Yet another one.

Second time of the year, setting my foot on Changi airport, sending someone off again. And to Australia AGAIN. And had our dinner at crystal jade AGAIN. LOLOL. So I heard that for people who are heading to Australia, their last meal in Singapore before they take off would be at crystall jade cause apparently you won't get to taste such food in Australia. Hmmmm... sounds legit. No wonder there's crsystal jade in all terminals (correct me if I'm wrong).

Was the only girl who didn't cry or was teary while we bade our farewells. And the guys were jokingly saying that I was heartless. But these kind of things I usually don't shed tears. As in, I don't know lah. Apparently the only thing that can make me tear is drama. I believe farewells may be sad, but we should smile and send our loved ones off because we know we'll see them again.

To my very very very first friend in Commonwealth! I still remember the day I walked in her gates and then I felt so lost cause I couldn't find any friends that I was close to in my primary school at commonwealth. And then when it was time for morning assembly, we went to sit in our classes in the parade square. And there came this girl who were behind me. We exchanges glances for a few seconds and she gave me a shy smile. Then when we were lead back to our classes after morning assembly, I felt so alone cause there weren't any qifarians in my class at all. But thank God for that girl whom I exhcnaged smiles with just now, there weren't any of her primary school friends in our class too. And then I so happened to look back with a confused gaze, thinking where should I sit, with whom? And then knowing I knew no one in the class as well, she asked me softly "I sit with you?" And that, was the beginning of our four-years-long friendship. But I know it won't just end with four years. It'll continue as long we breathe. Dear girl, living alone overseas may be difficult at first; handling every single thing by yourself, self-discipline to study well on top of that and the most difficult I believe for you is to make new friends because of your introvertness. But I believe that you'll pull through like how you did in CSS. And I'm so so so proud to have known such a kind friend like you. I'm so sorry I couln't make it to your farewell party, neither did I write a lot in your farewell card, but do know that I'll ALWAYS be here for you when you need me. What is 7h of flight, 3h of time difference? We've got whatsapp and skype.

But all in all, I really enjoyed those 4 years with you and I wish you all the best in your studies at Aussieland. June is just almost 3 months away and it'll pass very fast till we see you again. Till then!

Empty.

Last day at Raffles Exchange! Indeed, the last day always pass the fastest. Feels so surreal. Seems like there's nothing much to look forward too anymore. I won't deny that I did not enjoy my working experience as much as I did in OC but after all, I'm definitely gonna miss working at RX. So then

Somboon came today to help out with the packing up. At first when I saw him in the morning I stun for awhile. HAHAHA. Too long never see him already. And for a moment I thought "Who's this guy behind me." Cause I was watching some drama on YouTube and it was in the morning. Hard to get my brain process information that fast. :P Was being a super nice friend by bringing him around RX. LOLOL. Actually to Starbucks and Subway to get his breakfast. Offered to treat me starbucks but I wasn't really in the mood. So I declined. And then for the whole day he kept stalking my twitter account in my face. Totally reminded me of Diyo. But in Diyo's case, he read my tweets aloud in my face. LOLOL. Slightly worse. Then he kept disturbing me. Whenever we were bored and happened to look at each other, he laughs, then somehow I'll laugh. Then he said,"我不知道我为什么看你很想笑". But in the end he treated everyone at RX to laoban! That was cool and nice of him. That was about 6 shares of laoban.

Yijie came with Xiangping after their school. Aw man miss Xiangping so much!! HAHAHA! Yay! Good to see everyone after awhile. :) Six minus one, all of them cheered me up. :)

Okay sigh. This sudden feeling of emptiness set in once again.

왜 또...

Just a small rant on how some guys are really so brainless sometimes. I don't care if you're my closestestestestestest bestestestestest guy friend I've ever had. Or the nicestestestestestest guy. If you fall into this category, I'm so sorry, for this aspect, you're brainless.

I. DON'T. UNDERSTAND. WHY. Why do some guys choose to confess to a girl, with no intention. Like just telling the girl he like her for the sake of saying it. Don't you confess to someone, telling her that you like her, so that you may start a relationship with her if possible? You confess to a person because you like that person and you on your part are ready to start a relationship. No? If not tell me why. Seriously. You tell a girl you like her and you don't plan to do anything after that. Whether you like it or not, admit it man. The friendship will be affected. It'll be awkward for the girl. She can't forget what you've told her. And I'm talking in the scenario whereby the girl doesn't reciprocate the similar feelings. So then, every time she sees you now, she'll be reminded of it.

No, don't tell me a close friendship is still possible blah blah blah. It's not. At least for the time being after the guy has confessed. Some may say that it's possible. But it's either she's to fight the awkwardness, or she's just plain leading the guy on. Things like she hopes the guy continues to like her blah blah blah. Sure, drama. Cause I've seen too much of such girls anyway. Not saying this part to anyone in particular, lest they deem me trying to badmouth anyone in particular either. You sure it's possible? Think again. The girl may seem that she doesn't really bother but she actually feels disturbed to an extent. Small or large, depending on how important the guy is to her as a friend. Why is she disturbed? Because she worries if what she does gives him false hope. And because of that very fact. That's to a large extent. And probably that's because the guy's really an important friend. If it's to a small extent, then I guess she didn't really thought of him as a (good) friend in the first place.

And yes, because she worries what if she still treats him the usual as before, gives him false hope. After all, isn't it how the two people get along that the guys grows an attraction towards her? So then she grows colder to him, and slowly, that's how friends drift. Isn't it? And then when he finally gets over her, it's hard to get back to how close the two were before as friends. Not saying that it's not possible, but it's hard. "As long as both really want to be really really good friends, they'll overcome it." Circumstances has made me believe that it's almost impossible, because it's easier said than done. Be it girl-girl or guy-girl friendship.

So what am I trying to say here? What I'm trying to get across is that; Guys. Before you decide you want to confess to a girl, would you please make sure that you really like her and would really want to start a relationship with her, and that's the only reason why you'll ever confess to a girl that you like? If not, just keep your mouth sealed tightly and keep those feelings in your heart because by confessing just for the sake of confessing will eventually cost you this really close girl friend that you once shared so much memories with. Don't ever let your raging hormones tell you that you'll feel good after you confess, because just think again, you won't. Unless you're prepared to lose this close friend after confessing, if not just hold your peace and keep mum about it.

You don't know

Catchy song. Handsome guy. Good voice. Sweet mv. Perfect combination. This guy is from mo fan bang bang tang! His name was ke le. HAHAHA. WOOO! So proud of him! :D He sort of became a man. Those times during mo fan he was still a sort of boy. LOLOL.

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Okay here's the thing that really annoys me. Tomorrow only attentionseekingboi95 and I are gonna be working. The other two colleagues are like... busy with their lives. LOLOL. One interview one school. Siandieme. Irresponsible, ungentlemanly and worse of all, attention seeking mans. Which compounds and annoys me too much. And Jas said that Somboon will only come down on Friday. THANKS. Cheated my feelings. He told me he'll come down from Wednesday to Friday. So means Wednesday Thursday: attentionseekingboi95 and I. Mygosh. How will I survive with him alone.

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