Next stop, March. Is it time to move on?

Shall hurry finish typing out this post before it hits 12. But it's gonna be a short post anywayz. Or at least I hope...

Finally got myself to complete Rooftop Prince yesterday, ever since I got bored at the 3rd episode. But while listening/watching one of the FMVs with it's audio as the song I got to see clips of the later episodes, especially the final few episodes and it did look a little interesting. So got myself to watching through the bore at around episodes 4-7..? Roughly around there. And I also skipped the part where it featured Taemoo's dad. Totally bored me. Sorry. :P But I thought that the plot was rather well written. The warm feeling you get when you finally realised Leegak's quest was to find the lost fate that he had with Buyong/Parkha while watching halfway through the drama. But one thing I thought that wasn't so nice was that Buyong died in the end, leaving Leegak lonely by himself in the Joseon period while Parkha had Taeyong in the present time. Although the drama did show Parkha's inner voice talking to Leegak and they sort of filtered Taeyong to Leegak but... Yeah. Maybe Buyong had to die so to show that Leegak actually loved Parkha instead of Buyong and Parkha actually loved Leegak instead of Taeyong but still if Parkha was able to meet Taeyong, they should've been fair to Leegak. That was something I thought that could have been better.

Had a comparatively shorter time using the computer  today so I didn't do much drama viewing or whatsoever. But I watched Jackal is Coming. Thought Jihyo (LOLOL. idk what was her name in the movie although she was the Jackal) could have more romance with Choihyun. But really loved how it was revealed in the movie that Jihyo was actually putting on a show, making viewers think that she was a really clumsy person until like the last 15min of the movie..? But she was super cool in the movie! (Y)

I see that I'm slowly starting to like Korean sitcom! Finished High Kick 3... Er... With the exception of the last few episodes cause the site that I'm watching from seem to have broken links and not a lot of sites sub Korean sitcoms... Sigh. L-O-O-O-O-O-O-V-E the Ahn siblings!! Heheheh. Oh yeah, of which, Lee Jong Suk; I still can't find any subs for School 2013 episode 16 and it's Special episode. Bleh. :( In times like these I really wished I understood Korean and don't need to pathetically wait for subs. Sometimes I can't help but wonder if people who understood Korean actually feel "Hahaha I know Korean so I don't have to beg/wait so long for subs." Cause that's what I feel sometimes too while I watch Taiwan dramas and especially when I see in the comments section in YouTube "ENG SUBS PLEASEEEE -sad face x10000-"

The last day of February: Officially 1 month into JC for 90% of my friends and I see them complaining like it's already more stress than preparation for Os last year. I guess I'm a little thankful that I decided not to go JC..? I know biz courses in poly is also rather hectic and that it's not gonna be easy with all the projects going around and a lot of studying modules but at least I'm not taking an important exam NEXT year. I may be an inconsistent performer in terms of academics and in that sense, going to JC would seem to be a more legit path for me but I don't like grappling with all those stress and whatnot because I'm not the kind of person who can handle 100% hardwork. And JC's like 200% sweat. LOLOL. At least what I find out from my seniors. And no I don't see my brother ever stressed from preparing for As so he cannot be considered as a normal student.

And now to my last point. I've got 20min before it turns 12. Scrolling through my Twitter before I began typing this post and somehow I came to realization that I seem to be drifting away from my secondary school friends. Well it could be just me lah butz I just can't help wondering if it's true. And to a small extent do I feel that we no longer have common topics. They're convs with each other on Twitter alone make me feel that, ahhh everyone has all moved on. Maybe it's just that cause everysingleclosefriendsI'veeverknown has gone to jc. The only people I talk to nowadays are just my mum and grandma at home. I mean during my most wake hours. Dad out work, Brother out intern. LOL. My social life has shrunk to a... I DON'T EVEN HAVE A WORD TO DESCRIBE. WOW. That's how small it is now man. Okay, just a comforting thought was that one day yuanxing texted me and asked me out to eat ajisen with him one day. LOLOL. But then looking back.... WHERE ARE ALL MY ONCE-SO-CLOSE- GIRL FRIENDS. The only people I'm (even barely) keeping in contact now that are in JC would be Yijie Xiangping & Kaiying.

Just did a scan through my entry. Wow. And I sayed that it would be a short one. Maybe not then. Sucha lengthy wordy post with small words and no peektures. #turnoff. Yeah good, maybe then don't read at all, I'll gladly appreciate it. And I sincerely hope I didn't sound sarcastic there.

Goodnight, February. :)

Everything's gonna be fine

Failed attempt at packing my cupboard. Shall pack it tomorrow then... with a greater determination of not seeing a wardrobe that looks like it's gonna become a rubbish chute soon if there's not gonna be any maintaince... or should I say action taken. LOLOL.

Failed to make any flan today either cause the kitchen was so used up by mummy and not tomorrow either cause it's gonna be equally used up too... -.- Although I've not lost my craving for the bakes but I've lost the mood to bake. But I just smsed mummy the list of ingredients that I needed for my bake. And she replied me with a "Sleep now."... Seriously... -.-

Only thing that lightened up my day was that I overcame my laziness for 5 min, went out of the house and off to 7-11 to get some ice cream. And then conveniently some chips and sprite. Sigh. Days without work... nothing to look forward to... but then again I'm really fussy with jobs. Have to be worth the wages they're paying me and worth my time/effort in the job. Then it has to be convenient for me to go to and fro. And then lastly, preferentially with one or two friends as colleagues and no interview if possible.

Looking back, even those 2 weeks after 8th Feb, I've been just living an aimles life. Wake up, watch whatevee nice drama/shows I can find on the net, lunch, continue watching, dinner, continue watching, wifi gets cut suddenly, continue watching on my phone, sleep. I haven't been using it wisely for the profit for my spiritual health. Not reading and studying the bible much. Since I've got so much time, it's legit that I should study the bible as much as I can before school starts right? Seems like my priority is changing slowly. :/ Looks like I have to change it back asap. But slowly. Shall start with qt tomorrow morning.

Just a phrase I wanna leave behind.

Maybe somwhere, some time.

As much as I don't wish to admit it, I really miss you guys a lot.

I. Need. A. Job.

Can't wait for poly to start! Can it like start tomorrow... :( And so excited to get my enrollment package!

Wanna try baking chocolate lava again some time soon.

I need to buy ramekins! Think ikea has it cheaper but phoon huat seems nearer.

Making flan tomorrow! ^^ Then maybe yoghurt cupcakes on Saturday..?

Bits of my thoughts all over the place.

End of story. :)

Yet another one.

Second time of the year, setting my foot on Changi airport, sending someone off again. And to Australia AGAIN. And had our dinner at crystal jade AGAIN. LOLOL. So I heard that for people who are heading to Australia, their last meal in Singapore before they take off would be at crystall jade cause apparently you won't get to taste such food in Australia. Hmmmm... sounds legit. No wonder there's crsystal jade in all terminals (correct me if I'm wrong).

Was the only girl who didn't cry or was teary while we bade our farewells. And the guys were jokingly saying that I was heartless. But these kind of things I usually don't shed tears. As in, I don't know lah. Apparently the only thing that can make me tear is drama. I believe farewells may be sad, but we should smile and send our loved ones off because we know we'll see them again.

To my very very very first friend in Commonwealth! I still remember the day I walked in her gates and then I felt so lost cause I couldn't find any friends that I was close to in my primary school at commonwealth. And then when it was time for morning assembly, we went to sit in our classes in the parade square. And there came this girl who were behind me. We exchanges glances for a few seconds and she gave me a shy smile. Then when we were lead back to our classes after morning assembly, I felt so alone cause there weren't any qifarians in my class at all. But thank God for that girl whom I exhcnaged smiles with just now, there weren't any of her primary school friends in our class too. And then I so happened to look back with a confused gaze, thinking where should I sit, with whom? And then knowing I knew no one in the class as well, she asked me softly "I sit with you?" And that, was the beginning of our four-years-long friendship. But I know it won't just end with four years. It'll continue as long we breathe. Dear girl, living alone overseas may be difficult at first; handling every single thing by yourself, self-discipline to study well on top of that and the most difficult I believe for you is to make new friends because of your introvertness. But I believe that you'll pull through like how you did in CSS. And I'm so so so proud to have known such a kind friend like you. I'm so sorry I couln't make it to your farewell party, neither did I write a lot in your farewell card, but do know that I'll ALWAYS be here for you when you need me. What is 7h of flight, 3h of time difference? We've got whatsapp and skype.

But all in all, I really enjoyed those 4 years with you and I wish you all the best in your studies at Aussieland. June is just almost 3 months away and it'll pass very fast till we see you again. Till then!

Empty.

Last day at Raffles Exchange! Indeed, the last day always pass the fastest. Feels so surreal. Seems like there's nothing much to look forward too anymore. I won't deny that I did not enjoy my working experience as much as I did in OC but after all, I'm definitely gonna miss working at RX. So then

Somboon came today to help out with the packing up. At first when I saw him in the morning I stun for awhile. HAHAHA. Too long never see him already. And for a moment I thought "Who's this guy behind me." Cause I was watching some drama on YouTube and it was in the morning. Hard to get my brain process information that fast. :P Was being a super nice friend by bringing him around RX. LOLOL. Actually to Starbucks and Subway to get his breakfast. Offered to treat me starbucks but I wasn't really in the mood. So I declined. And then for the whole day he kept stalking my twitter account in my face. Totally reminded me of Diyo. But in Diyo's case, he read my tweets aloud in my face. LOLOL. Slightly worse. Then he kept disturbing me. Whenever we were bored and happened to look at each other, he laughs, then somehow I'll laugh. Then he said,"我不知道我为什么看你很想笑". But in the end he treated everyone at RX to laoban! That was cool and nice of him. That was about 6 shares of laoban.

Yijie came with Xiangping after their school. Aw man miss Xiangping so much!! HAHAHA! Yay! Good to see everyone after awhile. :) Six minus one, all of them cheered me up. :)

Okay sigh. This sudden feeling of emptiness set in once again.

왜 또...

Just a small rant on how some guys are really so brainless sometimes. I don't care if you're my closestestestestestest bestestestestest guy friend I've ever had. Or the nicestestestestestest guy. If you fall into this category, I'm so sorry, for this aspect, you're brainless.

I. DON'T. UNDERSTAND. WHY. Why do some guys choose to confess to a girl, with no intention. Like just telling the girl he like her for the sake of saying it. Don't you confess to someone, telling her that you like her, so that you may start a relationship with her if possible? You confess to a person because you like that person and you on your part are ready to start a relationship. No? If not tell me why. Seriously. You tell a girl you like her and you don't plan to do anything after that. Whether you like it or not, admit it man. The friendship will be affected. It'll be awkward for the girl. She can't forget what you've told her. And I'm talking in the scenario whereby the girl doesn't reciprocate the similar feelings. So then, every time she sees you now, she'll be reminded of it.

No, don't tell me a close friendship is still possible blah blah blah. It's not. At least for the time being after the guy has confessed. Some may say that it's possible. But it's either she's to fight the awkwardness, or she's just plain leading the guy on. Things like she hopes the guy continues to like her blah blah blah. Sure, drama. Cause I've seen too much of such girls anyway. Not saying this part to anyone in particular, lest they deem me trying to badmouth anyone in particular either. You sure it's possible? Think again. The girl may seem that she doesn't really bother but she actually feels disturbed to an extent. Small or large, depending on how important the guy is to her as a friend. Why is she disturbed? Because she worries if what she does gives him false hope. And because of that very fact. That's to a large extent. And probably that's because the guy's really an important friend. If it's to a small extent, then I guess she didn't really thought of him as a (good) friend in the first place.

And yes, because she worries what if she still treats him the usual as before, gives him false hope. After all, isn't it how the two people get along that the guys grows an attraction towards her? So then she grows colder to him, and slowly, that's how friends drift. Isn't it? And then when he finally gets over her, it's hard to get back to how close the two were before as friends. Not saying that it's not possible, but it's hard. "As long as both really want to be really really good friends, they'll overcome it." Circumstances has made me believe that it's almost impossible, because it's easier said than done. Be it girl-girl or guy-girl friendship.

So what am I trying to say here? What I'm trying to get across is that; Guys. Before you decide you want to confess to a girl, would you please make sure that you really like her and would really want to start a relationship with her, and that's the only reason why you'll ever confess to a girl that you like? If not, just keep your mouth sealed tightly and keep those feelings in your heart because by confessing just for the sake of confessing will eventually cost you this really close girl friend that you once shared so much memories with. Don't ever let your raging hormones tell you that you'll feel good after you confess, because just think again, you won't. Unless you're prepared to lose this close friend after confessing, if not just hold your peace and keep mum about it.

You don't know

Catchy song. Handsome guy. Good voice. Sweet mv. Perfect combination. This guy is from mo fan bang bang tang! His name was ke le. HAHAHA. WOOO! So proud of him! :D He sort of became a man. Those times during mo fan he was still a sort of boy. LOLOL.

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Okay here's the thing that really annoys me. Tomorrow only attentionseekingboi95 and I are gonna be working. The other two colleagues are like... busy with their lives. LOLOL. One interview one school. Siandieme. Irresponsible, ungentlemanly and worse of all, attention seeking mans. Which compounds and annoys me too much. And Jas said that Somboon will only come down on Friday. THANKS. Cheated my feelings. He told me he'll come down from Wednesday to Friday. So means Wednesday Thursday: attentionseekingboi95 and I. Mygosh. How will I survive with him alone.

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