CNY Eve.

SOOOOOO... I went to school in the end anywayz. Gen Ed then Econs then off to JE! Met up with Kaiying like finally!! Ohhhhh my gosh it has been soooo long since I last saw her. Think the last time I saw her was when we went back to school to collect our results, which is like super long ago man!

Ate at JCube Nandos. The price of the food there is quite reasonable for its quality. But oh my gosh the service there is so terrible you might as well not go there for the money you're paying. Okay, you may be shorthanded, but I don't see an urgency at all in the staffs, still can slowly walk here and there. When we asked for water, they say okay. But you wait for 10 minutes, you see them still doing other things. Then ask again, they go "Oh ya". Are you kidding me? You forgot?! Then we waited for 30 minutes when we called for the bill cause the staffs forgot too. That's just crazy.

Went to sogurt and found out it was spam your cup day. So.... WHY NOT?? Hehehe. Then the rest it pretty much an annual routine. 团圆饭 out. All the steamboat photos on insta and I'm like... STEAMBOAT TOO MAINSTREAM. Went to Joyden Seafood hehehe.

Happy girls with our sogurts.

 

Yep. It was a happy day.

Need to share this...

Hello friends! Gotta check out this site: http://www.boredpanda.com/amazing-home-interior-design-ideas/

4 Swing Set Table
6 Spiral Staircase
13 Ping Pong Door
17 Bookcase Staircase
19 Spiral wine storage fridge
24 Hammock Over Stairs

Would be pretty much awesome to have in my future house though hehe.

OH MY GOSH IT WAS 1030 A MOMENT AGO AND NOW IT'S CLOSE TO 1130. NEED TO CHIONG SOME ECONS TUT MANZ.

How long more?

So we're officially into the chionging phrase of our school term. Everyday at school, discussions are pretty much about how are we going to meet the dateline for submission and the many things we need to do that's required for our projects. Well although as light as it seems to say that we're left with 3 projects, but much is required for each and every one of them. Not to mention that almost the dateline is on 6th Feb and we're left with about 70% of the work undone and not to add in that we have to tap on our CNY holidays... Sigh... Think you'll see me typing away on my laptop in my dad's car on the way to visitations. Sad life of a student we see here.

Exam timetable was out today and last paper is on 3rd March! That means to say a 7 week holidays for me this coming March! Okay but before that, after presentation week is mugging week for the exam week. Just thankful that none of the lecturers have placed our presentation during revision week. Yes, that needful one week to chiong catch up with all the tutorials we've been missing out on cause of our projects.

Okay so meanwhile, HARDWORKING  CHIONG-PROJ MODE ON!

再苦的生活中, 還是會有甜美的時刻。這世界上沒有不可能的事, 也沒有過不去的關。

While the magic lasted

Sigh. Guess it's a nua at home day... So shall do a little blogging. Was really looking forward to today's trip to Changi but guess I can't go in the end.

 

Body aching everywhere. My nose my ears my arms my abdomen. Owwwww. Crazy week it have been for me. Many things that made my day, yet there were many things that made me think about how people can be so realistic and materialistic. Rushing projects and all, returning home late everyday.

 

Can't wait for March already...

 

 

Photo taken one week ago when I was bored and decided to tie a fish tail braid.

 

Finally got myself a moisturiser for the peeling skin on my face. Time to stop complaining about dry skin. And happened to stumble across the similar hair tie that Joanne lent me during YF camp. Sooooo happy I got myself a pack! The colour is exactly the same, the texture and touch is exactly the same, the elasticity is exactly the same and when I use it, it feels exactly the same! Just that mine was slightly tighter than hers maybe cause it's new. Happy is I.

 

Ever get annoyed when your hair tie can't go the 4th round cause your hair is too thick for it, but yet the 3rd round will get loose after you've moved around for awhile, your pony tail starts drooping and everything gets out of shape? NOT ANYMORE WITH MY NEW HAIR TIE. NYEHEHEH.

 

Though it was those short two days, but it was nice catching up and to know that you still remember me.



不經歷風雨,怎麼見彩虹?

Have I not already mentioned that I've bee sleeping at 2+ every single day for the past week? So here I am now with a sore throat, blocked nose and feeling really really shagged from the previous week. Really not a good time to be sick cause I foresee a lot of chionging of projects this week. Sigh. Only can relax during the holidays cause after our project here comes exams.

So gave school a miss today to go get an mc and some medicine. My first ever experience at a Poly Clinic was horrible. Registered at 920 but the queue receipt estimated time was 1045. Just kill me already. Even after seeing the doctor, probably need to wait another 10 minutes to collect my medicine and another 110 mins to queue to pay. Madness. So went to family clinic and say Dr Ronnie! Cause Dr David wasn't around. Awww. Haven't seen Dr Ronnie for a long time though. LOL. And the awkward moment for me when I suddenly realised that I do know quite a number of Ronnies in my life.

Last term of the academic year already! Need to buck up!

Saw this over the internet and thought that this had so much win. HAHAHAHA.

어젯밤에 안 봤어. 어디에 가요..?

As time goes by...

Didn't really have a good week I would say cause it's only the second week of school and we're all so rushed for time to complete our projects. And it's not like we're given sufficient time to do our projects all together at once. Haven't been doing consistent QT this week too. So yeah...

Was late for YF again cause:
1. Forgot timing was 515 instead of the usual 530.
2. Stomach wasn't coordinating well with me.
3. Saw 176, 51, 30, 143 left right in front of me while I was across the road.

It was YF's 33rd anniversary and so it wasn't the usual YF that we had. At the end there was this photo slideshow to look back at the past year of YF. The happenings of 2013 in YF and all. And this thing struck me: Those who were in the photos in the start of the slideshow, I started not to see them appearing anymore towards the end of the slideshow. And I don't even see them around today even as I glanced around the sanctuary. Where have they gone to? And this set me pondering: Would I still be seated here again the same day next year to celebrate another year of God's providence for the YF on it's 34th anniversary?

隨著年齡夫人增長,回頭看便發現失去了些朋友,也發現失去了些自己。但微笑吧,因為現在的你懂得誰才是真正的朋友,自己也長大了。

I pray and hope that I would.

Two down, five more.

Been a really hectic and tough week even though it's just second week of school only. Week was filled with project work, tutorial, project work and more tutorials. My gosh. Apart from lesson time, we can hardly meet cause every group members are so busy but yet we're so pressed for time. Other than projects, we still have those tutorials to handle, preparing for the exams in end Feb. OH MY GOSH. So demanding.

So went to SPICE centre to download Realtimme and only the T17 guy was at the T21 one. My gosh I promise you the people at T21 SPICE centre already recognise me. Every time I went there for the past two weeks, they're reaction would be "Ey hi, 现在又有什么事?" The number of times I went to SPICE cause of burden acer... 去到跟那些员工都跟我很熟了._.

Alright fast forward to today (being Thursday). Finally wore the outer coat that I exchanged with Hannah on Saturday! She took my floral denim jacket in place. Aravin said I look especially thin today with the clothes I was wearing. Nope. I just hide my fats well. But Hannah's outer coat was a little too big for me.

No appetite at all for dinner. Finished about half of it and did econs project all the way from 9 till 12 in a mind block state. So means my brain was functioning 2 times slower. Felt so sorry when I had to get Gibson repeat his questions a few times cause my brain just couldn't process it as fast. But papa bought me macs for supper at 9+. Double cheese burger and TARO PIE. Yay!

Have been sleeping at 2 the whole week. -Looks at the time now- Sigh.

Alright bye.

Though I've been cheery

Just when I've decided to re-consecrate my life, start putting my life back together by starting regular QTs, then I was told that cause for the past half year attendance at YF was irregular so cannot renew membership. Path back to Christ just seems to be daunting. Punishment or time to think about my life. Feels as though a door is closed or as though I was denied. How can I not admit that it has affected me? Pride? And maybe a mix of fear as well. To lose my membership. Maybe it time to consider my use of time more seriously. Can't deny that I feel left out too. But oh well... at the end of the day I'm accountable to God rather than to man. And my journey back to Him plus to start growing again begins now.

Think I am a person who really doesn't think much on the surface. Not much thoughts to a lot of things that I do. But then there's still many things that goes on in my head and honestly you don't see me sharing my inner thoughts to people. I feel like cause I'm a really sensitive person and so when I'm upset, if I tell others about it, they'll brush it aside and go "aiya it's cause you're just sensitive" and sort of brush it off and then maybe leaving them the impression that I'm a really sensitive person so don't ever touch me emotionally. And then I'm afraid soon after they'll find me a burden and not wanna talk to me as how they usually do. Yep, being a burden to people, my greatest fear.

So as a result, I just sort of deal with my own feelings and emotions. Upset? Let time help me get over it. Swallow it. I don't really know how much or how serious it has to be so that I can share it with close friends and they'll think it's "normal". So in the end I just don't at all. And while I'm dealing with these stuffs on my own, I pretend like I'm fine. Maybe too fine. Do people take it for granted? Jokes they start making about me soon becomes more hurtful than funny. How serious must it be before I can consider it to be hurtful in normal people eyes? So I keep swallowing all these hurt while keep telling myself that they mean no harm and it was all for fun & laughter or they are still young and insensitive with their words. Sometimes although outwardly I smile, inwardly I struggle not to cry. But how can people be so insensitive? And they are just no more than 12 months younger. How can I convince myself that it was their ignorance due to age?

Maybe that's where the complexities of a teenager comes in. I am still figuring out myself now. But I feel as though I've never been so confused before. And it's as if the older I grow, the more my eyes open up to more things and finally so many things I finally realised, that I'm just an outsider.

These inner turmoil I've been going through recently.

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Dinned with Huimin Tim Weiern and brother today. So got a lift to jem and had a budget dinner at EAT. But the rest weren't satisfied cause they found the portion a little too small. But if it would make any sense, we went Sogurt after that and shared a MY BIG CUP SOGURT that cost $17+. But gone in awhile since 5 people were sharing it.

Awkward conversation at the table with Weiern while the rest went to get Sogurt. Brother said cause I was too young. Well maybe. Everyone there were technically above 20. But okay... dinner out today was a good idea cause it kind of cheered me up. And sort of witness Weiern's childish side when we were talking about Tim's new perms.

Things that made me genuinely laugh.

Maybe people who are more senior in age don't hurt. People who are more junior hurt. Sometimes.

Old time classics.

HELLO FRIENDS. Today was SP open house to the secondary school students. Had stats in the morning. Could have been on time but the tap out machines at Dover greeted me with a "Please try again". OHHHH MY GOSHHHH. Had to walk all the way to Customer Service Area (if I remember the name correctly...) and then go all the way back to the queue cause I don't wanna get judged by cutting queue. Wasted 5 minutes there I think cause every 1min there was an incoming train. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW LONG THE QUEUE TO TAP OUT WAS AND I HAD TO REJOIN THE QUEUE.

So had Stats lab, then Econs tutorial and was pleasantly surprised with a cancelled Stats lecture. Hip hip hooray! Although I was outwardly complaining on how I finally brought my Stats lecture notes and Mr Robert had to cancel his lecture, but no students can deny the inward and pure little joy when they hear their lessons being cancelled rightttt. HAHAHAHA.

So had a two hours break before PACC. Installed Realtimme onto my comp before heading to the SPICE Centre at T21 to fix my computer. This weird problem whereby there wasn't the desktop title in the start screen and I also couldn't customise my laptop. This T21 spice centre guy that was there when I installed my SPSS the very first time and also the T17 guy was there too idk why. He was the one who helped me download my SPSS the second time. HAHAHA. So it turned out my laptop had some issues that required a full reset.

So as previously mentioned, it was SP unofficial open house. There was a performance at T21 foyer. And one of the songs the performer sang was Forever Love. And the T17 and T21 guys were totally singing out loud along with the performer outside. So when the performance was over, the T17 guy started to play his own songs in the SPICE Centre. First song in the playlist that was played was Kiss Goodbye I still remember. HAHAHA. Then it was like a WHOLE LIST OF OLD CHINESE SONGS. MUAHAHAH. My favourite I likey. ;) If you think Kiss Goodbye is old enough, you have not heard older songs that he played. There was like 夜来香，给我一杯忘情水，吻别，至少还有你，爱上一个不回家的人，征服 and many other older Chinese songs. But I was totally humming along with all the songs played! HAHAHA. Cause I've heard those old old songs (like those that existed even before I was born) playing of papa's car since young. And the not-so-old old songs, they're pretty much classics and any cpop music listener should know them.

But cause I didn't bring my charger along, my laptop died in the end and I'm left with SPSS and Realtimme to install. Haishies, need to get the Realtimme installer from Mr Hoh again. So burden...

Went over to the auditorium to find Aravin and was introduced to a bunch of kids from GESS. And one of them was Lin's sister! Woah! So cool! Chatted from 4+ all the way till 6. Okay still trying to get used to talking to new people comfortably. There was a moment of awkward silence when Aravin and Max left me alone with them. Almost died. But Anston (I think... he was one of the students from GESS) tried to make an effort to talk to me. Thanks. HAHAHAH. Thankfully they came back soon enough though.

Open House duty on Friday guys! See you all there! ^o^

Dancing queen, young and sweet, only Seventeen.

Hi friendsssss. Seventh day being seventeen.

Second day of school was quite good I would say. I mean well, at least it was bearable. Set my alarm at 830 thinking I would have ample of time to wash up, prepare for school and cook MAGGIE for breakie. Turned out I overslept and mummy came into my room at 948 asking me if I wanna go to school or not. OH NOZE. Plan of eating Maggie for breakie may not work out moment. But nicely asked mummy if she could cook Maggie for me and she said okay. So YAYYYY. MAGGIE FOR ME. Puny though.

Went for Stats lesson and cause the SPSS on my lappy kept giving me an error notice, I shared with zhiyi her lappy while doing labwork. GUYS, never ever ever ever get an Acer if you're looking for an ultrabook. Only about 9 months of purchase and it's giving me so much problems. Same goes for my other 2 friends with an Acer ulltrabook. Problems never seem to end. Totally regret not getting a Mac Book Air. Haishies.

Technically I've got lesser project work this term, but it seem as though there's a humongous portion of the work that requires research and finding articles. Which so to speak, is really tedious. Sigh much. But okay, still thankful for lesser project this term.

School just started and I can't wait for holidays in March already. Hehe.

Happiness is, simple.

First day of the year! Thank you for all the well wishes and especially those whom I've not met up for a long while but yet took so much time to type more than just "Happy Birthday!" Remember how we kept saying that we would meet up soon but failed to do so in 2013. Hope to keep to what we've said to each other and really meet up in 2014! Kenneth was so sweet to call at 1158 and wait till 12 to wish me. My phone went from 40+ to 5% in matters of 2 hours. But really thank you all!

Woke up at 9 to go Orchard with the fam to shop shop. But couldn't find anything nice to buy there. -sobs- Went to the Square Restaurant for lunch. As much as it sounds cliché, but it was definitely my first meal in 2014 and it was a really good one! Didn't really bother to take photo of what I ate cause number one, I'm not really good at taking preddy pictures of food and number two, how can you just not dig in but keep taking photos till desired perfection before start eating??? HAHAHA.

Cake cutting was at night. Oh and surprise surprise Jason came to my house at night to pass me a birthday gift! Just like last year. Maybe not. Last year I met him at the bus stop. This year he just came straight to my house. Like up front. HAHAHA. And I coincidentally wore the same shirt as last year. Oh well. Heh heh. He came with Mervin and Binjie though. Thank you guys!

Awkwardly got a neighbor to take photos for us. Those cupcakes look familiar right? 6 cupcakes. One for each family member. That's sweet. :) P.S.: Mervin was tiptoeing. HAHAHAH.