Not till now did I realise

I read your text with a little tear in my eyes. Well I know you do have your difficulties and we cannot have a normal friendship in front of other people because others will go off saying a lot of stuffs that will not only affect you but me too. Gossips will be hard to clear up. We can't talk to each other face-to-face. Not even a hi or exchange a smile. Well to be honest, there was a period of time I thought you didn't care anymore but now I know you do. And I guess that's enough for me :) But I just want you to know I don't blame you, so don't feel regretful. Just thankful for the call I recieved that day.

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Didn't do anything productive today. HAHAHA die. Need to clear up amaths first. Then try to do English tomorrow and worse come to worst I'll chiong English during SH tomorrow. One thing I'll learn about myself today is that I'm lazy and lack self-discipline so much I think I'm incurable and I can go bang my head in the wall. First, I wanted to do my maths in the morning, then I dragged telling myself I'll do it after lunch. I still didn't touch them after lunch and dragged saying that I'll do it after dinner. But looks like I'm still not doing it yet :/

Where has my studious/homework mood went to?? I'm so screwed. Like that how to score for MYE??? Less than two more weeks to MYE leh! OHMYGOSH. I'm such a GONER.

Bye :/