Once in a lifetime; 11/11/11--11:11:11

Have I changed a lot? Have I changed a little? Or have I not changed at all? It doesn't really matter as long as it's all for the better right? But recently this year, I guess I've not talked so much anymore. And I don't know to classify it under a good or bad. But I have this feeling that one day sooner or later, I'll lose my social skills completely and be a loner. #D:

Oh seriously. I really strongly believe I may die from overprotection someday if my parents still keep up with such beliefs. It's not meant to be a sad day today! D: I feel so cheated. As usual. By. My. MUM.

URGH. DOUBLE URGH.

Alright. I'm much better already. Phew. In a better mood already. -breaths in, breaths out- Even if I don't feel good, I should not feel angry today at the very least. I don't want to spend such a special moment being totally not worthily angry at mum (some more!). Its too unworth my time for such a special timing.

Okay now lets see. Okay, even so, aside anger, I'm still sad D: #SUCHASADLIFEFOREVERANDEVERANDEVER. Ohmygosh. Just watched finish Protect the Boss! Although JiHeon & EunSeul are the lead actors and couple, I practially skipped all their scences and fast forawrded to the second leads --- MooWon & NaYoon! Think their scenes were way much more interesting and touching as compare to the leads. #dramafail. But oh well! It's not that fail cause the second leads saved the day (drama)! #YAY. OH BTW, MooWon in the drama is KIMJAEJOONG ;) No wonder hahaha. Okay, not realy, but his acting skills are good :)

This' my second 11/11/11 11:11:11 and it's gonna be my last. Oh well, still I'm thankful I'm able to live till this date. Who knows, you may not see me tomorrow. Just as much as I wanna complete great things in life (well in my defination of great things, most likely differring from what the others mostly think), life is too unpredictable and we never know what happens next. And that, is life.

Many a time I wonder how good it'd be if I knew what'll happen in the slight near future. No doubt, things will all be so easy and it'd actually seem fun; in the beginning. But then again, there's a reason why we don't know our future. If we really do, then life will become meaningless because everything is so predictable.

And sometimes, I wonder it'll be great to know your lifespan. How long you'll live; At which age will you die; How much time are you left with. And with that, we can carefully plan our life live it to the fullest without regrets. But, but but but but but, again, it doesn't make sense somehow right? Shouldn't we live to the fullest everyday, even so? Another worry would be most of us would probably start working hard at the end of the journey. Like how 99% of the students prepare for their tests. Ain't it?

Honestly, I don't know why I'm blabbering so much crap suddenly. Alright. Back to the reason why I'm sad. LOL. After expecting so much for my post-exam-for-this-year life, I'm left with nothing nice to watch anymore. All the nice dramas are either currently on air, currently being subbed or I've already finished watching it. OR WORSE, HAVE NOT AIRRED. #REALLYSUCHASADLIFEFOREVERANDEVERANDEVER.

1. SKIP BEAT - EXTRAVAGANCE CHALLENGE
2. Office Girls
3. Flower Boy Ramyun Shop
4. Forensic Heroes 3
5. Ring Ring Bells
*Note: It's according to how much I'm expecting for the next/first episode to air.

So that means I gotta wait and wait and wait till all these dramas are being uploaded or subbed and reuploaded D: You know imma impatient person rightttt :( I don't really care about "patience is a virture" when it comes to dramas lahhhh.

11/11/11 11:11:11 am with choir. It wasn't as bad as I expected, still acceptable.

11/11/11 11:11:11 pm. I'll spend it with :).

Right. Happy 11/11/11 11:11:11 fellow Earthlings. Have a great day.

I don't make wishes, because I believe in God.

I don't believe in wishes, because I believe in pursuing them.

But this special moment the whole world has been waiting for, is worth the wait.

Because it's gonna happen only once.

And it's a once inna lifetime thing.

11/11/11 11:11:11

The awesomest dream yet ever!

OHMYGOSHHHHHH HYPERVANTILATING!! HAHAHAHA :D :D :D HAPPY TO THE MAXIMUM ^^

Had this reeeeeeally really really really awesome dream! I was performing at MAMA somehow I don't know why. And I was one of the multi-performers (..?) you would say? Hahaha cause I apparently performed in many performance. Like being back up dancers for many celebs. WHY? I DON'T KNOW. Well, as I've said all the while, my dreams usually don't make sense. But the only reasonable reason that I could draw out as to why was probably that SINGAPORE FAIL. NOT ENOUGH BACK UP DANCERS. HAHAHAHA :P

So then after performing with Lollipop F (I also wanna know why them.) I saw SUPER JUNIOR at backstage waiting to prepare to go on stage. They were number 2 in queue :) So I was at first quite hesistant to go up to them, but then I realised that it'll be the ONLY time I'll ever see them thissssssss close and so that instant, I WENT SO SPAZZY. I was like QUICK QUICK! PAPER! PAPER!! AND I DON'T KNOW WHY DIANA SUDDENLY APPEARRED BESIDE ME. HAHAHAHAHA. So in an instant, I spotted donghae. So I dashed forward and was like "Sign juseyo?" giving out the slip of paper to donghae. I was so nervous and anxious that they'll be called to perform anytime so I was really rushing and forgot all the basic horrifics. Didn't even called his name or oppa him. Basically, just went straight to the question if he could give me an autograph. And then I realised kyuhyun was beside him, so I gave him the other only slip of paper that I had. Thank goodness Henry was right beside kyuhyun. HAHAHAHA! He helped me to translate most of my English into Korean. But I did make effort to speak very very very basic chinese for them to understand firsthand :P I KNOW HAE & KYU UNDERSTAND CONVERSATIONAL CHINESE :D They just can't speak much. Just like my relationship with cantonese LOL.

Then I turned and saw eunhyuk! 2nd biased alongside with kyu! So I hurried back and frantically find another slip of paper. WHO KNOWS, the super kind-hearted eunhyuk took the paper, but was like 要签不签, then I was afraid that they'll be called to perform soon so I was very anxious. HAHAHA THANK GOODNESS AGAIN ZHOU MI WAS NEAR. He was like tanslating all my chinese and some basic english that he could understand into Korean. And siwon near by was like say "eunhyuk ah, bali wa sain!" HAHAHAHAHA! But eunhyuk was still sooooo chou pi don't want sign :( Don't know why D: But finally he gave his signature. Like finallyyyyyy after soooo long. Ohmygosh LOL. Then I was so happy I could die at that instant. And I woke up.

But I realised that oh no! I have not thank zhou mi for helping me translate so much! Then I quickly tried to go back to sleep (anyway my alarm had not ring yet!) and hopefully get back to the dream. True enough, this always work! I was back to the dream and I was at the scene where eunhyuk handed me his autograph. OH YA, forgot to say, people like donghae and kyuhyun's autographs were full of words and they wrote my name and date ^^ But eunhyuk's one was simply his signature and a fullstop. Why so bad sia :( HAHAHA but whatever kay. Still happy.

So then, I thank zhou mi in chinese. Thank you zhou mi for helping me translate all my chinese into korean so that they all can understand. You're really a kind guy!! ^^ HAHAHA and then don't know why they allllll started to talk to me. Ask me why I can speak chinese so fluently. "Singapore is bilingual education, duh :P" Do I know Korean? (ohmygosh I don't know why but I answered in koren) "Well a little bit, because my brother likes SNSD so he learnt korean on the net and forcefully taught me korean to speak with him" Then they were like wowwwwwww and I carried on in korean "But I'm really bad in my korean. I can only really basic hangul and not understand it at all usually."

Then I don't know why I happened to turn to Henry and then remembered I have not thank him. So I told him in English thank you so much for helping to translate. Then in chinese for zhou mi to understand also "You guys are really kind and nice. Even if you're not the paid translator, you guys still translate to your members!" Then I suddenly thought of something and went to get more papers!

I gave out paper slips to the other members who I didn't ask for their autograph initially. And while writing they were like why? And I explained in English "I don't know about you guys but if it was me, if I was my other members giving out autographs and I wasn't asked of one, no matter how much I'm used to it, I still can't help myself but feel a little teeny weeny bit sad. So I'll take all of your autographs, unless you don't have to have it because I like Super Junior as a whole anyway :D" And Henry did all the translations. HAHAHA. And when they're done, I assured them that even though its little slips of paper, I'll definately take proper care of them leminate every single one of them! Lastly, I wished them all the best for the future blah blah blah...

And as I was waking away happily, I woke up form my dream. And as I woke up, I realised, they weren't SUJU! They were SUJU-M!! :D

WOWIE! ^^ Kay seriously, this is like the ONLY DREAM IN MEMORY THAT EVER EVER MADE THE MOST SENSE!! Right, right?? :D :D :D HAHAHAHAHAHA YAY <3

I'mma HAPPYGURL97 because of that dream! Totally made my day from DA START :D

The middle guy with cake is some taiwanese celeb I guess.

It's 11:11 :) Bye.

#SUJU6THYEAR Part 2.

So so so, it's their 6th year. Actually okay, I'm not very good with words so I shall just type a short post. Well I've not followed them from the start, I've not seen them going through their hardest time and I've certainly not seen them in person before. I also can't be sure if I'll follow them till the end. But I really feel happy that you guys are still pressing on no matter how hard it has been and at least for the present, I love you guys :)

6 years.

5 albums.

4 sub-groups.

3 asian tour.

2 words.

1 big family together.

-SUPER JUNIOR-

#SUJU6THYEAR :)

Hear me

This was a recent movie that I watched. "Hear me". Probably one of the rarest, and purest movie out there you can ever find now. If I'm not wrong it hit cinemas in Taiwan last year or something, but I just couldn't find it any where on the internet. But recently, I happened to stumble on it in youtube.

Well basically, in a movie there would be some things in it that holds the theme and if it were to be an item, I guess it would be a water bird. The girl in the movie is pictured as a person who resembles a lot like a water bird. And really, into about three quater of the movie I was still figuring out, why is the name of this movie "Hear Me" instead of "Water Bird" and then I realised, of course this should not be renamed to "Water Bird", as you'll see why in the end. The title "Hear Me" has a much more significant meaning. Although you never "talk" to each other, you can still "hear" some one, not physically, but from the heart.

Anyway, since it's a Sunday, I shalll not post much. But still, its a 6th nov, Happy 6th anniversay Suju :) Sixth year, and still going strong.

#SUJU6THYEAR

Just like now

That it’s gonna be okay
That it’s gonna be over right away
That as time goes by, it’s gonna fade away
I’ve been living with that belief

Sometimes because of my bad behaviour
I’ve hurt you
Now little by little
I promise you that I’ll change

Even on cold nights, even on lonely nights
You were always there for me
But where are you now?

So much that I can see only you
So much that I can love only you
Only you can make my heart
Running toward you, breathing because of you

When you look at me, when you love me
I can’t give you for anything in this world
Now stay in my embrace like this

Always stay just like that, just like that
And say that you love me, you love me like this
Always smile just like that, just like that
And say that you’re happy, you’re happy like this

---

Like a little child's inner voice to their parents. Well, that's what's the drama's about.

Went to juroong point with yuanshan today to :) HAHAHAHAHA buy some things. Super tired today don't know why. Yep and I wanted to post yesterday to say a small hello to November, but then I forgot. And when I remembered, it was quite late and I was too lazy to do anything anymore HAHAH :P

Alright, tomorrow's officiall one more week to my Chinese Os. No matter how much like all my other seniors tell me that ordinary chinese was really easy and all but I still can't help worrying. I mean, I'm not even revising for it. And by the time if I get a B3 or A2 (well hopefully not) I'll be regretting like mad D: URGH. I don't know. I'm not really for any kinds of Os right now. Even if it's just the O Levels SPAs. I don't care. I'm too young to deal with all these yet.

Okay, quite a bad start to November. I just hope it gets better :/