimately, I decide to give all glory to God. The fact that he preserved me and gave me strength for the game. I'm already so worn out from the whole week with a whole bunch of tests and homework. And I was already injured, with abrasions. I couldn't even have played for the second game without God's sustanence. And those know me very well they allllll know that I really can't bear pain well. Even a little would make me yell. How much more my four limbs that sort of slid on the parade square? Almost teared when the game was over because the sweat worsened the pain the wound is causing.
Had a really hard time bathing. Sigh.
Oh well. It's really... Late now.
Goodnight. :)
Monday, July 23, 2012
WOOSH.
Had a super bad start in the morningg cause I couldn't find Chun's book near the library and I didn't bring my tie. Was thissssssssss close to aggitation and dao-everyone-mode. But thank God my classmates were super funny today that they kept making me laugh non-stop.
Super slack Monday. Must savour. All the periods after recess was free. Two teachers didn't come and the last period was Chinese = no lessons.
Went to take I/C photo today. They'll print out in 4 days. Hope I don't look like a maid x.x
Bought new shoes. HAHAHA. Bye beggar shoes... I'll miss you :(
Figured out the full intro of Because I'm Stupid. Chords and melody. Hehehe xD Was lazy to arrange the chords for the verses after the intro. Nua at the comp watched new episode of Alice in Wonder City xD Urgh. Can hetingyu and landiefei get together already :(
*GAPS* tomorrow is amath mock again. Sigh. Don't wanna get lower than a lot of people this time round. BUT I'M DOING NOTHING ABOUT IT. HAHAHAHA. *FAIL OF MY LIFE*
Shall... Head down to my room now and... Sleep. HAHAHA. I don't care if I slept at 930 last night and it was a super slack day. I'M STILL TIRED.
Kaybye. :)
Super slack Monday. Must savour. All the periods after recess was free. Two teachers didn't come and the last period was Chinese = no lessons.
Went to take I/C photo today. They'll print out in 4 days. Hope I don't look like a maid x.x
Bought new shoes. HAHAHA. Bye beggar shoes... I'll miss you :(
Figured out the full intro of Because I'm Stupid. Chords and melody. Hehehe xD Was lazy to arrange the chords for the verses after the intro. Nua at the comp watched new episode of Alice in Wonder City xD Urgh. Can hetingyu and landiefei get together already :(
*GAPS* tomorrow is amath mock again. Sigh. Don't wanna get lower than a lot of people this time round. BUT I'M DOING NOTHING ABOUT IT. HAHAHAHA. *FAIL OF MY LIFE*
Shall... Head down to my room now and... Sleep. HAHAHA. I don't care if I slept at 930 last night and it was a super slack day. I'M STILL TIRED.
Kaybye. :)
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Look back.
I've got so much stress my pimples are popping up endlessly :(
On the bus en-route to Diana's house. Listening to a certain song and... Makes me think I the time when I used to like Wang Zi. He's changed so much ever since he's got a new management and lollipop broke up. But still, the time spent liking him feels sweet even when I look back.
Reminiscence. Oh so sweet. Because those were the days.
Ain't it?
On the bus en-route to Diana's house. Listening to a certain song and... Makes me think I the time when I used to like Wang Zi. He's changed so much ever since he's got a new management and lollipop broke up. But still, the time spent liking him feels sweet even when I look back.
Reminiscence. Oh so sweet. Because those were the days.
Ain't it?
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