Dreaming.

Good afternoon people! So I promised you a post after my exams! Well my exams ended last Wednesday already but was still rather busy with life. Okay... other than catching up with my drama, I had to go down to school to set up the tables for exams refreshments. Went to vivo to get ingredients for my bake and some stuffs that mummy asked me to buy and look who I saw! Quick snap with Leonard-dy. :)

Yep, baked that on a Saturday late morning. Finally got the timing right!! The middle oozes out like WOOOOO. But I think I added a little too much butter. But it's still a legit molten chocolate lava cake; not a solid chocolate cake. Next challenge: either earl grey tea cake or chocolate root beer cake.

Was really really happy that I could finally go for YF bringing a free soul. Did not have to worry about undone projects or unfinished revision. Love this feeling. Having my first academic holidays whereby I've got zero school work. And it's so long some more! Starting from tomorrow, I've got 7 weeks. That's like 2 months minus 1 week only!

Woke up really late this morning cause I set my alarm wrongly. So when my mum finally suddenly woke me up I was like in a super dazed condition. Since I was sort of late I just told my whole family to go church first, I go church on mmy own when I'm done dressing up and eating my breakie. But papa still came back home and fetched me to church in the end. I guess I have to admit that I'm a lil' more a daddy's girl huh.

Ever since.

Hello there. It's been more than a month since I last updated my blog. Wow. The longest gap ever since sec 4..? Probably. Have been really busy with all my projects and homework. Even if I had the time to sit down and use the computer, you would have probably guessed that I've spent it on drama instead of updating my blog. Hehehe.

Warning: CONTENTS FOR THE FOLLOWING FEW LENGTHY PARAGRAPHS ARE ACCOUNTS OF MY DREAMS WHICH ARE AS USUAL, WEIRD AND ILLOGICAL. IF IT IRRITATES YOU, CEASE TO READ AND CONTACT YOUR NEAREST PSYCHOLOGIST. IF NOT, SKIP THE NEXT FEW PARAGRAPHS AND GO TO THE END OF THE ENTRY.

Crashed my bed at 1 but I couldn't and was rolling on the bed. Then somehow I dozed off. Woke up to somewhat a nightmare at around 3 I guess. Dreamt that I was along the paths of West Coast Plaza. It was 1 am + and there weren't any public transport available anymore. Had to walk home while hoping I could catch a cab while walking home. Then suddenly there was this uncle that I walked past, I somehow caught his glimpse at my wallet. Saw that he was widening his steps and I was getting cautious. Then I started running suddenly and he started chasing me. But, I was with my luggage and bag pack. So heavy. So burden. Ran so slowly. Then when I realised I couldn't make it in time home (any idea how far wcp is from my house by foot...) I woke up suddenly with my heart pumping so hard. It took me quite awhile to go back to sleep due to recovering from shock.

Then not long after I had a good dream but it was as usual, ruined by my dad waking me up. Dreamt that I was at SMTown concert. And apparently I was a part of SMTown. The concept of the concert was that artist would sit amongst the crowd and when it's time for them to perform, the MC would announce our names and we would jump up from our seats, proceed to the stage and perform. Then my name was called with other artist from SMTown too. LOLOL. It's been quite a gap between the dream and I. Can't remember who was called together with me. I don't know why but perform Again and Again. AND THE MOST WHAT-IN-THE-WORLD-PART WAS WHERE KANG GARY WAS DANCING BESIDE ME TOO. BAHAHAHA. Like Kang Gary is not even a part of SMTown. Then when the concert finally ended, all the SMTown artists were nuaing at the seats. So I took my swimming board and got Donghae to sign for me! (apparently all the other artists had those too. Maybe instead of the towels we had swimming boards. I KNOW MY DREAM IS ILLOGICAL AND WEIRD. BUT SHUSH AND CONTINUE READING IF YOU WANNA KNOW MORE.) Exactly the same board in the picture that I've found for you guys, just that the pink part was blue and the blue part was yellow.

But then cause Donghae signed so big that his autograph took up the whole board, I got my green file and asked Eunhyuk and Ryeowook. (I just suddenly happened to have a green file on the other hand) Used basic Korean & English to communicate! Then I took the green file to Luna then Victoria. Somehow, Luna was from China in my dream, she understood and spoke perfect Chinese while conversing with her. And she was so nice! Remembered myself calling Victoria "Song Qian Jie Jie"! HAHAHA. Then my dad came in my room and woke me up. Sighhh.

This week's revision week for the whole school yet my course has 1 written exam and 2 presentations to do. What revision... Exam's on the 19th and 21st. Promise to update after exams!

Having FOM written test today. FOM come at me. Rawr. JK. Not prepared yet.

May the mind of Christ my Savior
Live in me from day to day,
By His love and pow’r controlling
All I do and say.

May the Word of Christ dwell richly
In my heart from hour to hour,
So that all may see I triumph
Only through His pow’r.

May the peace of Christ my Savior
Rule my life in every thing,
That I may be calm to comfort
Sick and sorrowing.

May the love of Jesus fill me,
As the waters fill the sea;
Him exalting, self abasing,
This is victory.

May I run the race before me,
Strong and brave to face the foe,
Looking only unto Jesus
As I onward go.

May His beauty rest upon me
As I seek the lost to win,
And may they forget the channel,
Seeing only Him.

Recall.

Have been so busy with life that June is ending but yet this is my second entry of the month. Sigh. Oh well. Have been into deep thought this whole month especially for the past week. I am about to enter a new chapter of my life: I'm getting reaffirmed. After all these past 15 or so years of my life, seeing adults part taking in the Holy Communion, I am finally about to be able to part take in it. Seems like time passes so fast. Am I really ready for it?

Got a chance to be part of the organizing comm for this academic year's SPSU AGM as the Treasurer. Wasn't really busy during the prep pe say cause what does the treasurer got to do other than allocating the budget? Nonetheless, I tried to help out wherever I could during the event itself. And that included me running in my pair of raw heels to and fro from union to LT4A quite a number of times. And mind you, the route to LT4A is not only one of a long distance but also full of obstacles - STAIRS. Imaging me running up stairs in NEWLY BOUGHT HEELS. My gosh. Got a small blister on my toes after the whole event.

Have been really upset about the results that I've gotten back. You know the feeling when you see your marks and you thought "Hey, not bad!" but then you were instantly slapped in the face by reality and it tells you "Oh yeah?" and you realized most of your friends scored better than you. Now you wonder if you're performing below average. Zero distinctions. Wasn't what I planned for. My most confident subject actually scored the lowest. Could be God's calling for me to start relying on His strength instead.

My previous maid has finally came back! The one before was a really dirty maid I couldn't stand her. Urgh. I sound like a spoilt brat complaining but seriously she's just so lazy and dirty! My room used to be sooo clean but ever since she came, my feet turns black when I walk around my room for a few min. OHMYGOODNESS. Really happy to see my previous maid back when I saw her yesterday. Gave her a biggggg hug. This. Plus seniors said that AGM was really successful. Really made me happy. But once in awhile, the exam results just pops up in my mind that it stings me a little now and then.

But all in all, very thankful for those seniors that came and support us and also a special mention to Zhiyi Mindy and Joel for dropping by! Really, really thankful. :)

 

 

 

 

Sai lent me his lab coat which was L so basically, me and an oversized lab coat. And the last picture: Finance Comm!

Uncertainty.

I should have been happy enough to be even counted as one of you all right? I should be thankful. I can't help it but it stings me a little sometimes when I look back to realize that somehow I couldn't penetrate that circle of yours. I don't know. It's been about a year already. I thought I have already walked out of it but once in awhile when I see how well you all are doing without me, it still stings me how whether or not I was with you guys, there wouldn't be any difference.

Sorry for making it an odd number group.