You had no idea how hard it was.

Yada yada. Call me the dumbest person in the world. I guess it doesn't matter anymore. I actually let 2 opportunities to go for ss4 fly away.

Today Milton called me to ask me if I can make it for today's ss4 cause he had an extra VIP ticket last minute. And I was already at retreat location. And most importantly, it was a Sunday. I had to turn it down. It wasn't easy saying no. I could have easily just take a cab and chiong all the way to SIS. But it wasn't right. I should put God above anything else. I turned down the offer in the end.

I won't say I regretted my decision. But I can't deny that it actually sting me.