The last day of February! :O

Time passes so fast. HOO. Oh my gosh can you believe it it's first march tomorrow and also the syf final auditions tomorrow. AND also yuan shan's birthday. So many things happening tomorrow.

Well let's talk about today. I was like unexpectedly high I don't know why the birds pangsai. LOL. Rythmed.

LOL, i lost my mood to blogs. Bye. (:

Remember those days?

I was a happy girl today.

Hello. It's late. So I'll do a short post as usual. I finally sung that part correctly so I felt relieved. Then I went lunching with Kat & Carie.

Went facebook and went navigating and saw this photo. Hey, spot me! Psst.. Hint: I love my hair! :*

Nights!

It didn't seemed as easy...

It annoyed me that no matter how hard I tried today I still couldn't meet the standards. That's the most depressing part. It's no others, it just came from me.

心中说不出的沉重

很想跟你说话，可是不知道要说什么。

Today was rather up and down. One moment quite pissed then the other laughing at Jong Han & Yi Jie's epicness then next moment I find myself sad. Well I wouldn't really consider myself going on a mood swing. A lot of things reminded me of other things and my mood goes with it.

Maybe it's because I'm bored,
Maybe it's because I'm paranoid,
Maybe it's because I feel empty,
Maybe it's because I miss the MTDC practices,
Maybe it's because I really miss the times I used to talk to you,
Or maybe it's just because I'm really really tired already.

Common Test results sucked badly. People all say don't worry, but although everyone's failing their tests I still feel inferior because my marks are like really really lesser than theirs by a lot. I can't wait for sec 4 to be over to be honest. Sec three is getting harder day by day. But I'm not looking forward to this year's holidays cause in the blink of an eye sec 4 will come knocking on my door and it's O Levels. Do or die. Seems like I'm looking too much in the future but I know that this year will pass very fast. And next year will pass even faster. Gosh. Then after all these thoughts, I don't know what's wrong with me, I went to see 拼什么 MV and I felt even sadder.

I felt like crying but I've got no tears to shed.

拼什么

While waiting for my videos to download finish, I can't help but to put this here. I really cried the first time I viewed it cause it made me think of all the hardships he's went through and he's proudly standing where he is now.

Disappointment or Truck loads of Sweetness?

So far I've passed 3 out of 4 CTs that I've gotten back. HAHAHA! Ey, not bad okay (: Although all border line passes but... Aiya, better than fail I guess :P Today Econs no teacher. All of us stuck at the study corner beside the Econs classroom like idiots. Hehehehe, scarly the relief teacher was too traumatised of our class. Example, Jong Han bombarding him with Lorry loads of personal question that he's not willing to answer.

Was kinda dreading choir today but it turned out to be rather fruitful (: Mr Kwei I guess was kinda happy with our performance today..? (although we got scolded by Jing Hui cause of the lack of discipline) I don't know lah, I see him conducting our Pok Pok until like quite happy one :P Anyway, choir has to sing the national anthem (& school song for Wednesdays) every Mondays to Thursdays to curb our stage problems. And Ms Wong is coming tomorrow (!) xD Well, she said most probably. So hopefully she does cause if not the guys might curse her behind her back which is kinda bad, but it's their style. Hahahaha, I shall wear contacts tomorrow :P

If there's no homework that needs to be handed up tomorrow, I SHALL SLEEP BY 930. AHAHAHA! I'm so proud of myself :D

Bye!

Creaming!.

Finally met with everyone from church! HAHA! John Joel & Joshua. Wouldn't really include Ben's name here since we went out togther after all my concerts & his overseas trips/camps. So yesterday was teens retreat. YAY! So good to see everyone after all the cnys & my busy schedule. Luke, Ernmin, Ernwei, Foong Hui & Joanne Chan. Though Chan 'expired' from teens :P But I still saw her at lunch!(: Oh I miss those htht with all of them! Can't wait for camp alright! Hope Chan will come help! :D Oh ya, got James to remind me to sleep early everyday! xD HAHA he sleeps at 8-930 everyday! Beat that!

HAHA SO PROUD OF HIM HE'S TALLER THAN ME ALREADY! :'D

I somehow think I look like a ballerina here LOL.

The two always-saizharbo beside me

Cute right! (:

The shirt Ben got for me while in Bali! Awwwh :D

Today was tiring. Okay. I guess I'm too lazy to post every thing that happened today.

                                                 

Our relief teacher who taught us econs today.

P.S.: MINGSIEW SAYS SHE READS MY BLOG! ARE YOU SERIOUS?? AWWWH, IM SO TOUCHED! :'D LOL.

I'll now cut my triangles for emaths tomorrow then I'll go to sleep... Hopefully :P

Bye!

I'm so-the-very-the-happy today! :D

I CAN FLY I CAN FLY I CAN FLY! I'M SO HAPPY I CAN FLY! ;D Today felt like Common Test was over! But in reality, I still have Chemistry and Economics tomorrow. Chem I'll just revise after this post. Econs... You know, actually I'm kinda confident for Econs as in like compared to other subjects by many times? But Mr Chua warned us that Econs would be a hard & tricky paper. Some how his warning doesn't seem to work on me x.x Guess by the time I reach the paper I'll prepare to faint upon seeing those questions.

I was like happy after AMaths CT cause I was so glad I managed to solve about 3-4 questions. Then it was Chem. We were laughing over how worked up Ms Lee was for nothing. It's like her teaching style but we kinda find it unecessary. Then it was AMaths. And JongHan was super funny when joking with Mrs Philip. And she actually joked back! She's so cool... 8D. Then recess, and SH cause I wasn't take physics. HAHA played on Choi On's iTouch beat his Doodle Jump high score! xD. Then had chinese. Seriously didn't know what WLL talking about. So me and MingSiew at the back chat. It was really a casual chat, neither can you really define it as a htht but it was probably somewhere in between. (: Then no Chum cause Alicia gotta go doctor! So slack period. And me & ms carried on chatting

One of the best part came! I showed her lzx's 独一无二 & Touch my heart MV. OH YEAH, she found 独一无二 dance cool! Just as I expected xD COME ON. WHO SEE ALREADY ALSO WILL SAY COOL LOR! :P Then the Touch my heart MV lzx was in a panda costume! SO CUTE! xD And after showing her that MV once, the song was stuck in her head! :D OH YEAH BABY! :P The power of cpop! xP

Then after that cause muamoi didn't cook my lunch, so I couldn't go home for lunch :/ So went to IMM to eat with Yuan Shan (: HAHA was like really happy/high/excited. Cause like we said all the 不能说的事 like say out already will 被讲 but we like told each other everything. AND IT FELT SO MUCH MORE COMFORTABLE. HEHEHE :D Then we went and buy Leonard papa's present(:

Its rose fragrant :P

On 20% OFF!! :D HAD TO BUY IT. And it was placed on a heart shaped pillow (:

IMMA HAPPPY KID! :D

Letters to my dear friends,

Not in any order, just some words I'ld like to tell you'all but I don't know how. So I'll just put it here to get it off me. Words to my distancing friends.

Dear Number 1,

Thank you for the many times that you've been there for me. Well you can consider that we've been very close after Port Dickson. I still remember the times during December last year while we'll tell each other our little secrets and bits and pieces bothering us or maybe even things we want to share with each other. Little hapiness. But recently, we haven't been talking to each other. Yeah, I know that you've got a new love and your O levels. But we don't even say hi like last time. That's kind of saddening. Still, I just wanna let you know that I'm always here when you need a pair of listening ears okay. Just like what you did for me :).




Dear Number 2,

Though we're in the same class currently, though we hang out as a clique in a class, I feel that we're so distant I don't know what you're thinking. We used to be so close that we would say anything to each other. When we weren't really expecting something from each other, we would just tell each other that we want to have a htht and just say everything; clear everything once and for all. And our bond became even stronger. Then came sec 2. We were at our peak. So close I ran out of adjective to describe it. Then she came into the picture again. I thought it'll be fine for us to not hang out once in awhile since she really didn't had friends to hang out with. So she started to tell you a lot of "secrets" apparently that wasn't meant for me to know, and it happens frequently. So I guessed I'll probably hang out with others while she've tole you all the "secrets". LOL. OMG I CANT BELIEVE IM ACTUALLY USING SUCH CHILDISH WORDS. But it looks like you proved me wrong. And the days pass, you gradually went further. But thankfully, though we weren't as close, we still would tell each other what we feel once in awhile. Then I tired to catch up with you. Jio ou out, study dates, blah blah blah blah, but I still feel that we weren't as close as before. Bamm, 2011 came knocking at our doors. So elated that we were in the same class. It started off quite well at first. But then recently I realised how close you two actually are to each other. And you seem so out of reach. Even though we seem like so close to other, it feels so unreal to me. We may seem like spending so much time together but I don't know what you're think. I don't know what you're feeling. I feel that I don't know too many things about you already. I'm really tired of always initiating stuffs. I feel that you don't put this friendship close to your heart anymore. I really... Don't know what to do anymore.




Dear Number 3,

I'm really very thankful for being there for me everytime without fail when I need help, cheering me up when I'm down, joking when I'm really stressed. HAHA I can only say thank you and that you're awesome. Thanks for the roses too (:

Drawing requested by Diana. LOL.

It's full bloom.

Yes it's Chinese New Year and I realised that I have not posted for 2 days already. Considering it's 4th February today and my only post for February was on the first. So it looked quite empty to me but then I've got not thoughts to post. So I looked through my phone's pictures and realised I took photos of the roses I recieved from the MTDC concert out of boredom. Then maybe just upload these photos here for fun. Some photos may look a little fake (well at least it seems to me) cause I used my phone's HDR to take it. High Dynamic Range! xD It blends the best parts of three seperate exposures into a single photo :P



First of February Twenty Eleven.

My mood was ruined this morning. Don't really want to mention what happened this morning before school but the argument with my parents this morning was so bad I cried. OMG. I can't believe I'm not allowed to cry you know. I was like crying then my dad was like scolding me for crying?!? HELLO! My water also not yours! I want to lose it cannot uh! And he was like you cry some more I slap you then you know. Damn 过分 okay!. People emotional breakdown you scold them for side effect. EH, you emotional breakdown NATURAL HUMAN side effect is cry right. And you scold me for it. LIKE MY FAULT?! Is my body that controls all these what! Too much water in eye, the some more come in, no place to go, of cause roll down the cheeks right! USE YOUR BRAINS CAN OR NOT, PARENTS?! Always scold us for being senseless, but when you all are scolding us, I don't see you all using any sense at all, all the time.

But soon enough, Study Hall, the second period. The people that sat around me were too awesome (..?) they were so cheerful and humorous that they not only put a smile on my face but also made me laugh. Then it was PE. After the 1.6km running, my left Latissimus dorsi muscle starting aching. When ever I turned my back or moved my left leg.

Well, let's just carry on with my thought of the day.

So fast! It's Chinese New Year eve tomorrow already. OH MANzxc. SIGHS. I don't feel like going back Qifa tomorrow. :/ I feel like going home and do homework. LOL, I sound like a loser :P Cause anyway, everyone's going back to their schools so like no one to go out with. Even so, I feel so tired now I doubt I'll have enough energy to last me the whole day tomorrow. I officially give up on doing my maths and shall continue tomorrow.

LOVED.

Second last MTDC practice

Our costumes.

I recieved 4 roses! xD

Post MTDC effect is starting to kick in.