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And finally, we come to the end of the year 2012; the last page of this thick book because it was such an eventful year. Traditionally, I'll usually type some year end reflections but I'll do a belated one (maybe typing tomorrow) because I'm like sick and I gotta have some rest. Yeah, not such a sweet 16 after all. Sick on my birthday... Hahahah it's okay, at least it was a really blessed day to end the year with!

Goodnight. :)




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REFLECTIONS FOR 2012 FINALLY UP. HERE YOU GO.

♥.

Hello!! :D Went for my job training today! Actually was rather worried in the beginning at first cause I was worried about who were gonna be my co-workers (I don't really call them my colleagues since we are all tempt staffs right..?) and if I was able to make any friend by lunch so I don't go lunch alone like a loner! And plus I wasn't really familiar with the place there...

Lo and behold! When I entered a small conference room to fill out a form, I saw two classmates smiling at me! So much relief. Things just got better. Entered a bigger conference room for the briefing and saw 5 other classmates! That's like 7 friends!! ^^ Think we were the biggest group there. Many were just... 2-3, the most 5. We were eight! xD And my I/C for sport marketing was such a cool person! Pretty, super flexible and cool. Totally understand teenagers like us. She said that we can reach RX anytime we want as long as we set up the store by 11. And she said since RX would be pretty much a dead town by 7, we can start packing up at 730pm. While I heard from others, reach there at 6-7 am and then may have to leave by 12 am. Madness. So thankful for the job! ^^

Night chats to make my night.

Here we go!!

Really busy week ahead. Going out every single day up till the 2nd of Jan. And work starts 3rd Jan! LOLOL. -Only weirdo around that works in Jan instead of Dec yeah.- Need the money. Like honestly. Spent almost all my year's saving and I feel really bad for spending my parents' money for clothes. Time to be independent!! ^^ Having work training tomorrow and YES I GET PAID TOO EVEN THOUGH THEY'RE TRAININ' ME. WHAT JOY.

Was added into the whatsapp group recently and BOY DOES IT KILL MY PHONE'S BATTERY. Went out at 930 with 100% and came home around 3pm with 9%. (Y) But it kills a lotttttt of boredom. ^^ OH. It's 1030-ish now. SHOULD HEAD DOWN AND SLEEP SOON. :D

First time wearing a cap in photos. Guess I didn't look thatttt bad with caps yeah?

IT WAS LOVE.

SOOOOOOOOOOOO. I'm finally back!! :)

Started the week with a batch breakfast! So the initial plan was to meet at west coast mac at 730 so that we can eat till 830 and take a bus down to church and report by 845. Well since reporting time was up till 845... :P And directions given by Joanne and I was to clearly go to clementi station and take a 175 down or JE station and take 143, 51, then walk over. But gene didn't listen to us and decided to trust the Internet. LOOK. And in the end they took some unknown bus, got lost, and took a cab in the end. And the rest is history, THEY REACHED AT 830. LOLOL. In the end we reported to church at 945. HAHAHAHA. Joke.

Overall my last teens camp of my life as a camper wasn't as much as I expected. It was such a busy camp cause I was helping the costume comm to rush out all the costumes that were needed for the nativity play which was in a weeks' time. So whatever free time or play time that we could afford, it was almost all spent on making costumes. Sadly. :( So I hardly touched the guitar this whole camp... Meh. :(

Cutest camper goes to this boy! P.S. we were standing on stairs that's why. HAHAH! He's really good at the guitar for his age too! And is really cute in the whatsapp group chat :P Oh. An Australian with a cute accent. As in, not as strong as Kenny's. :P

Oh and did I mention so much drama going on in my last camp? x.x Number one, a lot of... erm... I don't know how to put it but yeah, many of the people in costume comm were really annoyed and irritated by this particular person and also cause due to stress, many of them sort of broke down. And so Hannah and I as the oldest did some comforting. And number two, someone younger confessed to me. And got super jealous and emotional when I was with another guy that he suspects that he likes me too. I understand it's a mix of immaturity but... urghhhh. And then number three, super stressed from the nativity play prep. Stressed till the point I broke down two days before the cantata cause there was this teacher who kept making me repeat the same line over and over again. But honestly I thought the way she wanted me to say it was so... unnatural. (Turned out on the day of play I just totally didn't do EVERYTHING that she told me to and strictly went according to what I learnt in drama-in-curriculum during sec 2. ^^ and WALA, all said I saved the best for the performance, and of course, Thank the Lord.) The cast only got to know of their roles like exactly a week before the nativity play and they all had to memorize the scripts. And yes, the worst was the narrator. And yes, I was the narrator. Though thankfully I only had to memorize the first and last scene, nonetheless, what I was supposed to memorize was significantly the most out of the other cast members. And we all know this poor girl over here have bad memorisation skills. Thank the Lord for the sustenance to memorise all that I needed in the end.

FAITH.

And it turned out on the day of the cantata that only Diana came. Guess she's really one true friend. :) Then one whole bunch of people went to clementi mall after that for dinner! There were like 16 of us initially. Then samuel came. And then brother joined me after having dinner with his friends. Plus later vanessa + victoria came. So it's like... 20 people..? HAHAHAH. And it was the night where brother realized that I was the kind of person that many people would want to tell their secrets to. And so he found me a scary person cause too many people have told me their secrets (although I don't really see a link.) As much as I don't really fancy a big table of people eating together cause ultimately, you won't get to talk to people at the other end of the table, it was still very much a blessed time spent with like-minded brethren. Indeed, Christian friends are truly the ones that will be with you forever until eternity because they are the ones that you'd be seeing in heaven.

Hail! -Jeanon who was Gabriel the angel's pose-

On the day of Christmas eve service, which is also the day after the cantata, my family left straight after the service (as usual). But many of my friends were searching for me. But cause brother brought his school friend to church, he could afford to stay in church for awhile since he didn't follow my family. Ended up, he became my middleman. When he came home, the first thing that he said to me was, "Ey you got a lot of Christmas gifts you know!!" And then he also comoplained how awkward it was for him to receive those gifts on my behalf because my friends will go "Ey where's your sister ah?" And he'll answer "Oh she went home already." And upon knowing this, my friends all say "Ah like that ah, oh then can you pass this to her? Sorry I didn't write yours/make your share." AHAHAHA SO CUTE MY FRIENDS. And it turned out, out of the several gifts that he took out from his bag, only one packet of cookies were his... the rest were mine... :P Oops. Felt a bit guilty for him to take all those gifts for me. OH WELL, but that's cause he always stick to his usual bunch of 2-3 same close friends. Not that I've got a lot of close friends in church, just that I've got quite a number of good friends too. That's why. :)

Oh and today was spent shopping but yet, I didn't get anything for myself. Too worned out from the week. Haven't really had a good night's rest yet ever since break camp... :/ Oh yeah and I happened to stumble across the video... picture(..?) montage of the June camp this year. Feeling so nostalgic now. Remember how we used to talk a lot during those times but we hardly talked this Dec camp though we were in the same group... Sigh. Too busy. And you slept too soon. We didn't have any late night chats too. And... it's our last ever teens camp but we didn't even take a proper photo together. Sighhhhh. LOLOL. Do I sound lovesick? I'M HONESTLY. NOT. In love. LOLOL.

Back to June.

Just... dropping by.

Imprints on my mind for Sunday in chronological order.

1. Gabriel still remembers me. :)
2. Had a nice lunch with Chewie and Joyce.
3. Went to vivo with brother after dinner; parents insisted he followed me...
4. Brother told me he thinks I can make it to hwachong that doesn't seem joking nor sarcastic. Think he study too much until his sense of logic went haywire. Oh wait, he doesn't study... -.-
5. Found out in jc physics is known as the "king of science" and lit is known as the "king of humans" and brother takes the both of them and he's only one of the three in his batch that has this subjects combination.
6. He seem to never stop amusing me about his academic abilities... -.-
7. Went to macs at ARC. Brother treated me mc cafe's able crumble. Probably he was feeling rich and kind. P.S.: He offered to treat me. I didn't even say anything. (Y)
8. Went home to pack for tomorrow. Started at 11 and ended 15 mins ago.
9. Will be inactive for a week...




10. OFF TO CAMP! ♥

Same same... But different..?

Got to admit my previous post title sounds a little depressing. HA. So it kind of pushed me to post an entry so people won't see that as the first header when they scroll away in my blog. So... YF camp just ended! Actually I sort of little bit regretted that I didn't go for it but... oh well. Next year I guess! But then again, it won't be the same next year cause some will not be there for camp anymore. It'll be... different...

Oh btw, have not done anything to the christmas cards ever since I've finished making them. Ahhhh. Cause still not confident enough of holding a pen yet... HAHAHAH.

GAHHHH. Just saw the photos on facebook of YF camp. Okay regret regret. Bleh. :(

So sick of us.

HELLOOOOOOZ. Have been talking about my future with quite a number of seniors recently. Hahaha does this make me sound like I'm a super kiasu person? Actually not. Cause my seniors have been pressing me about whether I wanna go jc or poly or IB (the last one is impossible for a dumb soul like me). Probably cause they're promoting their school to me. LOLOL. So they keep asking me what course I wanna take or what subject combination I wanna take. But my first and foremost answer that I'd always give would be "I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE." Then when asked to choose which institution I wanna go, I'll say "I don't wanna go jc because I'm really afraid of GP and H2 Bio. But I don't take geog and physics. I don't wanna go poly cause I'm not sure what course I wanna take and I really dislike having to hassle over what to wear everyday." As stupid as the second reason sound, it's about more of the reason why I don't wanna go poly than my first reason.

Anywayzzzz. Went to watch 南方小样牧场. Such a warm movie. :) How the characters communicated through doodling on exam scripts... Too cute!! :P But I don't understand why they had to cut Jian ManShu's hair SO VERY SHORT. It's gave her sucha boyish look and... uh... I thought that concept didn't really fit the characters around her that well..? It was too short alreadyz. D: I'd definately watch it a second time if people ask me to! HAHAHAH! But timing must match first hor. :P

Progress of watching A Werewolf Boy: Zero. Bleh. No time watch cause I'd be going camp next week and next next week would probably be a mad rush. And then there's still Hotel Transylvania, that Jackie Chan movie that's gonna be released around the 20+ of December. And Les Misérables! Oh and I hate to admit this but I saw the trailer for So Undercover and it seems like a funny movie despite Miley Cyrus being the lead. :P I NEED A MOVIE MARATHON. BAHAHA.

Alright enough about my blabbing on movies. Realised when the battery of my phone reaches 3%, it stays there reeeeeeeally long! :P

Effort cannot be exactly measured, but it can be seen. But I can hardly see it, much less feel it. Sometimes I ask myself am I the only one that's foolishly clinging on by myself?

How do I say this...

So many covers of songs being uploaded on Facebook. Some does it rather well but others... A bit... Heh. Alright, not like I can do it better or something. Just something worth 2 cents of me. HAHAHA.

I wanna watch A Werewolf Boy!! But number one, can't find time. And number two, can't find people to watch with me. Don't know anyone around me free AND interested in Song Joong Ki at the same time. :(

Happened to look through brother's prom photos. HAHAHAH. Can still remember him complaining how senseless the theme of his prom was. A Red Carpet Affair. And he was like "Wear red suit meh." HAHAHAHA. Don't worry. The theme of Futuristic was kind of... Meh too. But btw, the hairstyle that his friends helped him styled... Wasn't what I was expecting. HAHAHA. Sorry, you could have looked better though. :P The side fringe thing looked kinda weird on you. Maybe try going for the clean cut look. :P AIYO. I totally sound like a mean sister RIGHT. HAHAHAH. IT'S OKAY. JUDGE ME ALL YOU WANT, FELLAS. I can live with it. :)

I've got a lot of things on my mind recently but I just don't have the time to type everything down here. And I also realized some people actually knows my url. Blehhhh. But I don't want to keep locking then unlock and then lock and then unlock my blog. So troublesome. Before I wanna view my blog, need to log in and blah blah blah. So I've been kind of filtering the contents that goes on my blog. Sigh... Blogger has lost it's inital purpose to me. I can't post even 80% of what's on my mind and my thoughts anymore. Maybe now it's 50%? Daily happenings. And maybe a little reflections here and there.

Anyway, have been untagging ugly photos of myself on facebook. Bleh. Eyebags -- bane of my life ttm man. But need a mass untagging session cause I don't like to see 1K++ photos on my profile. It's somehow... intimidating. No? Maybe it's just me. Bleh. HEHEHE. And I finally started watching Secret Garden. The beginning was kind of boring but then it became interesting and now it's becoming a little... draggy. Oh well. I shall finish watching this last drama before I go for camp! Can't wait for teens camp btwz. And then my January job. Yeah. Like pky, I want a new environment quite badly.

We are not that great after all.

Once in a lifetime. :)

Helloooooooooooo! I don't care I'm being typical and saying it's 121212 today! Cause it's the last time we'll ever get to see this kind of date. Finally finished making allllll the christmas cards! ^^ Now what I'm left to do is to write in them. Heh heh. Actually I can't really think of what to post now. Bleh. Heheheh. Posting for the sake of posting. What a boring person. :P

축하한다 !♡

It's officially 121212 in KST. And according to Twitter, that means it is B1A4's 600th days of debut! And with that, they already held a solo concert, and have 7 albums/EPs, of which one is a full-length album. Not many rookie groups are able to accomplish such feat. And not to mention members have been taking part in the production of the album songs. So they are not just your ordinary flower-face guys. They have more than that. And that's why I respect them a lot.

Oh and I heard it's seungri's birthday too? Happy birthday VI!

So back to SGT, 121211 still. Woke up for lunch and then felt like baking again. So I told my parents that I felt like baking. :P But we didn't have cocoa powder, nutella and milk. So papa and I headed out to get those stuffs. Weeee! I baked Nutella Mug Cake! Yep! A cake in a mug! ^^ But... my mug was kinda too small for the recipe so while I sent the cake for baking, it literally exploded out of the mug like a volcano. BOOM. It was super amusing yet... a little disappointing cause I failed to estimate properly. But the final product turned out to be decent! Whole family loved it. Give me face or not don't care. At least got people eat it. :P I mean... at least it's edible lah. :D

But as a result of the unexpected explosion of the cake, I ended up baking longer than expected. So means I didn't do any cards in the afternoon. Only started after dinner. And I've only completed 10 so far ever since yesterday. But I guess the next 10 would be rather easy cause they are the... erm... for not so close but good friends one. Heheheh. So the design would be more or less homogenous. :)

On a side note. I like people who keep to their "ttyt"s. :)

Fruitful! :)

All tucked nicely in bed and I'm racing against 12% of phone battery to type down this entry. Hope my brain thinks faster than my phone depletes in its battery.

Had a pigging out session with Daniel today at sakae! Heheheh! Wanted to eat more, but on the account that I've got 22 Christmas cards to hand-make, plus I'm preparing a small little surprise for Christmas for close friends, plus I've got so many December baby friends, plus I've yet to get pky her present... so summing everything up, I've got to save quite a bit in order to do all those. Went around paper market and it was so lousy D: all the Christmas scrap materials were ugly. So disappointing. Bleh. Then we went to daisy to get my box and I finally fulfilled one of my wish that is to try out the drinks that was sold in daiso! Ey they were not bad quite good! ^^ Daniel had melon yogurt soda and I had grape soda. Duh. I love grape-flavoured-anything. :D

Went home to finally start my conquest on making 22 Christmas cards! Do do do. All the way till about 11. And then ern-min whatsapp me from yf camp! Yf camp is in Malaysia this year and he was leeching on JQ's connection. Aiyo. :P But what a great late night chat. :) Reminiscing on past years' teens camps like the late night chat I had with William Kenny Kaishuin Grace and Hannah on the last night of the camo last year and how Kenny was talking about his life stories that were so amusing funny and interesting and talked about my future (..?) Yeah Hahahah. Ahhh love these late night talks. :)

Can't wait for teens camp! :D

Rejoice!

Okay I know I already said goodnight on Twitter and I switched off the lights in my room and got ask comfy. But then I got up again I decided I should end the day with a short post cause good things happened today and they are worth being penned... err... typed(..?) down.

Mummy woke me up early in the morning at 730 just to tell me that kitchen for me to use strictly only between 9-11 today. For baking of course. :) Did a yoghurt cupcake instead of a cake! Since I had quite a lot of leftover cupcake liners from my previous bake, I decided I should make yoghurt cupcake instead of yoghurt cake. :P Turned out better than my previous bake! But then ambitious me decided to do a whipped cream based lemon glaze. Someone remind me never ever to mix anything sour or acidic with anything that is milk-based please. So my cupcakes ended up not having any topping/glaze/icing. BUT. Regardless of the messed up glaze, I don't care and hereby declare... PROJECT BAKE TWO; SUCCESS!! ^^

Then lunch then afternoon. Touched my guitar once again. Like seriously play it. Went on from 1230-230. Even now I'm still feeling the after effects of hardcore playing. Well actually not not exactly hardcore but since it's been cafes since I last played the guitar for so long, it's considered quite strenuous for me. My fingers are like semi-numb now. Was practising how to incorporate partial melody playing into chords plucking. LOLOL. If you even understand my language. Was training my ears anyway. Trying to re-familiarise myself with the guitar.

Went for my first yf!! Sat with odelia since Hannah was late. Up till now, Brian and Joyce are like one of the not-so-scary/most approachable yfers around that I know cause I'm sort of always (..?) talk to them in church. But even as I'm growing up, I see them becoming the more senior youths in yf, I can't help but feel that time passes too fast and sometimes I do dislike the big gap between our ages. It's like not long soon after I'll be join yf, they'll be leaving yf for yaf. Anyway, left after message. Hehehe and Raphael still remembers me! :) Forgot what he said but he said something to me while we brushed past each other. Heheheh nice senior indeed. :) Glad to see other teens at yf too. They made my first yf experience a whole lot less scarier.

Thank God for a blessed day. :)

AND YES, GOODNIGHT. :D

Nothing much.

Had a pounding headache until 330 am in the morning and alarm was at 730 am. Mum went to my room and switched off the alarm and then told the half-conscious-me to sleep till 9. Woke up, CLEANED MA ROOM. Literally wiped everything in my room except the walls and windows. xD And yes inclusive of my toilet. Tsk. The new maid's having such a good life. Ah no. I started cleaning my table and then it started getting addictive and then I began to cleaned my whole room. Heh. Happens to me all the time. Clean a small area and then slowly reaching out to other areas and clean them too. Some kind of clean freak disease. Bleh.

Went out to phoon huat to buy some whipped cream.

Hopefully I'll be able to bake some yoghurt (cup)cakes. :)

Received some moe letter at night and turned out to be some good progress award..? And then papa started to tease me about how I finally got an award for academics. But it's nothing to boast about cause as the name suggests, good progress. Urgh, means you were from bad to better. Why want to let the whole world know that you were bad once. Brother got some merit bursary..? Yeah smart ass. Oh and he told me that his classmate purposely slacked in sec 1 & 3, then chiong at sec 2 & 4 to receive the good progress award. LOLOL. Okaycan...

Shall go bathe naoz.

Something I don't deserve.

Already into six days of December, yet this is the first time I'm typing an entry for the month. Teehee. Oh well. So then. Have been spending A LOT ever since O levels are over. Thought I'd spend lesser after prom, but somehow, nothing seems to be changing. There's still a hole in my pocket. Sighs. And apparently a group of us got scammed by Edwin and ended up paying 25 bucks for Seoul Garden. A bit regret. Should have eaten Ajisen with Diana. LOLOL. Cause the food there ain't that great to worth 25 after all. But it was fun hanging out with a weird combination of Myet & Christine, along with Diana and abusing Jason's phone while he was away having an affair with public toilets. So conclusion of that day: everyone has got an Instagram account except me. Dear dear... And I shall not create one cause I think a Twitter account is enough. :)

This was used as his lock screen. Then we decided to take another one for his home screen. His reaction when he saw this was "Eh" with a super blank face x1000. Then he went ahead and unlocked his phone and the below picture was greeting him. And then he went "Ehh!" with a super blank face x100000. HAHAHAH GOTCHA.

So many troubled friends recently. Hmmmmz. I know it's useless to say cheer up because you'd obviously have done that if you could. But just know that God has His purpose in all these happenings and He will show you His will in His own perfect timing. Everything will eventually fall in place, so at least for now, don't be disheartened.

Must must must pack my table later when I wake up and then start making Christmas cards! Time will be passing so fast before I know it so I need to stop procrastinating! :( Ironic how I'm still procrastinating even after exams when I don't even need to study huh...

Oh yeah Joel's gonna be overseas during the camp period. Awwwwwwwww. D: And he'll most likely not stay over for camp even when he's back. Bleh. Whyyyy. Our last teens camp ley. It'll be hard to meet up after this year considering the fact that we're from different churches. He's sucha dear friend. He'd encourage me with bible verses during the O level period and then frequently ask me out to study along with Jon. And me rejecting 8 out of 10 of the offers cause I was lazy/tired which of course I felt bad too. :P

I wanna bake lah! :( But cause recently due to having a new maid, the house is quite unstable for baking. Z. HAIYA. I'm itching to bake ma yoghurt cake ley. Don't bake soon later yoghurt expire how? And I bought greek yoghurt! HEHEHE! Excited to eat the leftover yoghurt. :P

And honestly, I just want December to be over because I can't wait for January. Hehehe. The only weirdo here ey. But I wanna go out and work soon. Staying at home and rot is like so... Decaying. LOLOL. Am I even making any sense right now? Maybe I should start touching my guitar? But I can only touch it in the morning/afternoon cause I don't wanna play it at night when my dad/mum/brother can hear it. So embarrassing.

121205's Life of Pi!

Hmmm... is that all for my ranting? Pretty much all.

Goodnight now. :)

WHADDUP YO.

Went to watch Ah Boys to Men today at vivo! Cause dad wanna watch it with my soon-enlisting brother and since I saw some good comments of it, I initiated to watch it on Friday, which is, today. :) Yes yes I'm sick of that place too, but it's undeniably the most convenient place for me. And I like it how others are sick of that place too so they don't go there and then it's such an uncrowded place as compared to other places :) Wore super sui bian. Like literally picked out a shirt without looking what it was and just popped into it and then wore slippers, with the mindset that I'll go home straight after the movie. However I was... wrong. Had a last minute decision to watch ANOTHER movie after that movie with Nazira. HEHEHEH. Superrrrrr last minute. Since my first movie would end early and Naz was considering between vivo and tiong.

Met chenghao and nicholas! With my dad and brother. But since they were sooooo in front, so both parties didn't meet and went over to say hi! Then was sitting at the same row with Nicole Loh during the second movie. ^^

So anyway, the second movie I watched was the Rise of the Guardians. Quiteeee... Not a bad movie..? But somehow I perferred the first movie to the second cause it was more funny. And somehow Ah Boys to Men was able to bring out my emotions...? Yeah. But I thought the ending of Ah Boys to Men was rather cliché though. Yes there'll be a part two but they should probably have done a proper ending of the first part. Loved the theme song though :P



Happened to stumble across this.
1) Didn't know Haha and big bang were close even then.

2) I like the dance cheoro :

3) HAHA CAN DANCE MANNNNNZXC! (Y)

Above and beyond.

Beep beep. Just finished episodes 109&110. Oh my goodness. Love how running man invites athletes that are soooooo cute. ^^ Park jisung, park taehwan and son yeonjae. Hahaha. They're all so funny yet cute. xD Oh and there was the idol Olympic special. Hehehehe.

Oh look at the time. Going out in 12h and I'm not asleep yet. Did I mentioned I slept at 4 am yesterday? Errrr... literally yesterday considering today's the 30th. Then I set my alarm at 830 but I totally didn't hear anything at all. If my parents found out I slept at such unearthly hours, they'll probably confiscate all my electronic devices or something x.x Yes yes, under really strict and traditional upbringing whereby my grandma believes in sleeping early and waking up early; enforcing this belief on me, hence waking any later than 9 am for a girl is ugly and undesirable. Life in my home is not what (grand) parents perceives as proper upbringing; commonly known as 家教, but as modern day reality percieves, military. Or worse.

And I have the weirdest taste buds on earth. I ate the left over sour cream that wast used in baking two days ago on it's own. And then I gulped down the whipping cream that was left over too. After which two mouthful were left, I realised that the whipping cream was 24.6g worth of SATURATED FATS. I turned to mummy and said, "If in the next week or so, you ever see my face puff up or something, you know why..." And she laughed at me. :(

But back to the first paragraph, I think park jisung should be invited to be a fixed cast of running man should he decide to retire from soccer one day. Those three athletes have really cute voices too btw. LOLOL. Cute is becoming an overused word that it's becoming cheap in its meaning. Blame my vocab bank. :P

그럼... 굿나잇 여러분! :)

All alone.

First time literally baking by myself. Mummy only helped with telling me where the utensils were. She left me to die by myself caused I had to waash every single thing by myself too. HAHAHAHA.

The first batch came out tasting good! ^^ The crust was crisp while the inside was sort of moist and soft anf fluffy. ^^ Indeed it taste best when it's fresh from the oven :D But it was sort of overflowing because I didn't have the right trays at home x.x So as a result of it's overflow, plus the runny icing (added too much liquid...), I couldn't do the icing propoperly... :/

Next stop, Yoghurt cake; No-butter-cake for grandma! :)

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OHMYGOSH. I LOST MY POST THAT TOOK ME AN HOUR. Shall try to recall what I typed. So here it goes...

Having a little of a mixed feeling now.

WHATEVER.

Went for grocery shopping with my parents today! Absolutely loooooooove grocery shopping with my parents case I always end up with good food! :D Swang by laoban to get some TAOHUEY! Bought all my baking ingredients today and probably shall bake tomorrow! Oh I still have yet to buy vanilla extract though. Shall go cold strorage in the morning then bake in the afternoon. And I'm gonna bake something simple and easy. -coughs- Afterall I'm a very new baker -smiles innocently- and this is a really busy period for mummy so I don't wanna bake complicated ones and then she'll go crazy after cleaning up my mess. HAHAHAHA. No matter how much I try to clean up, my mum will still somehow help me in it. So yeahhhh. And the current maid's gonna go home soon while the new maid comes in so it's quite a hectic period for the maid my mum and my dad. I guess..?

So I decided on what to bake only in the morning and then I was told to come up with a list of ingredients that I'll have to buy cause parents will be going out in the afternoon, as mentioned above. And no joke, it took me an hour to come up with it. Yeahhhh was being super precise like when some recipes gave me for example "8 tablespoons of butter". Like seriously?! Who measures butter in tablespoons?? At least I've not heard of such a thing before. So had to convert from tbsp to grams. And then there some some like cups to grams since I didn't wish to over buy and usually the ingredients that you buy only mention how much does the product weigh. And then as a new baker, I was rather confused with the many kind of different flour sugar whatnots. So I had them all googled like "Can plain flour be used in place of all-purpose flour". Yes and I've learnt that Confectioners = Powdered = Icing sugar. And Castor sugar is more coarse than the former but finer than Granulated sugar, which is also more commonly known as table sugar. And then unsalted butter is used in preference to salted butter because unsalted butter has less salt contents which makes it a butter that is more fresh. And fresh ingredients = fresh baked product = higher quality food. HAHAHAHA. BET YOU BAKERS OUT THERE MAY NOT EVEN KNOW SOME OF THESE FACTS! :P Just bake for fun rightttt! Yes and vanilla extract is more attas than vanilla essence cause the former is really extracted from vanilla pods while the latter is produced by chemicals. Vanilla extract therefore gives a richer and fuller taste while vanilla essence is more watery. :) BOOYA! Did my homework ;) LOLOL. What talking me. WHAT HOMEWORK. OS OVER DI. :P

Oh yeah. Talking about project pack table and start making Christmas cards, progress up till date: PROUDLY ZERO. HAHAHAHA. :P

N: A game of Running Man anyone? (:
L: OMG. i didn't know Nazira's into running man.
N: !!! ms lee, really?! i'm hurt... )':
J: OMG MS LEE. Come join us and play too!!!
L: Haha. Nazira, I'm just trying to imagine you amongst your classmates. You'll probably be calmer than them, like Peaceful Gary. haha.
N: .... Hohoho. I'll be like Blank Jihyo, but not Ace Jihyo. And Gary is not peaceful!! xD
J: ms lee ignore sia. sighs.. STRESS.
N: Ms Lee said she's not playing. Met her ytd at Jurong Point. Instead, Mr Koh is playing. oh i forgot to add. Mr Koh said, "I'll be playing/sitting with a bazooka".

This is really cracks me up espeically when I've just finished watching a funny episode of running man. xD Peacful Gary, Mong Jiyo, Ace Jiyo, STRESS AND MR KOH. HAHAHAHAH MYGOSH.

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My... whole body... aching so much. Back aching, arms aching, knees aching, neck aching, legs aching, ankles aching. Susah lah.

Celebrated grandma's birthday today. Limped so awkwardly around everywhere. Prashat asked me if I wanted to work for 7.50/h but mum disallowed me cause she doesn't want me to work at mbs... Okayzzzzzz. But so broke now. Need to earn some money. Yeah, I'm going for the attachment at Singapore Mint, but that's only gonna happen next year. I have to fund all the outings that I'm gonna go during post Os and all the baking ingredients (which ain't cheap at all). Not as if they will sponsor me. And even if they do, I don't feel too good about spending their money. Parents' money. Oh yes I did mentioned I will bake after Os right. :) Seriously can't wait! Hmmmmm... what should I bake?? Red velvet? Choc/nutella lava? Actually not so much of what I'm baking but I like doing the decos on the cake itself :) Much joy to it for me. Collected a lot of designs before Os and have been wanting to try them after Os! xD

Oh yeah, and lesson learnt from last year: Start making Christmas cards one month before. Especially when I usually give out 20+ cards annually. On other years I usually mass buy cards and just write on them. But since I'm a sec 4 this year and it means super free after O levels, I decided last year that I would hand make Christmas cards this year! Get stuffs from paper market and snip away! ^^ And I found out that paper market has opened an outlet at vivo which is like superrrrrr convenient for muaz. :D Shall start making them tomorrow!

They say that the sky is at its darkest right before the sun rises. That's why no matter how dark it is, you cannot feel afraid. As long as you wait patiently, the sun will rise eventually. Because the closer you are to darkness, the closer you are to seeing the sun.

OUCHHHH. :(

이거 봐... 너무 무섭다 :(

P.S.: If you were wondering, that's my right knee.

Post Os!!

Gonna sleep after this post! So prom's finally over and went to ice skate with teens today! Mission to learn how to skate was successful but I fell like so much more times than my first time skating x.x Yeah that's cause my first time skating was spent holding the wall. But this time I totally didn't hold the wall and left myself to die. Both elbows and knees all bruised and a blister from today's skating was worse than my first time skating. pic.twitter.com/BAmc1zoG How bad myright knee is. -Edit: All those red last night turned black... x.x- Oh yes, and because of the blister, I couldn't bathe carefully. Ended up slipping in the bath x.x Ouch... Hit my head against the shower door. Aiyo... I sound like an old woman right :( But okay lah, not that bad. But maybe because of the slip thats why the whole knee is red now. :/ Yep, it's swollen.

Thought I was really underdressed for prom the moment I set foot on Amara hotel. Like, all the girls were with so much makeup and... I don't know, they just looked super ready for prom. And I'm all like... HAHAHA. Nothing much on me. I even forgot to wear earrings cause I was in a rush to meet up with the girls! :P So then went up to Christine's room to have some eyeliner drawn and some mascara done. That's all for my makeup! :/ Yep, doesn't it sound underdressed? :( And my mum brainwashed me (again) that my hairstyle was really messy and it wasn't nice. So I went to Amara with a :/ heart. But then some friends said my hair was very nice so I went :D HEHEHEH. So dangerous, I'm so easily influenced by my mum -.-

Anyway, undoubtedly, the photo-session during the prom was the best part. These are the few that I picked out from my collection in my phone. Waiting for the others to upload. :)

Miss this girl. Think she's in China or something now. :P

Ten years of friends! Nicholas: 2 years of same chinese class, 2 years of classmates. Shaowen: 4 years of classmates! :D

 

이 오빠 최고! Though I haven't known him for a very long period of time and we don't really talk much but he alwasy treats me like his precious little sister. :D Such a hard friend to come by. :)

This non-existent friend :P HAHAHAHA. Didn't realized we were from the same church since birth till like this year only or something. P.S.: Daniel's another non-existent friend that I realized we were childhood friends from the same church who recognised each other only at the end of sec 3 but photos of us are not being uploaded yet.

 

Nazira shot this while I was waiting for Diana to be done with her make up.

 



 

At the end of the day when I removed all those pins in my head! Some curls there :)

 

Intended to post this entry at 1 am before I go to sleep but dad suddenly cut off my wifi supply and I couldn't upload the photos via my phone's hotspot so I specially painstakingly woke up at 8 to post this before (I forget later and) I go back to sleep again! :)

 

Goodnight! 

 

 

 

Look at the sky!

Hello hello. I bet everyone's like already busy preparing for prom. But what am I doing? I'm still watching dramas. Actually no. I've just finished watching this drama Heading to the Ground. Apparently it's a drama with low ratings. Probably because the plot wasn't so intense and rather mild. Not dramatic enough..? But honestly I liked it. Even the ending. Though the lead names were... LOLOL. Rather old fashioned. :P

Hahahaha sounds like I've got a lot of time yeah? Like it's almost 3 and I've done absolutely nothing in preparation for prom plus I'm here blogging. Hehehe. Oh well I guess mummy has brainwashed influenced me that prom is not such of a big deal. After prom so what? There's still prom in jc. (Yeah for those who don't know, I've decided to go jc if the Lord wills) And after jc prom there'll be errr... company dinners if I start working (..?) So life still goes on and sec school prom is just one small segment in life. I don't see a major need to put all my effort in preparing for it. :P But then again, it's a once in a life time thing. Like some people don't even get a chance to attend sec school prom (psst, my poor brother who's an IP kid). Oopsie. Meanie sister. :P So that's why I'm tapping on my whole year's savings for prom. :) A portion lah. Heheheh. Good enough for me. A decent dress and a pair of decent heels.

Can't want for tomorrow's outing!! ^^ Though I hope I won't bump into any css-ian. -mission impossible- sigh.

Alright bye!

So excited for tomorrow's tomorrow! :D

Woopie! Went to my hairstylist after a looooooooong time!! Yes, because it's really far away! Like at potong pasir there. Plus I was like super busy this whole year before Os. SO IT'S POST Os AND IT'S TIME TO GO VISIT THEM!! I've not really mentioned this but I really looooove my hairstylist! Hmmm... okay strictly speaking I don't have one specific hairstylist cause when I go that shop, usually there would be either the 2 out of 5 of them to attend to me. Cause the two specialises in teens/young adult hairstyles. Today was mei lan jie jie! :) Since it's a family-runn business, everyone there are like super nice and friendly. And oh! I can literally say they've seen me grown up! Mummy have been putting my hair in their hands ever since as old as I can remmeber. And I'll never go other places to cut my hair except there, unless I really don't have the time to go that far. But even so, I'll only ask the other places to trim only.

Pity, pity. The shop doesn't open on a Thursday. So I can't go there to style my hair tomorrow! :( How sad. Gah. I'll just probably not do up my hair or anything for prom thenz.

Anyway on a side note, from past seniors' + mother's experience, they all said that a lot of girls who go to prom wear super high heels, more than they can ever handle and then walk like a duck/ahlian. Partially cause they don't wear such high heels usually/their whole life. Hope I don't end up like that! x.x HEHEHEHE. It's been awhile since I last wore heels so I decided to wear them out while going out with mummy today. Thank God my legs ain't aching even up till now! :) Dear 3.5 inches, I'm ready to conquer you tomorrow!! ^^

예뻐? :)

걸어 본다

I JUST REALIZED STH AND I GOTTA BLOG THIS. Just finish watching B1A4's Tried to Walk and I got cursiou so I started counting. Sandeul has 5 parts, CNU 3 parts, Gongchan 2, Baro 2... JINYOUNG 5 parts! Erm, the way I count is like when it's their turn to sing their chunk before another singer takes over is considered 1 part. WOWIE. DAEBAKKK!! (Y)

Okayzzzz. This is really really crazy. Thought my hectic going out week will end when prom ends but apparently not... I've got another 2 more additional outings with church people. So let's see...

Monday: PKY, Huiru
Tuesday: Diana
Wednesday: Mummy
Thursday: Prom
Friday: Combined teens outing
Saturday: Youth Fellowship
Sunday: Churchhhhh

Literally going out every single day man... Ohmygosh but I'm already out of money :( Yeah in that sense that I don't wanna tap on my savings... Sighhhhh. D: Legs HP: 50/100. MP: 0/100. LOLOL. Someone save meeeeeeee. Don't wanna go out cause I'll be so tired but wanna go out cause it has been so long! :(

Yawnnnnnnnnnz.

Can't wait for prom to be over! Like seriouslyyyy. Everyday go out. I'm so tired. Legs breaking, hands also breaking. I wanna stay at home lahhhhh.

And can't luozhixiang film a new drama already? He has stopped ever since 2009 and I'm so sad :( All the other taiwanese dramas are not as nice already. And I'm almost running out of korean dramas. Sigh.

Anyway went to Orchard + Bugis today. Met Charmaine Lixian Dion. Then met Junho Tinhang that clique. Then saw Shuying. And then some bunch of commonwealthians I don't know their names. And then Nicholas. And then Diana. LOLOL. Kaiyingw as complaining that she didn't want to see anymore cause she say she wear until so cui. :P

Heading to the ground!

완전 때박!!

WHOOOOOOO. BAHAHAHAHA. I CAN FLY ALREADY.

HAI I'M BACK.

First thing when we went in the examination hall the invigilator from another school went "So hi welcome to your last paper. Please sit when you're ready." TOTALLY LOVE HOW HE SAID THAT. Towards the last 5 minutes of the paper everyone around me started fidgeting. Like quite badly. But I told myself "Keep calm, HuiEn. You can scream all you want later." And then when the papers were collected, accounted for, seems like that invigilator tried to play with us or something. He obviously knew we were waiting impatiently for him to utter those final words "Okay you may leave now." But he talked and talked and talked. Like it seemed abnormally longer than usual. HAHAHAHA. Like "Please remember to leave the room asap and collect your handphones cause you may not be able to blah blah blah..." and the speech went on. Then finally when the magic words were spoken, everyone went WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Anyway, I've finished watching The Innocent Man. ITTZA GUD DRAMA. I mean yeah. Hehehe. The writer of this drama was Lee Kyung Hee and if you knew her name, all her more famous scripts were like all with tragic endings. A Love To Kill, Sorry I Love You etc. All in the end male and female lead died. And always end with "They are finally reunited in death." So before the last episode of The Innocent Man, many watchers were speculating if it would be another tragic ending. Since the female lead sort of wanted revenge and the male lead had some internal bleeding in the head. And obviously we all want a happy ending. And it was a happy ending! :) Honestly ever since episode 1, I was hoping that Maru could become a doctor eventually since he had an IQ of 158. Though I thought the ending was kind of weak but at least it was rather satisfactory. And the setting was beauuuutiful! :)

Ah ah, and B1A4's comeback! Was spazzing about them with HuiRu like 30mins before bio instead of revising bio. LOLOL. Cause our brains were too saturated with bio facts already I guess. Smiles unknowingly pulled our cheeks. HEHEHEHE. When I first heard the audio I was honestly a little disappointed. Then the mv came out and I just watched it for the sake of watching it. The mv was very well shot and Baro's acting was (Y). But then the more  listened the more it caught on me and even during the chem mcq yesterday, the chorus kept replaying in my head. Then I saw their first comeback stage and I totally just went WOANJEON DAEBAK. Their singing and dancing undoubtly improved a lot!! And I totally loved the choreo!! And did I mentioned Jinyoung had a solo track in this mini album? His singing improved a lot!!

Last one before I go off!!

Ahhh. Completed 3 chem paper ones on the way for lunch out Wuthering family today. Dropped by the mall by buona vista for gugu to buy a laptop. The shop was cool cause all the laptop on display was playing kpop mvs. BUT IT WAS LOUSY. All snsd sistar secret dalshabet beast seungri only. WHAT IS KPOP WITHOUT SUJU??? NOTHING!! But the shop was playing this super nice Korean song that sounded like an ost. Was trying to figure out the name of the song cause it was reeeeeeeally nice. But gave up in the end and then brother and I started translating the korean lyrics into English to show off to each other who's Korean is better :P

Brother begged me to go buy soghurt with him and I was like all "No. No! I have no money!~ 난 돈이 없어다!~" Then he offered to lend me money and I was like "You think I very rich eat soghurt uh??" Hahaha can tell that he wanted me to go with him quite badly cause this stingy person offered to let me kope some of his soghurt. Then I went "you treat me one cup then I go" And he sighed and said fine. Then I said "OKAY QUICK QUICK GO GO!!" In a 180 degree change of attitude :P But I you scammed by him cause he didn't take two cups at soghurt. Ended up he was like "ey really too expensive la. Take big cup share okay" LOLOL.

Went home and prepared for tuition with Brandon. It was a loooooong time since I last saw him :) Then towards the end of the tuition he was like "you still don't know what you want to do ah?" And I replied "Uhhhhhhh... ya." And then he told me that I should hurry and decide and not wait till the results are out cause I won't have much time to decide when the results come out. After the tuition ended and after seeing Brandon off, I sped to the kitchen to search for mummy who was with yati and went "THE LAST CHEM TUITION OF DA YEAR. MY LAST TUITION OF DA WHOLE YEAR. YAHOOOOOOOO!!" And they laughed at me like I was some mad woman. Okay whatever. Hehehe. IT'S ALL OVER MAN!! :D

Considering if I should yay watching 当爱走进来 but have a feeling it's gonna be a super sad show like autumn's concerto. And I'm rather hesitant cause the drama is dubbed by China Chinese voices ._.

Hiatus!

Feeling somewhat... confident for chem already. But econs and bio... LOLOL. Zero. Die.

Shall take a short break from blog :)

난 할수있어 (^_^)

Seungri was so cute in running man episode 30 I'm starting to like him :>

Episode 31 haha's have dance. Likeacutepenguin xD

Sigh at how much my brother influences my life. HEHEHEHE. At least I can read and write in basic Korean thanks to him. Hahaha and then when you people are trying to figure out what I'm typing by Google translate... MAJOR FAIL. HEHEHEHE. Google translate doesn't capture 60% of the expression. GO LEARN SOME KOREAN BEFORE YOU TRUE STALK ME. Yeah? ;) Variety shows. Where I learn the most though.

Though a lot of time was wasted on travelling but it was totally worth it. Super productive morning and afternoon. Suuuuuuper peaceful at the viewing gallery. HAHAHAHAH. Diana and I made two "friends" today. B-boyers some more! Hehehe :P

Currently blogging while watching running man. Mygosh. Think tomorrow wake up will get 内伤 man. Can't laugh cause I'll disturb my sleeping family but it's like soooooo funny I can die laughing.

It was a good day watching planes fly studying. ^^

Life of a glass.

Tweeted goodnight on Twitter, laid on bed, but somehow my heart and mind wasn't settled and I just couldn't fall asleep. Friendship problems rang in my mind. And so I decided I'll stop keeping everything to myself and just pour everything out.

Didn't touched the comp at all today! Was k-ing my 1000 chem mcq book. Finished 300 questions! Finally back on track with my schedule! But bio... LOLOL. 200-300 questions behind time. Hahaha yeah. I don't say behind time in my previous posts for no reason. I'm reallyyyyy so behind my schedule. Must complete these two 1000 mcq books by Tuesday!! Oh and my TYS'es. Wanna redo them from 211 backwards. Much complete bio chem tys by this week! And then my dearest econs, shall touch it from Monday onwards. :)

Okay buy I admit half of my afternoon was spent on quality time with my phone. Hehehe. Finished innocent man episodes 17 &18. Such a tragedy. :( Kang Maru. The nicest guy that you can't find on earth. That's the actual translation from the Korean title. INFLUENCED MUMMY TO WATCH IT!! SHE SAID THE PLOT WAS GOOD WHILE I WAS WATCHING EPISODE 12. HAHAHAHAH. LIKE FINALLY MUMMY, achievement unlock for me and you. I finally got you to watch a drama that doesn't have your all time favourite stars like kim hyunjong, lee minho, jerry yan and ella chen. And mummy, you are finally not pressing the reply buttons for down with love, bof, playful kiss and personal taste. And out of all four, I only completed watching bof because I was young with lots of time during sec 1 while for the rest, I just can't bare to finish watching them cause it became too boring at the end(..?) Yeah. Goodie!

When glass breaks, the cracks move at a speed greater than three thousand miles per hour. All you had to do was to drop it on a hard floor, and it sets off this reaction that came so quickly that you couldn't take it back, even if you wanted to. Newton said that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction — there are consequences for everything.

가장 친한 친구, 우리는 이젠 그만하자. 네?

You know what's our problem? You are not the problem. Neither am I. It's our perspectives. What I deem as wrong, you don't actually see what's wrong with it. Notice how seldom I start an argument, if you even call it one. You always start talking about how unhappy you are about me. And you expect a reply. So a reply I gave you. But you needs to know that I'm a person too. There's a limit to what I can tolerate from you. This is the first time I took the initiative to pour everything out alright. All the other while I always went "Ah, it's alright. Forget about it. It ain't much. It won't happen again." But it always happened again in one way or another somehow, in the end. Really, you said you changed so much for me. But have I ever asked you to do so? Not that I don't bother at all that you did so much. But all I wanted from you was to accept me for who I am as your friend. My beliefs and stands. And then now you say oh look what I've done for you, I've never changed so much for a person before. Seriously, you would stop looking at what you've done for others and pause to look what others have done for you? And but trying to understand someone isn't changing yourself. Just because you weren't willing to understand anyone in the past but willing to try understand me doesn't make it a big deal that you actually change although I do appreciate that you tried to understand my stands. Like it or not, but if you don't put yourself in other people's shoes then you'll probably live a proud life. Go ahead if you think it's fine with you. 不是有付出,就一定会有实际的收获。

No, I'm not gonna compare and compete with you in who's more tired in this friendship. It's childish and pointless. But yes, I am tired, in fact very tired. Every time I see you upset and ask you what's wrong and then you give me a letter-long message about how upset you are about what I did and you feel that you're not important to me. I know you know that I get tired of all these nonsense. I get tired because I try find ways and means to explain to you in the least hurting way possible. But somehow it ends up as junk because you think they're all excuses. So means to say I've wasted all my efforts in trying to make you feel that you're still important to me, and that I still care for you as a friend. I get even more tired when this cycle repeats itself like ten over times throughout this short period of ten months. Look here, and let me tell you this. If you weren't important to me at all, would I even spend all that energy to make you feel slightly better, to feel upset at this matter, to even care whether you're alright or not? And I really don't understand why. WHY. Why you always go whose right and whose wrong when if you realized pinpointing whose right and wrong doesn't actually solve the problems that we have with each other cause it really all boils down to our perspective.

Excuses. They are all excuses to you. But if they do justify my stand, they're still excuses to you too? Then what reply do you want from me? An apology? Sure, I'll give it to you. But it'll be meaningless. If you fail to make me realize why I was so wrong. You said before to not care so much anymore. So you'll be more carefree and be happier. I was honestly happy when you started to think that way. Cause I frankly thought that before, you were too uptight. And insecure(..?) But then somehow or rather, you were still affected. No? Everyone could sense it.

Being friends with you make me feel suffocated sometimes. Constantly worry if I do this, will you get affected by it, even in the slightest manner. Yes, yes I am sensitive. But I don't get upset at people about it. Cause I know I am sensitive. So even if I'm upset about something really small, I don't show it because it's really nothing much and it's my own problem/fault that I'm actually upset about something that's almost nothing. And then I'll get over it. And yes, you've mentioned it, you don't have any special feelings for me. But many a times I feel that you're being over-possessive. Call that care for friend or what. But really, somehow, with this care that you give me, I can't... breathe. I feel that I've lost the freedom to be with my other friends who are as important.

All these ten months you've been telling me about how you don't like me to this and that. Well then it's only fair that I have a say too right? To pour out everything. I am not putting a blame on you neither am I saying that you are in the wrong. But rather, since we can't see eye to eye. Maybe let's stop being such good friends. Afterall, maybe because of our perspectives, we can't see eye to eye. Thank you for those sweet memories and let's start from day 1 of 2012; when we were classmates who got along well.

우리 두 피곤 때문에.

Shall we stop here?

Did absolute zero work today. Ohmygosh. What have I been doing -.- Watching dramas of courzzzze. LOL. Wasted my day away even though mummy didn't let me go out today. So I should totally have went out right. Better to go out with friends when get cooped at home. But what can I do. I have the strictest parents in the whole century. -facepalm-

Actually my afternoon was spent on running man. Hehehehehe. Song joong ki da brain! :P Watching for people to finish subbing the recent episodes of The Innocent Man. Then at around 4 tilll now I've been watching Sprout. A simple Japanese high school love story I would say..? Though I hardly ever find Japanese people handsome/pretty (yeah, really subjective :P), but what I like about Japanese dramas are the way that they are able to portary the warm between friends and siblings. Though their plot development for romance is a bit... meh. Not... elaborative(..?) enough. Not detailed enough. They're always rather vague. Or maybe cause the Japanese dramas that I watch are not really romance-focused. But then almost every single Taiwan/Korean dramas do have a main romance story/plot in the scripts. So yeah.

But then again. Taiwan/Korean dramas somehow don't portray the warmth of friendship and kinship as well as Japanese dramas in my point of view. Kinship between siblings I mean.

Shall carry this feeling of guilt to sleep and shall wake up with it and then chiong my work! Really behind time x.x Haven't even touch econs yet. I've sooooo dead. Need to prove mummy wrong that when I buy an assement book, I'll finish it! Oh yeah. Still need to touch my TYS'es. SIGH. Wish me all the best for tomorrow because I must force myself to survive without using the computer! :(

Alright then. Goodnight.

Around the world.

It's crazy how when you've figured out how everyone's related to everyone and then somehow I'll be mind blown. Like WOAHHHH. You him him?? And she knows you?? Those kind of things happen a lot to me. I mean, I just find it very fascinated at the fact that someone from one aspect of my life knows another one from another aspect of my life. School, church, tuition and... miscellaneous. LOL.

Somehow I've came to a realization that I actually really really look up to my brother. He was handsome as a baby but then think cause he became lazy(..?) He lacks a lot of grooming. So he's like ugly now. HAHAHA. That's what I often say to my family and him. "Gorgor, you very ugly ley." or "Mummy, why gorgor so ugly?" Sounds mean here but I talk with the teasing tone. But then on a closer look he's really handsome. (Have been looking through his facebook photos :P) It's just he doesn't take good care of his face lah. He has superrrrrrrr nice eyes. Apparently a lot of his female friends all jealous of his eye. "Ey can't you don't look at my straight in the eyes without your specs, my heart might melt." LOLOL. To that extent that female friends say to him. Sounds a little scary, come to think of it.

Why recently te admiration? Cause he doesn't lack anything in my point of view. Maybe except height. :P HAHAHA. I don't even think he's 170. Sigh. But whatever. His life is complete lah. Hai. So apparently he's a science student. But yet he excels in his language/art subjects too. He loves lit so much he gets A for it. He's a natural when it comes to maths and chem. Straight As for him for those 2 subjects ever since I remember him taking those subjects. Well, he's a science-y person. But he gets inconsistent A's and B's for bio and phy. Though somehow they always end up as A's by the end of year exams. And lastly. GP RIGHT. EVERYONE SAYS IT'S SO HARD TO EVEN GET A B RIGHT? Ever since he came year 6 he gets consistent A's for GP essay writing. And I don't even see him doing homework at home only till recently June..? And I started finally seeing him STUDY at home only during his study leave period. And then he shows off to me "My juniors all think I year 5 cause they don't think I look stressed" or things like "Do I look stressed to you? -.-" in a super duh-tone.

He trains chin-up at home. Thin for a male but muscluar enough.

But then he's not like a normal typical boy. He doesn't fancy playing basketball nor soccer/football. He thinks chasing after a ball is stupid. -facepalm- Sigh. Too smart already that's probably why. All he've been into ever since primary school was robots and robots and... ROBOTS. Sigh... -shakes head- Honestly I quite amazed such a combination like him exists.

Ahem. Can't say that I stalk him based on the above right? Afterall I've been living with him my whole life. :P

Maybe that's why I have high expectations of myself. Ever since young I know there's no way I can compete with him. I just don't have that natural flare. But at least I hope to be in the same league as him. Somehow I just don't think a major difference in acadamic aspect between us looks nice. Afterall we come from the same family and we share similar genes. Somehow the path that he takes, it becomes a dreamy goal for me. IP, triple science, blah blah blah. But then looking at the present, I've done nothing similar to what he did. LOLOL.

Sigh. I'm sooooo distracted doing my MCQs! :(

Twist and turn

Ever since the first of November, I've been the last one to sleep in my family and ever since the second of November, I've been the last to wake up in my family. Heh heh. Turning nocturnal soon ey x.x

Cannot lose momentum of studying! Dx Need to do some catching up soon! But... LOLOL. What happened to all the going outs after the First. Sigh. Everyone's preparing for their geog/hcl. I'm the only one who has the 2 weeks break. Actually not. Huiru has too. Just that she says to go out after the geog paper. HEHEHE. Actually on second thoughts, I don't feel like going out these 2 weeks. Just wanns stay at home and do my 1000 mcq book and chilllll with running man xD #lazymax. But I gotta hunt for my prom dress soon. Tsk. Mygosh. Bet I'm like the only one that hasn't found her dress yet ._.

Whatever. Shall turn off the comp and sleep early tonight. Hope my body alarm wakes me up at 7ish tomorrow :) Sleeping my braids tonight again! xD Have a recent love for overnight curls :P

Goodnight!

기억 안 나?

GOOD MORNING. Really detest the latest YouTube layout. Sigh... How many times have I said I hate changes. Looks like it'll take me another 2-3 weeks getting used to the new layout.

Bought the 1000 MCQ questions book. LOL. Crazygirl97. But I'll try finish all of them by O Levels.

Lastly, I have started watching Running Man after my last major paper on the 1st of November. That awkward moment when you have friends whose name has initials of RM and when you talk about Running Man on twitter with the abrivated form, that friend wasted 10 sec of his/her life reading the tweet. LOL. Okay so random. Tsk shall sleep soon.

Mummy's friend came over this/last... on SUNDAY afternoon and I was called over just to let the friend take a look at me and have me stand there for 10 mins for her to look up down whole body. LOL. Quite... Pointless ._. Whatever, at least I had a wonderful lunch with my family today/yesterday... on SUNDAY.

Hope my parents allow me to go to the airport and watch planes fly study.

Goodnight.

I don't know too.

Made myself resist all urge to watch running man after Os. AND YAYYYYYYYYYYY. LOLOL. Okay Os are not over. But all major papers are over. So I'm watching them now!! ^^ LOLOL. So slow lah. I've got so many friends who watch running man though they are not interested in any korean stars/varitey shows/dramas and everyone around me keep talking about it. And I'm like the only clueless one tsk x.x HEHEHE. IT'S OKAY. CAUSE I'M GONNA CATCH UP REALLLL SOON!! :D

如果你愿意一层一层 一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全 心全意

Whoop Whoop!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOO. ENJOYIN' THE UNOFFICAL POST O-LEVELS PERIOD!!

Okay although I kind of messed up my emath, bio, HISTORY and maybe a little of english. BUT IT'S OVAR. I did my best in studying, forcing myself to wake up early just to do work or STUDY. Leaving the rest to the Lord. HEHEHEHE. I FEEL SO LIGHT NAO. LOLOL. It's not 3.45 yet. Friends are still taking Physics :P

It's okay if I don't get a single digit, it's okay if I don't get 5A1s. Afterall, the Lord won't give me 1 mark more or less than what's best for me. Taking the path of faith. :)

Episode 69 :')
比起柯偉翔，其实趙東陽值得更欣賞。不是每個人都能接受事實，最後瀟灑­的放手，不增加她/他的負擔。有些愛默默放在心底更偉大！至少已­表白過了，雖然被拒絕但心中不會有遺憾。

Ticking away that fast.

Felt like an unwanted child yesterday ._. Just because I'm independent doesn't mean I can live without company.

Chem retest was... Crafted to fail us on purpose. I can't get B at all, not to mention an A2. Bye. Study leave -.- Annoyed max. What hapened to all the "It's gonna be tys standard"??? It was so much harder than prelims! At least prelim, there was something to crap out. The retest they gave us was like... Totally cannot crap out anything. Like it was so hard to comprehend the quesions that it forces us to just leave blank as out answers. Totally wasted my time studying for chem, because less than 10% of the things we should know for chem is tested. The rest is pretty much application. But then again, they were giving us out of syllabus stuffs hoping we use our head knowlegde to do the paper. I mean I think it's perfectly fine to include such questions in the paper to distinct between the mediocre and good students. But it's madness when practically THE WHOLE FREAKING PAPER was flooded with such questions.

I'm sick. Must be Jason passing his flu bug to me. Tsk. Started wit waking up to a sore throat on wednesday. Then I started to have runny nose since last night. And my mucus were super disgusting. Like... URGHHHH. Used so my toilet paper for my nose that when my maid collected my rubbis from my room, my dustbin was 60% filled with nothing but toilet paper. LOLOL. My maid was like woah.

Throat so dry.

WHEN IN DOUBT... Follow Seniors

How long has it been? Urghhhh. Miss Ian so much! Have not been staying back after church much recently these few weeks. And haven't been chatting much since I most of the time rather occupied with work. Haven't seen him for so long too! :(

Woke up at 4:45am to do work since I slacked my butt off yesterday. Yes, you didn't see it wrongly. AM. In da mornin' yo. Munched on an apple in hope to keep myself awake for chem tuition at 10. Did quite much work before tuition I guess..? About half less productive in the afternoon. But still forced myself to do the econs corrections and touch a little of emath TYS. Did the english compo planning in 15min... Sigh. So slow. Planing to do english paper 2 and the graduation paper thingy tomorrow.

Currently about 70 words behind my schedule. But I shouldn't pile it. If not till the time comes it becomes a mountain, I won't even touch it then.

Woke up so early in the day. I'm soooooo tired now.

Goodnight!

Press on!

LOLOL. What in the world. Nazira actually didddd vote for me and Jason. So she wasn't kidding????? This is crazy. Tsk. But whatever. Not like anything changes. Right..? HAHAHA. "Aiya king and queen no need lovers right? Can be best friends ruling together~" WHY YOU SO CUTE HUH? Tsk. Jk.

Mr Jacob Tan is by far one of the best and most dedicated teachers you can ever find. Composed/editted a song for the graduating batch to encourage us. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=coo-DrUXDyc&feature=player_detailpage Cooler than you yo. HAHAH. WHICH YOU. Tsk. Nothing. Just needed a random person to fit in there.

Brother bought koi and laoban for me for tea!! ^^ oppa oneul saranghae ♥

Regine & Zexuan last minute ask me go swimming with them. HAHAHAHA. Wanted to so badly. But couldn't cause it was too last minute. After Os okay!! :D :D Must must!!

Oh. And can't wait for shopping dates with twinney that we've booked out slots after the Os too! If you're reading this, I DON'T CARE AT LEAST TWO DAYS OUT. BUT CAN BE AS MANY AS 1 WEEK IF NOT ENOUGH ^^

OKAY. Should STOP getting excited for post Os. Concentrate. Starting from tomorrow, exactly 1 more month. AJA AJA!!

Eotteoghajyo

Received English, CHum, Chem & Econ results. Really disappointed in chem & econs. I mean, they're like my two most confident subjects out of... bio eng mathssss. What's happening to you, HuiEn?? Pathetic marks. Missed by 1 mark for a grade up some more. But okay, like a grade up looks any better anyway since they both aren't distinctions.

My study leave flew away with econs results. Sigh. So what if my bio is gonna score better than chem? It's impossible to score a distinction for both maths considering the killer papers set. L1R5 at least 20 now. Sigh.

I'm zoning in and out now cause I'm depressed(..?)

I need drama therapy.

Bye.

Mummy says Lee Hyun Woo is cute!

WHAT. AM. I. DOING. NOW. MAN. Listening to sad OSTs of dramas. Making me feeling more sad for even no reason.

As the saying goes: You gain some, you lose some. But then all these by the grace of God.

Sigh. It's your last camp and you're the speaker. Means you won't really join in for the afternoon activities. And neither will you be the leader. And after this year, you'll go back to where you really belong. Let's just say we became friends at the wrong time.

About 2 more hours to the 18th of September. Know what this means? It's two more hours for us sec 4s to play left. And then it's the checking of papers. And then it's time for intense studying. I'm not exactly ready yet. I mean... Not prepared for the intense studying yet. :/

URGH. Whatz thiz sudden depressionzzz. HOMAIGOSH. Maybe I should just sleep it off ._.

What Monday blues????

Friends. They won't always be there for you. Face reality. But they will always be supporting you no matter where they are and they will always guide you to the better path.

WOOOOOOOOOOOO. OFFICIALLY END OF PRELIMS. BUT GUESS WHUT. 35 DAYS MORE TO OS. PFFFFFFFTT! :(

Alright. Staright away after prelims ended, project chiong home. To bathe and then wreck my brain on how to look older... If you get what I mean ;P HAHAHAHAHA. Got caught by some friends at the bus stop. Okay like duh, after exams and I seem like I'm going home to drama-marathon since I wasn't wearing contacts and I was indeed at the bus stop that was taking me home. I'm so sorry, but this is not my style. Go-outs are a must after every exam period. And no, I don't mug at home. I was honestly very angry when you said that to me. On the verge of ignoring you. But ever since I met up with the girls, I guess my mood has lifted and now I'll just drop it.

So.... After much planning, the girls decided on plan D. HAHAHAH. YES. Thattttt much planning. Chiong straight home after the papers to look old and meet at plaza sing :) But the show wasn't that good. A little waste of time cause the plot wasn't deep.

Waiting for jingqiau to upload the photos on facebook!

Miss this girl! When will June come again??! :(

On a side note, I really miss my MTDC matessss :( especially mich, yy & shuying. Oh not to forget amiruddin!! HAHAHAH. And yes so proud of anthea that she won some kpop talent hunt or something! GO GIRL! HAHAHAH, though I wasn't really close to her cause we were from different sections but hmmmmmmmm... close enough to take photos together? :) HAHAHA. But she's nice and approachable. :)

I won't be always with my friends, neither will they. But I'll always support them regardless of where I am, and I know they will too. That, my friend, is a true friend for you.

Annoyed.

Urgh. I need to get rid of my annoyed feeling here.

Number One: I'm annoyed at how my mum is scolding me cause I'm so "irresponsible" about my studies. Whenever I've studied so hard till I want some break, aka watching some dramas, she'll come budge in the room and complain how I should stop watching cause "I've been watching so much and not studying". Oh come on, not as if I don't know what I'm doing right. I've got a plannnnn. Say for example I'm at episode X, part X out of X. I'll naturally want to finish the whole episode before switching off the computer and go down my room to do something productive right? Say part 3 out of 4. After finished part 4 of 4, I'll go to my room and do some work. But the moment she comes in and starts yakking away, she'll just totally ruin my whole mood and then I'll scrap my plan and watch another few more episode till it's time to sleep. Seriously, have I said this many times. When someone tells me something obvious/I plan to do in a really commanding/annoying/naggy tone, ALL THE MORE I WON'T DO. Like duhhhhh even-idiots-know-what-to-do those kind of things. And the fact that you're telling me in this kind of tone, obviously you think I'm worse than an idiot who don't know better right. Okay then. Then all the more I'll remain as the idiot you think I am and not do anything about it. Happy?

Number Two: I'm reallyyyyyy annoyed at how people make use of others to look better. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BE YOURSELF. I mean, at least, can you not make use of others?? And this certain thing reallyyyyyyyyyyyyy annoys me ttm. How when you take a photo, you always make use of people by standing behind them, just to make your face look smaller than theirs. Be it even though if they have a face bigger than yours or smaller than yours. Okay. Since YOU THINK that YOU have a REALLY BIG FACE and are ashamed of YOUR FACE, YOU make use of THEM to make yourself look better by making them look bigger. It's just disgusting. Honestly. Why can't you just take a normal photo AND JUST STOP HIDING BEHIND THEM. If not, JUST DON'T TAKE LAH.

Number Three: Boys who are super unreasonable. And by unreasonable I mean when they ask you out and you reject cause you've had prior plans and tell them another day and then they show you attitude the next day JUST BECAUSE YOU "PANGSEH/DON'T WANT GO OUT" with them. Come on lah, have some demeanor can. Be a man. And yes, noticed I used the word "boys" on you. When you, on the behalf of the guys, ask a group of girls out. Say in the mind of a class outing. When girls reject your offer, and explain nicely how we've already planned an all girls' outing a few days before, WOULD YOU PLEASE JUST ACCEPT IT AND SAY "IT'S OKAY, LET'S GO OUT ANOTHER TIME" OR SOMETHING INSTEAD OF SHOWING YOUR STUPID ATTITUDE. Or, you try persuading us to change our plans for YOU ALL. I mean like. Firstly, WHO ARE YOU FOR US TO CHANGE PLANS FOR YOU ALL. We've planned nicely, and have been expecting for the day of outing ever since. Who are you to suddenly come and ask the day before to go out, making us scrap our plans that we planned and expected so much for a few days JUST FOR YOU. Have some sense. If we had to scrapped it for you all, any idea how much disappointment we'd feel? Obviously you don't get it right. And you don't have the slightest inkling how different and an all girls' outing and a combined outing are. Secondly, you blame us for like rejecting your offer when you have already "told all the guys" but in actual fact we told you "see first, most likely not". YOU BLAMING US NOW?? Obviously you have no idea in English that see first, most likely not =/= okay, let's go out together!! And you apparently don't get the hint in see first or most likely not that we're actually meaning NO. WE'RE NOT GOING but in a really polite tone. OH PLEASE. And when you really don't get the most obvious hint, and we finally decide to reject you in the most blatant way just just two letters: NO. You tell the guys that the combined outing won't happen, guys blame you and YOU BLAMED US CAUSE YOU'VE TOLD ALL THE GUYS ALREADY AND CAUSE WE REJECTED YOU, WE'RE THE ONE AT FAULT????? SERIOUSLY, HOW IS THIS OUR FAULT???????? Grow up and stop pushing the blame to others when you were clearly at fault okay. It just disgusts us girls how 没有风度 you have and annoys us how you go around like it's our fault when IT'S NOT.

Number Four: Okay this is not exactly annoying me but it's just... Something fustrating(..?) that I've decided to clear this up. At the first quarter of the year, I noticed how much bad habits you have. So I've tried to lightly remind you privately about all these. Cause honestly, I can't stand these some times too. You always say okay okay I'll change, but by coming June, you were still pretty much the same to me. So I decided, maybe telling you openly might help, maybe you'd feel embarassed that way and change. But then I did realised that maybe it was too harsh a thing to do. But however, it actually started to work somehow, by telling you openly. Have you not thought, that for such a sensitive person like me, not know that that was a really harsh thing to do? Did you actually thought that for such a sensitive person like me, I would actually do such a thing that was "insensitive" to you? Rather than saying I had your interest at heart but I was insensitive to your feelings, why not said because I was too sensitive that I decided maybe this was the best way. I guessed you never knew, that I've actally made a promise to myself  when I started all these what you seem as nonsence to you, that by the day you tell me you don't like all these, I'll completely wash my hands off you. Completely. Hundred percent. I'll just let you be who you want to be. That's because you honestly take up a lot of engery from me. Giving you so much concern, and drain away my energy? But it was worth it, cause I thought I could make you a better, more desirable person. But the day that you'd ask me to stop, is the day that I would make myself think that why should I dedicate so much energy on someone that's not me? THAT is why, you'll see that I'll completely wash my hands off you. Yes we're still the good friends as before. But from the day that you'll ask me to stop, it'll be the day when I won't give a hoot about your bad habits and let you be who you want to be. No, but we are still good friends.

Lastly, not classifying as an annoying thing because today's PAPA'S BIRTHDAY and do have a blessed one :)