The last day of the first month of the year already.

OH? It seems so fast that it's already the end yet it seems like it's March already because I'm feeling quite worn out now. Trying quite hard, not to look at you just now. I don't want you to get the wrong idea. I just like your eyes okay (: Anyway, I guess I was really worn out from the concert last night..? I was actually nodding during Mrs Philip's lesson. Haish. Thank God I still understood what she was teaching in the end. About an hour ago I was on the bus home. My eyes were dry and started tearing. Somehow it dawned upon me how ironic life can be sometimes. In fact actually, I feel that it's most of the time. Just how like the more you want something, most oftenly it'll end up as the more you won't get it. It's the last day of the month. I've got to wake up and buck up so I can catch up. But first, I really need to sleep. I'm so tired.

Shall upload MTDC's concert when I have the mood to.

FAILED plan again.

I'm sticky-less and sweet-less. I don't know what to do. Screw it man. OMG. NEVER MIND. Anyway, what I did just now was erm, watching some random songs which somehow lead me to listen to Tegami and somehow lead me to listen to it's covers.



This is the Taiwan version.




This is the Hongkong version.




This is the China version.




And the ORIGINAL VERSION. ♥




But ultimately, this is what we'll be singing. ♥♥





HAHAHA, OKAY. BUT I'M STILL NOT HAPPY YET. By the way, the Primary School's MTDC choir singing 感恩的心 is so freaking touching I'm afraid I'll cry when hearing them on the concert day itself which is tomorrow. OKAY, I shall be strong and try not to cry tomorrow after concert.

BYE.

HuiEn is still not happy yet.

I don't know what made me so moody but I know whenever I have nothing to do recently for the pass 2 days, I become a bit moody. Life is quiute sad for me currently. Just came back from MTDC and need to sleep soon. Tomorrow need to go for dental then rehersal then central then at home need to prepare the gifts. Sunday, concert whole day. Completely no time to do my homework at all! ): I feel so sad now. So me and Katherine planning to go school early on Monday and do finish. Then if I still can't do finish, I'll use my Study Hall period. Thank God it's on Monday first period.

I'm tired.

I'll pull through this.

Set my heart, O dear Father,
On Thee, and Thee only,
Give me a thirst for Thy presence divine.
Lord, keep my focus on loving Thee wholly,
Purge me from earth;
Turn my heart after Thine.

A passion for Thee;
O Lord, set a fire in my soul,
And a thirst for my God.
Hear Thou my prayer,
Lord Thy power impart.
Not just to serve,
But to love Thee with all of my heart.
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I guess it's time I should have realised I'm too far away from God and I should get back close with Him.
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I felt a little moody and irritated today. 说不出的心里话，说不出的差心情。I also can't tell why I was feeling this way. But anyway, I just kept that aside and pushed myself forward. Hid that side and flashed a smile. Moved forward. I'll try to study and read my bible everyday from tomorrow onwards and stop the drama-watching since I find them not as interesting as before but still got myself to watch since I really didn't want to touch my homework. But I guess this time is different. I've got to change. I guess that's all.

BYE

My head is so heavy!

Hello, I'm back from camp ^^ Today is 22. So Blessed birthday JoelC. You've been a very great friend, so have a blast! Wasn't really anticipating it cause I had my menses. But it turned out to be very fun ^^ Sadly I wasn't able to join my class when they went to the waterfall and play cause of that. -Regret of life- Ok, maybe it was just regret of camp only cause I think I'll be able to get over it soon. So, Friday morning left Malaysia, forgot i bring home my in-souls back. SIAN. So expensive some more. And I woke up with a painful throat and at night still need attend MTDC. LOL.

This morning wake up as good as no voice. Skipped tuition and slept until 12. Went to TangLin Mall to re-order my in-souls. THANK GOD they give 50 bucks discount. So price was 305. Need to do homework now if not tomorrow cannot celebrate JoelC's birthday at night.



EHWAK EHWAK!!

At least it was fun.

Today started off good cause I was reminded of yesterday's funny people, but then like I guess I started pmsing when school was over. Mainly because I had to stay back and do maths corrections. Oh yea, my period is here. And that makes things worse for me in KOTA TINGGI in another 1-2 days time. GOSHHH.. Anyway, bought a pretty hoodie. LIKE FINALLY. LIKE I FINALLY HAVE A NICE JACKET WITH A HOODIE. Thank God. Seriously. Hope it'll last me long.
Then it was at night and I wanted to start doing my homework but when I looked at it i was like, FORGET IT. -closes the book, uses facebook- Then I needed to ask some 3P people about hw but I guess ms was busy of something, so had to find other people. But like no one on msn available (..?) actually more like no 3P that I know of are online. So last resort was FaceBook chat. Oh gosh, any idea how I hate that chat room? So laggy and... Limited. But recently, friends that I talk to all starts from FaceBook chat, then we add each other on msn complaining how lousy FaceBook chat it. Ironic huh. So I happened to see Jason's name so just started asking him.

Oh hey! He's nice (: Okay, then we started talking and blah and he is like a total different person from really life. Well, at least, the way he talks luh. HAHA, and he like a lot to talk, say a lot of about himself and I'm haha okay... But I found out he was a SUPER COOL PERSON!! HAHA! Left-hander! <3 I like the way they hold their pens so chio-ly. LOL. Okay, I don't think I'm making any sense here :P HAHA, then right cause I was pmsing this afternoon, came back with the hoodie, parents didn't scold me surprisingly. So my mood improved a bit. From edgy, I became sian. Then after talking to him, well you can say I'm quite happy. Hahaha! Made a new friend from 3P! ;D

The wave is beautiful, ain't it?

Didn't realise my hair was that long.

I cheered up for a bit.

Kinda hmmm... Disappoint (..?) in the morning..? Like have a mini sectionals and Clara was saying like a lot of parts wrong, sharp here sharp there; flat here flat there; timing anyhow and like some part pitch also like wrong. So like, I guess made me really scared (..?) of the audition on Friday. Right, I put the dot dot question mark (..?) cause I'm not really sure of what word to describe it. The meaning is almost there but some what not so much of it. So when I went home after dinner, I just felt like taking up my score and do a finale notepad version of it to get the timing and pitch. But after the 3rd page, I gave up. So I resorted to using my phone's piano and play all the notes and just go through them. Spent about one hour and a half going through back and forth. And have not done my homework. Oh JOY. Should really set my priorities right.

I told myself this year, if possible, off comp by 10 sleep by 1030 if not sleep by 11. But it seems like I've got TONS of things to do and 7-11 (oh hey! seven-eleven the convenience store! :P) And time seems to pass sooooo fast when I'm doing homework now! I mean, you know, during the holidays, after church camp, I got sick of dramas and started stoning in front of the comp? Cause I'll feel weird not using the comp during that period of time and if off comp, then nothing to do. And like just go random sites and like time passed SOOOO slowly. And like, HEY! I like doing homework! (: OKAY, I'm officially weird but that super super nice feeling when you know how to do your homework and you completed everything. It feels really nice.

Anyway, today lessons was really fun and funny, but that lasted only until CME. However, I'm still quite happy about it (: So right, we had bio prrradikal lessons. -trying to imitate a proud Singaporean's Singlish accent- And we were told to leave our bags out side, bring in our prrradikal workbooook and prencil case. And just like that, Diana and me were like laughing about those two words through out the whole lesson. You should have heard it man! :P

Then to econs. Went down with Jerry and we were early for the first time! ;D Like, usually I'm one of the last :P HEHEHE! Anyway, econs was funny. Cause we were like discussing about consumer's products and someone suddenly mentioned condoms. And Mr Chua went, what condom? Jason, you have condoms uh? HAHA! LOL! Then Jason replied, condoms? I don't have, I just say it's a consumer's product only what. Seriously, so sick. At first thought he very quiet in class cause no clique but like still so sick. And that's what Jing Qiau warned us saying he was worst off in lower sec. LOL.

Next up, maths. That was the peak of the whole day man! Just him and the way he speaks totally brightens up the class' mood man! You know usually when a teacher has an accent we'll like keep talking about it and like that's in a bad way. But Mr Pras' accent was totally funny in a good way! The whole class love him! The way he marks our work really makes us wanna do corrections and puts a smile on our face. I think he is a really thoughtful teacher and he naturally just draws students' attention with his natural funny way of speaking. The way he says WALA! (which apprently means "SEE SEE SEE!!" -imitating his way of saying- in French) and  the way he says and spells OOPS is UPS. HAHA LOL! And the siao zhar bor beside me, Yuan Shan laugh like mad cow cause of him. LOL.

Everyone was going about talking about how cute the smiley was.

His handwriting is very nice too. Yeah, just ignore my mistakes okay. Humans make mistake too (:

Updates!

Just a very short and sweet update of today cause I'm tired and need to sleep soon. Woke up damn early for CCA open house. It was fun and funny. Then came home, watched Phineas and Ferb till dinner then did my maths and chinese homework. I don't mean the holidays' homework for both. So I'm homework-free and my plan for tomorrow is that I'll stay for Lentor till sgbf then come home early asap for dinner then make my chem notes. I don't know why am I so determined to make chem notes but at least it's something good and it takes my mind off you. So that's basically all for today.

BYE! (:

Something special, for once. Please.

Today wasn't that bad. I guess. Except for the HCL onwards part. I guessed I loved Bio the most because we were told to be in groups of 4-5 and I ended up in Gan Jie Li's group. He was so funny. And we didn't really do much during Bio. Simply just complete your undone homework and group discussion. So far so good in Sec 3 life. But I guess I'm some how or rather prepared for the heavy workload that's gonna come up soon.

Well, I can't help going to Facebook and see see. In the end sad again. But looking back at today, amongst all the sadness, there's still a tinge of happiness cause I made new friends in my new class.

Anyway, you know, when I saw my brother's batch and the 1995 batch go through sec 3, I was like thinking how cool it was to be a sec 3 and stuffs. But when all the teachers went like, THIS IS NOT A HONEYMOON YEAR AND YOU NEED THIS YEAR TO PREPARE FOR MOST OF YOUR O LEVELS. And I went, Dang it! How come those people made sec 3 lives look so easy and fun?! LOL.

To you, who claims to be my good friend. You just don't understand my pain and just talk big.

Currently it's still manageable but I doubt so in a few months' time.

School tomorrow.

Today was like probably the last celebration before school starts. WOW. The holiday actually seemed long to me to be honest. But I feel that being an upper sec? It seems realy fast! Anyway, went to sentosa. Left home when it was super duper hot. Went there, SOAKED. Thanks luh Nat. Went home like one hour late before my kurfew. Surprisingly, I WASNT SCREWED BY MY PARENTS! THANK GOD. You had no idea how afraid I was. HAHA! I'm quite tired to talk about today and I have not packed my bought books in my shelf yet. YES, my sec two worksheets/book/crap/whatever are still all in my shelf. LOL. FAIL. Shall just post a picture and go.

It's 2011 already?!

Oh yes, I'm not dreaming. It's 2011 already. How nice. School starts. Well, ok just like to post some thoughts today. Firstly, I did not talk about my "mini-adventure" that happened yesterday cause I was doing some reflections. So yeah, I was supposedly to leave my house at 9 and reach Newton at 930 to go to bM's house with the rest. So that meanwhile I could treat my eyebag and watch some tv, and hopefully, my brain will turn on a bit. HOWEVER, my parents forced me to leave the house at the same time with them claiming that yati will be too busy to close the gate for me if I left at 9. So, I left my house at a half-asleep state at 840. Then not long later, I got a text from Joanne asking me if I could meet her at clementi station then go to bM's house together. BUT, I misread it as meet at newton go to bM's house together. So I waited for the bus to go to harbourfront.

To go to vivo/harbourfront, I have to take 30/10/188/143 but I somehow like to clump 30, 143 and 51 together cause it goes the same route from qifa to my house. SO, I took 51 without much thought. 30, 10, 188, 143 to vivo is to go striaght. But 51 goes upwards to queensway. And when the bus started going up, that is, the old RV place, I realised that I WAS ON A 51 GOING TOWARDS QUEENSWAY! Oh YAY. Then I recieved a text from Joanne again ad realised we were miscommunicating. Cleared the misunderstanding, and then she has an hour's ride to newton from Clementi and I had to uturn to vivo. Alighted, and saw a traffic light thinking that I could cross-over and take a bus to vivo. Reach the traffic light to find out that there was no green man light. So it means it's for cars only. THANKS A LOT. But I hecked anyway and just crossed over there. Waited at the opposite bus top for buses to take me to vivo. I only knew that 97 brings me there. Then when two 61s past, I remembered seeing 61 at the vivo bus stop there. So I checked it's route and found out that, HEY! 61 actually stops at vivo! Oh JOY. Then after two 963s past by, thought of me seeing it at the vivo bus stop there too. So again, checked it's routes and, HEY! 963 stops at vivo too!! What JOY. But then few minutes later, the 97 that took forever finally arrived.

Got to harbourfront. Took a train to Dobby Gauht. Guess that's how you spell it. Sitting on a bench that somehow doesnt allow me to sit properly, kept sliding down. My pants made of silk too smooth uh? Oh YEAH RIGHT. Had to keep resittig on the bench. Then the train came. So I chose to enter the carriage on my left. *Beep beep, Doors are closing* "Forget it, take the next one." I thought. Turned back, and realised that the carraige on my right was RATHER SPACIOUS. Oh WOW. So smart of me?. Finally, got the next train, went to newton. And Joanne reached about the same time too. So, what can I say? Take those waiting as killing time while waiting for Joanne? If not I'd had reached newton at 915 or so. Seriously.

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Ok, now for the first thought of the day. I feel that everyone have a pretty side, just that it's whether you've seen it before or not. That's why we don't like so many people cause we've not seen the best of them. Take for instance, Joelt. Well, I find him really scary and I wouldn't want to actually initiate a talk with him cause I think that he'll always put me down, suan me and stuffs. But not until today, when he was wishing me a blessed birthday. Well somehow I guess he was encouraging me. See, I was whinning how my birthday reminds me that school will start soon, but he told me that he's as bad since he have his always during the exam period. So I guess that was really nice of him.

Another example is Joelc. Well, he is like the total opposite of his brother. Like I mean, based on how I interact with him. So like I don't really talk much to him. But since he gives me a feeling of my brother and since he's in my batch and since I want to encourage him to come for more teenz retreat/camp, I decided to be friendly and send him a christmas card. Yes, he MUCHHH more thoughful than his brother alright, period. His card was like one of the prettiest amongest all the cards I recieved from the guys. I mean like, you know, guys can be very lazy at such stuffs and just write down what they wanna say and full stop, thats the end of it. But he sort of took time to decorate it. I mean, what made me think that he was thoughful and sweet was the drawing on the card. Somehow, whenever I look at the drawing, it makes me happy(:

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Second thought of the day. I guess I've got to put myself in other's shoes more often. That was what this birthday taught me.

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Lastly, even as 2010 ends and 2011 starts, even as it seemed many days passed since teenz eoy camp, I hope I do stay close with the Lord even as when school reopens.

BYE